Chapter 1641 What is missing is a perfect ending (1)

"After two months, I picked up the pen again to record the most collapsed thing in my life. I was almost defiled. The woman bribed people and forced me. She was only a little bit away. I was so scared at that time, as if I was going to die... Why did I do this wrong? Even if those bad people didn't succeed, I still felt so dirty and disgusting! I wanted to commit suicide more than once, but when I looked at the baby's innocent little face, I felt sorry for him. He was only three years old. Would he be going to make him lose his mother? If I was gone, the baby would be bullied by others..."

"The doctor said that my depression is even worse. As soon as I close my eyes at night, I will be covered with dirty and dirty scenes. Even if I take sleeping pills, it won't work. I feel that I'm really not able to hold on anymore. He knew that I had depression and never went to the company. He stayed at home with my baby and I every day. I knew that he was afraid that I could not think about it, but I didn't need anyone's sympathy! This is my only pride..."

"I don't like to talk. I only say a few words to my baby every day, because only the baby can bring me a little comfort. Except for the baby, I don't want to see anyone, nor do I want to say more. The feeling of everything being under my heart but not being able to say it once made me face a collapse. I can only write it all in my diary when there is no one at night, and I will feel a little better after I finish writing it."

"This may be the last time I have written a diary. The day before yesterday, the childhood sweetheart Lan family, who grew up with him, came to me. She said a lot of ugly words to insult me. She said, "My existence will make everyone in the outside world laugh at the Si family's jokes. The Si family will definitely not tolerate a unclean woman as the mistress. Si Hao doesn't need a mother like me. I can't refute her words. I feel that I'm dirty, let alone others. However, what suffocates me the most is that she said I am her substitute, my husband

I have never liked me, so I deliberately neglected me as soon as the novelty passes, and I have caused trouble for me everywhere. Now I treat me well because of guilt and sympathy. It's really ridiculous. It turns out that I have always been a substitute for others, but I still foolishly think that I am about to catch happiness. Sorry, my baby, my mother really can't hold on. The only person who feels sorry is you. I hope you can forgive my mother's cowardice. I have overdrawn all my love. Please remember, I really love you... Goodbye, baby..."

The diary ended here, and his eyes were completely blurred by the tears that gushed out. The diary was very long, and his eyesight was not good, so he could only read it word by word, for fear of missing any punctuation marks. As he looked at it, tears flowed all over his face. He had to wipe it while reading, otherwise he would not even be able to see the words clearly. Tears dripped on the yellowed paper, shaving black flowers.

Only at this moment did he realize how much he had done wrong!

From her diary, she could clearly feel her happiness from the beginning, her heart moved to confusion and anxiety, and finally she walked step by step to despair. All of this was caused by him. Because of his machismo and his possessiveness, he always thought that she was still obsessed with her first love, so he wanted to force her to bow to him and show weakness, but he forgot that she was also a protective little woman. If she took away her pride, she would not be able to live...

(End of this chapter)
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