I could not refuse Jian Wei's request, and I turned over and sat on the guardrail. I looked at the river beneath that Jian Wei said to have a mysterious passage. We heard the sound of the wind blowing through the flowing water. Everything seemed to be fast forward. In just a blink of an eye, the season changed in an instant. We walked through the spring, autumn and summer, and fell into the cold current of winter by mistake.

"Do you want to smoke?"

I looked at Jian Wei. This was the first thing she said to me after I sat on the guardrail. I swallowed because there was a sour feeling in my nose. I nodded to her. She searched in her handbag. She didn't find the lighter and cigarette, but accidentally shook a lipstick off into the flowing river, causing ripples...

"Lipstone!" Jian Wei's lips trembled, and she looked at the riverside with a soul loss!

"It's just a lipstick, why should you care too much?"

Jian Wei looked at me and her eyes turned to her handbag again. Finally, she found the lighter and a pack of Zhongnanhai that had been opened. She pulled out a cigarette from it and handed it to me. I took it from her hand and she helped me light the fire. The familiar smell of mixed smoke spread around us, and the smoke changed into various shapes under the light!

I took a deep breath again, subconsciously looked up at the black agate-like sky, the stars were flickering like a flattering light, and the light swayed in my sight. In fact, this night has its own beauty, but our mood broke everything in this world... At least, for Jian Wei, she was still shining with tears in her eyes, and she kept watching the place where the lipstick just fell into the river, and the ripples had been wiped out by a gust of wind, turning into waves and continuing to extend into the distance...

The cigarette in my hand was almost burned into a cigarette butt, but time seemed to be still. I couldn't feel it was pushing forward. I finally said to Jian Wei: "Did you see the stars thousands of light years away from us?"

Jian Wei's attention was not on the river surface. She looked up at the starry sky covered by the night with me, but did not answer, because this was not a luxury and difficult thing. As long as she looked up, she could see the relatively eternal star.

I asked her again, "In comparison, are they small, or are we small who are sitting here?"

"We... compared to them, we are just two particles of dust falling into the world."

I gently hugged her shoulder and asked softly: "Then how great can our pain be?... No matter how big it is, it is not only two particles of dust! Is it?"

Jian Wei nodded... After a long time, she replied: "Our pain comes from taking ourselves and the people around us too important, but... pain itself is something that is illusory. After decades, we no longer exist in this world. These pains that have pierced us will have no evidence of existence, so we are very bored... and very childish!"

"Yes, why not take everything lightly? No matter how good you live or how bad you live, you will still be dead in the end, sooner or later!"

"...Are you teaching me that my mind is free of distractions and that all the four elements are empty?"

"No, I just hope you can take the pain in the present and remember all the happiness we have after we come to this world. We do things in happiness, feel happiness in doing things, and then grow and age in the changes of the four seasons. Isn't that great?"

Jian Wei finally smiled slightly and asked, "What is the thing that makes you most happy in life?"

I remembered the past love again. What else is there in this world that I have had a happy life? The person I had a crush on was also a crush on myself?...Yes, this was how Jian Wei and I started. She always followed my band intentionally or unintentionally. I would also ask my friends around her about her movements, paying attention to every club activity she participated in. Until we revealed our feelings to each other, we realized that there were such happy things in this world... What I remember most about that year was the blooming rapeseed flowers. During that group outing organized by the club, we said a lot and did a lot in the field where there were only two of us. I was so excited that I even held her hand trembling!

But, can I still talk about this now?

No! Because it's too far away, because I no longer expect that kind of life full of pursuit and exploration, I also smiled and asked Jian Wei, "What about you? What is the happiest thing that makes you feel?"

"I asked you first, so you said it first."

I finally said to her against my original intention: "The happiest thing is nothing more than eating, drinking and having fun with a group of brothers in college... At that time, I really didn't have any troubles in life. I could live a thousand yuan a month!...What about you, what is your happiest thing?"

"Haha, I thought Mi Cai promised to be your girlfriend to be the happiest thing. It turns out that this is not the case. Maybe love and women are not the most important things in your life!"

"It's also happy, but we're together now, so this kind of happiness seems very weak. People always know how happy and happy I was when they lose it!" I stopped and urged, saying, "I've finished it, but you haven't said anything that makes you feel the happiest... Don't think about cheating, we have always been fair."

Jian Wei lowered her head and looked at the river again, and after a long time, she said, "What makes me happy is the past... At that time, shopping, shopping, chatting, and doing activities with the sisters in college were all very good memories, and there was no burden at all...!"

I nodded and said, "Well, when you are in pain in the future, remember to think more about these things that made you happy. Sometimes, beautiful memories are also a kind of power!"

"I understand... Thank you for coming to me today, and everything you said to me... I hope you have been to Suzhou and will not cause you any trouble!"

"Didn't friends just comfort each other when they are in trouble... Even if there are some troubles, I don't regret coming to Suzhou tonight... I also hope you take good care of yourself. I have to go back. There are still a lot of things waiting for me to do in the newly opened coffee shop tomorrow!"

Jian Wei lowered her head and replied: "Well, be careful on the road."

"Yes...you should go back early and rest, it turns out that it's a good day!"

Jian Wei suddenly grabbed my arm: "I'll take you to the train station."

I smiled and replied, "You have drunk so much wine, I dare not ask you to send it..."

"We'll go together...I hope you can accompany me to the mall to buy a lipstick. My lipstick just fell into the water."

I looked at her. She obviously hadn't dressed up today, and her skin was not as shiny as before. Now she was willing to care about a lipstick, which proved that she had the idea of ​​dressing up herself, which was much better than being so addicted to pain. Of course, I agree with her request. Moreover, now I still have some time to accompany her to the mall to buy a lipstick, which is a friend's responsibility, because in addition to comforting, shopping is also an indispensable part. Although it was already late at night, buying a lipstick is not a difficult task, because it is close to the end of the year, large shopping malls have extended their business hours.

......

Sitting in a taxi with Jian Wei, the lights shining from all directions accompanied us all the way through this sleepless city tonight. After a while, we arrived at the city center and stood side by side on the street between Polygon and Zhuomei Shopping. I didn't know what I was feeling. Jian Wei seemed to understand the emotional shocks these two shopping malls brought me, and she was always waiting patiently for me to make a choice.

In the city, the starry sky has been replaced by various neon lights. I treated myself as a speck of dust in the light and finally signaled Jian Wei to go to Polytechnic Department Store... Because Zhuomei has too many Micai acquaintances, I am not sure whether these acquaintances will pass the shopping incident between Jian Wei and I to Micai's ears, so Polytechnic Department Store is really insured, and I won't stay for too long, so it should be safe.

Polytechnic Department Store is still one of the most popular shopping malls in the city. Even at 12 o'clock in the middle of the night, there were still endless customers. Jian Wei and I stopped at a cosmetics counter. Then, at the suggestion of the shopping guide, she chose a moisturizing lipstick. I paid for her, as my gift to come to Suzhou to see her. When the shopping guide packaged it, we really ushered in the moment of farewell.

......

Outside the mall, she and I stood face to face. I handed her the box with lipstick and said, "Just say goodbye here... Don't be too sad when you go back. If you have any worries, talk to Yan Yan, do you know?"

"I will."

Her answer finally made me feel relieved. I nodded and prepared to turn around and leave, but I didn't expect Fang Yuan, Mi Lan and several major shareholders of Polygon Department Store to come out of the mall together. We met face to face. I was shocked and repelled from the bottom of my heart, but we were close to each other and could not avoid it... This seemed to be another meeting deliberately arranged by fate.

I looked ugly. After Fang Yuan was silent for a long time, he looked at the Polytechnic Department Store behind me and said to me: "Zhuomei is planning to acquire part of the shares of Polytechnic Department Store. Milan and I came here to attend the cooperation meeting. The meeting just ended... It was a coincidence that we actually met you and Jian Wei here! Haven't you already returned to Xuzhou?"

I was stunned, and a burst of disgust of Fang Yuan appeared in my heart, but I was even more worried that Mi Lan would tell Mi Cai about the scene where I was with Jian Wei. Then I would not be able to argue!!

Jian Wei had no expression on Fang Yuan and said, "Yan Yan had some adverse reactions after the operation. He came to see Yan Yan. Is there any problem?"

Mi Lan looked at me and Jian Wei with suspicion and said, "He came to see this woman Yan Yan, why did he get along with you? Shouldn't he be in the hospital?"

Jian Wei's expression had the urge to suck Mi Lan again, but in order not to cause trouble for me, she explained patiently: "Yan Yan has already had a check-up and went home. Zhaoyang and I came out to buy some rehabilitation supplies for her..." Then she said to Fang Yuan: "Fang Yuan, do you still have the face to ask this vixen again? She dares to say more nonsense, do you believe me if I suck her?"

Mi Lan replied to Jian Wei without giving in: "I would like to remind you to see what your identity is now, and to really think that you are the daughter of the past? ... I pray that your parents will be sentenced to a few years, a terrible worm in the officialdom!!"

"You..." Jian Wei looked at Mi Lan tremblingly, holding back her tears.

I finally couldn't stand it and said to Fang Yuan: "Fang Yuan, you should let your wife take care of her mouth. Feng Shui takes turns to accumulate more virtue, so as not to be hurt by others in the future!"

Fang Yuan seemed to have no intention of arguing with us. He didn't respond. He pulled Mi Lan, comforting her emotions and not getting angry, while walking towards the parking lot. Jian Wei's tears that she had been holding back finally fell when she couldn't see them. Mi Lan just said aggressive words and stabbed the most vulnerable part in her heart. This was Mi Lan's revenge for her. She had slapped Mi Lan twice in the face, but these two slaps could not stop her from being with Fang Yuan. Everything happened without our unknowingly and powerlessness!

Jian Wei's tears made me feel extremely distressed, but she stubbornly wiped away her tears and said with a smile: "The more others look down on me, the more mocked me, I must live a look for her... Zhaoyang, don't worry, I will live a good life! ... After returning to Xuzhou, if Mi Cai knows that you have come to see me, you will say that you are visiting Yan Yan. I will ask Yan Yan to cooperate with your statement... Also, no matter what happens in the future, don't come to me with Mi Cai on your back... I know you treat me as a friend, but I hope you can live a good life... Thank you!"

I looked at her thin body under the light, and felt a sense of reluctance and unbearance in my heart. I really didn't want to leave just like this, but I had to leave. I held back the tears that were about to flow down, smiled, clenched my fists and said to her, "Come on, I believe you can cheer up again, because you are the strongest, most independent and bravest woman I have ever seen!"

"Yeah, come on..."

I nodded, but could no longer look back. I walked towards the taxi waiting for customers not far away. When the car closed the door and the car started, I turned around and saw her looking at the farewell figure. Finally, I couldn't help it. Just as I closed my eyes, tears fell down my neck into my clothes. I was in pain, very painful, and I was in pain because I could do nothing!

Finally, there was no sign of her in my sight, but the scenes in the past became clearer and clearer. Her difficulties deeply inspired my hidden feelings for her, but I couldn't speak...
Chapter completed!