The coffee shop is so quiet and terrible. I am struggling to find a way out in a world where there is only one person. I dare not imagine Jian Wei’s current mood with my flesh and blood. I can only put myself in the position of the bystander, heartache, numbness... so repeated!

Before dusk came, I seemed to be drowned in the dark night, looking for the dawn of life... I finally closed the door of the coffee shop and drove to the city. I went to a cake shop and bought some pastries to deliver to Micai's company. At noon today, because she helped customers make coffee, she didn't even have the time to have a good lunch.

After a while, I arrived at Orson Advertising. Although I was holding the dessert, my mood was still heavy in bitterness. This heavyness stemmed from my concern for Jian Wei, and I hated that I could not share what I could do for her.

I greeted acquaintances all the way, and I finally came to Li Xiaoyun's office. After knocking on the door and getting a response, I walked in with dessert. At this time, Li Xiaoyun and Mi Cai were both bowing their heads to deal with the matter. Mi Cai was more focused, as if the lateness at noon had left her a lot of work.

Li Xiaoyun's eyes left the computer screen, and she smiled and asked me, "Zhaoyang, are you here to send us afternoon tea...?"

"Well, I bought coconut red bean cake and maixiang milk tea. Hurry up and replenish your energy in the midfield."

Mi Cai stopped and signaled me to give her the pastry quickly. I first put one of them on Li Xiaoyun's table, then opened the pastry box for Mi Cai before handing it to her. She took it from me and sighed: "If you don't come, I'm going to order takeout. I've never been so hungry!"

"You should buy some snacks to make your stomach after you get to the company. Mental labor is also very physically consuming."

Li Xiaoyun took the words and said, "Didn't Mi Cai rely on having you as a boyfriend? You didn't disappoint her expectations. She brought the afternoon tea like raining in time! I also benefited from it and felt inexplicably better..."

"Don't just take care of us. Next time Wang Zheng sends afternoon tea, remember to bring rice lottery..." I finally joked, but my heart still felt like it was being pulled by jagged teeth, and there was a pain.

"I'm petty..." Li Xiaoyun gave me a blank look, put the pastry in her handbag, then picked up the milk tea and said to me: "I'm going to XCMG Group to deal with some business matters soon. You can chat with Micai for a while, don't keep her emotions tight at work..."

Mi Cai smiled and said, "Director Li, are you recognizing my job in disguise?"

Li Xiaoyun also smiled, then waved to us, and left the office with milk tea... For some reason, there was a third person missing. When facing Mi Cai, my mood became complicated again. If she hadn't appeared in my life, what kind of intersection would I have with Jian Wei at this moment? Can I be rightful and stay by her side to help her share some of the pain in life?

I moved a chair and sat down opposite Mi Cai. She took a sip of milk tea in her hand and said to me: "Zhaoyang, after get off work later, I will go to Yangzhou... I may have to stay for two or three days."

"Go to Yangzhou?...what should you do when you work?"

Mi Cai nodded and confirmed again, replying: "President An of Tianyang Group just called me. She was planning to travel far to Tibet. Before leaving, she wanted to meet me. She had no experience in going there, so she wanted to ask me for advice and buy some emergency supplies on the road with her... As for work, I have already asked Xiao Yun for leave. After I come back, I can make up for it on the weekend."

"this......."

"What's wrong? Do you want to go with me?...I think Mr. An will definitely welcome you!" Mi Cai said and smiled. Obviously she was in a good mood and was looking forward to seeing the woman in red in Yangzhou, because she was one of the few friends she could make friends with.

"I...I won't go there anymore. There are still a lot of work to do before opening in the coffee shop."

Mi Cai was slightly disappointed: "I knew you wouldn't go, but it was also worth it. There is nothing more important at this stage than a career, so you have to work hard!"

I nodded and replied, "Well, you should also pay attention to safety on the road, don't drive tiredly, and go to the service station to rest for a while if you are sleepy."

"I know, it's only more than three hours in total, you don't have to worry... But I'm really looking forward to the gains of Mr. An's trip to Tibet. Over the years, she and that man have been in pain. I hope that after this, they can finally get married."

"Well...I heard that the man and his first love had a child and were divorced..."

Mi Cai looked at me dissatisfiedly and asked, "Why, are you trying to use him as a role model? I feel that I have not been making trouble enough?...If it weren't for love, Mr. An would not tolerate these stains in his life!"

"I have long bid farewell to the life of making trouble. I am very simple now. You don't know... However, Mr. An has also messed up that man so hard this year. I think: they have all realized in this long-term love war. The eyes of us bystanders are nothing to their parties. All they want is a life together in the future... I believe that after they have experienced so much, love must be full of tolerance and understanding. What they have now is a kind of highest love, and it is also a love that cannot be separated!"

Mi Cai was silent for a long time and did not refute anything to me. Or she agreed with what I said, or she didn't want to talk to me too much about it and asked me to discover it with conscience. In fact, compared to the tolerance of the woman in red to that man, she was tolerant enough to me, because I had also made a woman pregnant and had a chaotic private life, and because of passive negligence, she lost Zhuomei, but she did not leave me because of this, and even cared about me more than before... So, this is the reason why I felt heartbroken for Jian Wei's current experience, but could not look back and take a look.

.........

On the evening after sunset, Mi Cai went to Yangzhou alone, and I also returned home with a complicated mood. I was lonely at home because my father and mother also went back to the countryside to visit relatives today... This kind of loneliness that seemed to be arranged suddenly tricked me. I wanted to race against time. If I take the high-speed rail now, it only takes more than two hours to reach Suzhou. I can meet Jian Wei and come back tomorrow morning...

But......

It was getting darker, so I cooked some noodles by myself and went downstairs to buy some side dishes for wine. I drank a lot of wine. I wanted to use the wine to forget the troubles that bother me so that I would not think too much when it was late at night, and I would go to sleep early and welcome the sunshine tomorrow morning.

I did do this. Before 7 o'clock, I lay on the bed with dizziness. At this time, Mi Cai also sent the news that she arrived in Yangzhou safely. I breathed a sigh of relief and felt sleepy in the dizziness...

I really fell asleep, but in just one hour, I had nightmares. Among them, the scene where Jian Wei chose to end her life because of her despair of life woke me up from my dream. My cold sweat was covered in cold sweat, my palms were filled with moisture, and my persistence was faintly showing signs of collapse. I lit a cigarette in the darkness around me... I overcame this panic, but the panic continued to invade... I put out half of the cigarette in the ashtray, and my mind gradually turned around...

I began to believe that today, Mi Cai and Ban Dad left at the same time was a reminder and opportunity given to me by fate, and it was fate that wanted me to go to Suzhou to meet Jian Wei, so there was such a coincidence. If I missed it, I would definitely receive the most severe punishment. I would regret it for the rest of my life because of this punishment...

Driven by this mood, I could no longer sit still. I left the bed, put on my clothes, and left my residence with my briefcase, and rushed to the train station. On the way, I looked at the street lights that were backing behind the car. My heart was filled with guilt. I wanted to give up several times, but an indescribable force drove me to continue to move towards the train station, chasing the direction to Suzhou... I am not a savior, but I should have seen her. At least for the past year, we have not been involved in love, and have also fought side by side in the mall. There is a relationship between us except love...

At 8:30 in the evening, I took the train to Suzhou again with some drunkenness. Looking at the night that was constantly regressing outside the car window, I fell into an unprecedented emptiness. This emptiness is something that will be reversed. I know that if I think too much, I will accomplish nothing on this night, and my emptiness will relieve my guilt.

.........

At 11 o'clock in the evening, I arrived in Suzhou again. On the way, I called Jian Wei, but she did not answer, so I called Yan Yan, and she arrived at the train station in a quarter of an hour.

We haven't met for only a week, but she has obviously lost weight and looks even worse. These are caused by the pain in life. It's not easy for her. She has not yet come back from the pain, but she has to take care of Jian Wei, who is more depressed than her. Compared to Yan Yan's personal pain, Jian Wei's entire family has been ruined!

Yan Yan and I walked towards the parking lot of the train station. She said to me as if she expected: "Zhaoyang, I know you will definitely come... You are not a man like Fang Yuan and Xiang Chen, so you will definitely come!"

"I'm in pain if I come or not! ... I can only see her, but I don't have the ability to do anything for her."

"No one wants you to do anything for her, and things in the officialdom are not something that we ordinary people have the ability to change. For Jian Wei, it is enough for you to come back to see her and give her a word of encouragement!"

I was silent for a long time before I changed the subject and asked, "Is Jian Wei in Suzhou? I called her twice but she didn't answer..."

"In Suzhou, she went to the company this evening and may not have brought the phone number with her. Although the news that her mother was under double supervision has not been reported by the media, it has spread in the circle. All the customers who are working with her company are in danger and plan to terminate the cooperation contract with Jian Wei and ask for the cooperation funds that have been paid. Jian Wei is already worried about it!"
Chapter completed!