After cleaning the chestnut shells, I closed the door of the coffee shop and drove to the city with Micai. This rare night for us began. We first ate spicy grilled fish, then came to the cinema with popcorn and coke, enjoying the rare ease... I remember, when we were in Suzhou, let alone watching movies, it was a luxury to be able to have a meal together. Whenever Micai came home, what I prepared for her was a midnight snack.

In Xuzhou, although we have lost our wealth, we have a lot of free time. In fact, for us who are far apart, this kind of life is not bad!

The quality of the blockbusters is very high. We have been immersed in compact plots and gorgeous pictures, and even rarely talks. It was not until the film returned to peace and was about to end that Mi Cai asked me: "Zhaoyang, what do you think of this film?"

"I think in addition to the gorgeous special effects, we should also see the human pursuit of civilization in the plot... However, just like the film shows, humans have created civilization, but they have also destroyed civilization... I think humans are like machines created by higher-level civilizations. Desire is a virus in the machine, and it is an indestructible virus. Therefore, there are so many devastating wars in this world. I think the core of this film is to hope that humans can defend their civilization and not let the virus of desire destroy our living space..."

Mi Cai nodded and said, "I think so too, but even if humans become extinct, it is difficult to guarantee that after hundreds of millions of years, there will be creatures similar to humans appearing, constantly creating civilizations and destroying civilizations..."

I smiled: "So, we all live in reincarnation, but we have lost our former form and consciousness in reincarnation..."

Mi Cai grabbed my arm, laughing even harder than me: "The more I talk, the more science fiction I feel..."

"Who told us to watch science fiction movies! ... But we have seen so many contents other than movies, so our spending on watching movies is more valuable than others!"

"Are you comforting yourself?"

I was a little surprised and asked back, "How do you understand this?"

"Do you have some calculations. This morning, we spent 15 yuan on breakfast, and in the evening, I spent 20 yuan on chestnuts and 168 yuan on dinner. Before watching the movie, I spent 300 yuan on gasoline for the car, and 126 yuan on movies, so today the total expenditure of our two is 629 yuan..."

“So many?”

Mi Cai nodded with a serious expression and replied, "It's serious overspending!!"

I also realized that the overspending was overspending and sighed: "It's really a life of food, food, oil and salt! But the gasoline fee cannot be completely counted on today's account. After all, it's enough for us to drive a car for many days..."

"That's overspent too!!"

I subconsciously touched my nose, and then asked in Micai's ear: "By the way, how much does Orson advertising pay you a month?"

"You only asked when you realize the crisis, have you never considered taking control of your consumption before?"

"I admit it, but you haven't said the salary that Orson ads offer you."

"A basic salary of 3,800 plus performance commission."

I was immediately discontinued: "Damn, such an insincere salary...... It's not enough for you to buy a set of cosmetics for a month!"

"In your Xuzhou, don't the assistants have a salary of about 3,000 yuan?...Mine is already considered high!"

I subconsciously pulled out a cigarette from my pocket and lit it. Micai's current salary income is really bad. For example, cosmetics, I can't let her use Dabao with me. Besides, I don't know much about her other expenses, but the expenses used to maintain them every month were at least tens of thousands... Although she was born beautiful, she also needed to maintain her natural beauty! And she has become accustomed to such consumption. For women, reducing consumption in cosmetics is undoubtedly the most painful change.

At this moment, I finally felt the troubles of food, food, oil and salt. I just regretted that I was too squandering in Suzhou. If I could bring hundreds of thousands back to Xuzhou, I wouldn't have to be so embarrassed now, at least I could have been able to last for a while.

Micai and I went to the underground parking lot to retrieve the car, as if we had lost the good mood just now. Along the way, both of us remained silent... It was not until we were about to return to the community that I said to her: "We should not be under too much psychological pressure. I will express my opinion to you first. I will work hard to make money in the future. If you don't say anything else, at least you can guarantee your former living standard."

Mi Cai smiled and said, "Don't be so deliberate. I can support myself within my salary... Just build your own coffee shop."

I was silent for a long time before replying: "I don't want to feel wronged you..."

"How can you not be wronged?"

I was speechless. In fact, it was already a grievance since she and I returned to Xuzhou. Our choice was destined to make her sacrifice a lot.

Micai comforted me: "It's okay... When your coffee shop runs smoothly in the future, our lives will be much more relaxed, and my current job is only temporary."

I seemed to have some confidence and nodded and replied, "This is...I think it's still very easy for us to live a petty bourgeois life in Xuzhou after everything is on track...but, are we all too generous and just throwing everything in Suzhou cleanly, but in fact, we are not really ready yet!"

Mi Cai shook her head and said, "Zhaoyang, let's not talk about life in Suzhou... You don't have to regard me as Mi Cai in the past."

Her words made me feel very distressed, but I didn't say anything. I just held her left hand and looked at the somewhat depressed winter outside the car window... I really don't like this winter. It snowed too much and lost too much. I can't wait to see the spring flowers blooming next year!

......

After parking the car and going upstairs, I opened the door softly, for fear of disturbing Dad Ban and Mom. Because it was already very late at this time, they didn't expect that they had not yet rested. They sat in the living room watching TV shows, but it seemed like they were waiting for us.

Sure enough, my mother turned off the TV and said to us: "Are you back?"

I replied, "Well, why haven't you been sleeping yet? It's almost 11 o'clock!"

"Isn't this waiting for you?...How come you have only come back until now?"

"Go to the movie..."

My mother nodded and said to us: "Don't be busy washing and resting first, your dad and I have something to say to you."

Mi Cai and I looked at each other and saw doubts on each other's faces, but we still sat down on the sofa opposite them, waiting for them to talk to us about their important things.

Dad Ban coughed, obviously a little difficult to speak. My mother was very willing to go out and said to me: "Zhaoyang, I have something I have to tell you. Your house is about to pay the property fee and the heating fee. The mixed expenses are a total of more than 6,000 yuan. Also, the house was not enough at the time of renovation, and your father also paid 50,000 yuan. We put together a look and said that you and Xiaomi are both financially independent. Can you return this money to us?"

I was stunned... I never dreamed that my biological parents talked to me about the money I had used to decorate the house when I needed money the most!!

Seeing that I didn't answer, my mother asked Mi Cai again: "Xiaomi, do you say we want to get back the 50,000 yuan of renovation, right or not?"

Mi Cai looked puzzled. Obviously she was also worried about our current financial ability and could not pay the money at all. I finally answered the words and said, "You are deliberately making things difficult for us when you mention this money now? ...Where do we have so much money now!"

My mother said, "We are really not making things difficult for you. Look at Qin Hao from Aunt Zhang's house next door, who is about the same age as you. They spend money from buying a house to decorating it. The old couple is much more relaxed. Besides, the country does not advocate relying on their parents now, and your father is not a wealthy person. Isn't it reasonable for us to get back that money?"

"That's right, but there's no need to talk about this at this time, right? ...You don't know about our situation."

Dad Ban finally spoke and said, "We asked you for this money, but I just want you to understand that there are thorns everywhere in ordinary days, and some thorns are something you can't even imagine. Zhaoyang, think carefully and think about whether this money should be returned to us... how to pay it back."

As he said that, he asked my mother to go back to the house to rest, but the pressure was really piled on me. And I can be sure that it was Ban's idea to ask for this money, because it coincided with his previous advice to me... He just wanted to put pressure on me in life. In his eyes, I was just a lazy horse. I needed to raise my whip and whip it from time to time before I could run... But what I could never understand is, what height did he want me to run?

And what about me? Is running this coffee shop that contains my own creativity a kind of cowardice after being hurt? Or, what kind of big career can I do in Xuzhou?

In fact, I am just competing with myself. If I am willing, I can get a large amount of investment from my current circle of friends to do some serious industries. I am afraid that Daddy Ban saw through this and would have done such a move... In this way, is the ordinary life I pursue really a deliberate avoidance? Or is it the Daddy Ban this time that he was wrong?

I was a little tired and a little depressed... I subconsciously lit a cigarette for myself, leaned on the sofa, closed my eyes and sucked... Today, this just-started life of food, rice, oil and salt has given me a lot of troubles and doubts.

But I am really empty now. I don’t know what kind of mentality I should take to do a big career that is highly anticipated by others. If I really choose to do it in the end, then wouldn’t I give up the Luku company? Isn’t it a lot of this? And why should I go back to Xuzhou?
Chapter completed!