The vehicles passing by were running at high speed. No one cared about the pain of Micai and me, but our pain was so real. It was like a flame between us, burning us to pieces.

Mi Cai hugged me and cried so hard that she couldn't respond to her, and said softly: "Zhaoyang, stop crying, listen to this song carefully..."

Her gentleness gradually calmed me down. I seemed to see a trace of light that was not a breakup, so the melody of the song became clear: "Even if there are thousands of songs in the future, floating on my road in the distance, even if there are thousands of night stars, the moon will be brighter than this night, and it will never make me appreciate it more..."

I finally said to her: "The separation in the song is so regretful... I am so regretful that I shouldn't be singing so beautifully! It's like a fabricated beauty..."

Mi Cai nodded and said, "So you misunderstood, why do I punish you for other people's mistakes... You are my man, if you are wrong, I am wrong. We should advance and retreat together in this world that is always full of separation... I have lost Zhuomei, so how can I lose you again!"

I looked at her in surprise...I thought she had hated me so much.

Mi Cai let me go and stood up from the ground. She looked at the distance that was even irritating even the light... After a long time, she said, "I have been standing here for a long time, and I listened to this song over and over again... I think the reason why my father likes it is because he regrets, and regrets that he has misbelief of the parting can be beautiful... There is no parting in this world that can be treated with a smile... He missed my mother, so he always sounded this song, just like you like "Eloping", always remembering some past because of a song... I shouldn't repeat this regret. Maybe Zhuomei is not my father's favorite during his lifetime..." She turned around and looked at me, and asked again: "Zhaoyang, do you understand what I am saying?"

My thinking seemed to have stopped. I couldn't bear the impact this night brought to me. I just looked at Mi Cai and shook my head slowly for a long time and told her: I don't understand what she is expressing...

"...I want to give up Zhuomei. I dare not say that it is a great enlightenment. It is at least a kind of understanding. No matter how good Zhuomei is, it is just Zhuomei. It cannot replace the feelings between people. It will only hold me in a higher and higher place. It has been a long time since I saw the scenery below... Even children dare not want it! This is not the life I think of, it has never been."

I finally felt that I could breathe the air of this world. Although it was so cold, it saved my life and allowed me to see hope in this world.

Mi Cai held my hand, full of sincerity, and said, "Zhaoyang, let's start living an ordinary life... I have already thought about it, Zhuomei will leave it to their uncle and sister, and my shares will be given to them for free. I don't want to take anything away, nor do I want to increase the financial burden for Zhuomei. As long as Zhuomei can be carried forward in their hands, it will be a continuation of my father, right?"

Feeling the strength from her palm, I knew it was a difficult decision for her. I didn't understand what power was dominating me, so I nodded to her...

Mi Cai smiled, but tears flowed down her face, and she said with a sob: "... Then let's be ordinary people. In a few days, we will go back to Xuzhou together, stay with our uncles and aunts, and fulfill their long-standing wishes..."

I just looked at her like this and kept listening to her saying that she had really seen through a lot of things in this place where Mi Zhongxin left.

She said again: "Zhaoyang, when we return to Xuzhou, I want to find a more relaxed job first, so that I can use my extra time to take the civil service exam, and I will have a lot of time to accompany you in the future. We can walk around the country. It's really been a long time since I brought photography equipment to experience the beautiful scenery and humanities and geography of our country!"

Her decision shocked me... This is a peaceful life that cannot be calm anymore, but it is what I dream of. She is catering to the lifestyle I pursue...

My thinking seemed to have become smooth in an instant, and I replied without thinking: "Okay, okay... Let's go back to Xuzhou to live, and from now on I will open a coffee shop or bar. When you are tired from work every day, I will make coffee for you to drink and sing for you."

"Okay... I can also make coffee and sing for our guests... Our coffee shop will definitely be very popular!! Also, because we will go to many places, maybe she will also open a bar, she likes singing so much..."

When talking about it, I believe she no longer cared about all the pain this night. All she longed for was her future life and some small fun in life!

I finally turned sadness into joy, wiped away my previous snot and tears, and said, "I know that your life is so ordinary but so free now, I will be so surprised that I can't even sing the song well..."

"Is that right?..." Mi Cai smiled, but her expression became serious again, and she said to me: "Zhaoyang, let's leave quietly, no one should disturb you, and you can't go to Fang Yuan and Xiang Chen... We don't need to say anything, and they won't repent. On the contrary, we should thank them, because they have fulfilled the life we ​​have always wanted to pursue but have no courage and conditions to pursue."

I was silent for a long time and said, "Before I left, I still wanted to meet him... We have been in love for nearly ten years, and now it's not a bullshit. I want him to tell me in person why I do this... I don't want anything except this answer, otherwise this will be a scar that I can't heal in my life..."

Having said that, my world was filled with pain again. I can't forget everything we have experienced in ten years. I can't forget. I sat in a dim restaurant in college, talking about the future with great enthusiasm, saying that I would carry each other's future scenes... Now he has stepped on my future, and I almost died in despair!! I also want to tell him that people are doing it, and God is watching. He tramples on my heart and soul, and one day he will be punished!!

Mi Cai looked at me, held my hand tightly again, and said, "If you insist on finding him, I won't stop you... I'm just afraid that you will suffer more. Maybe what he presents to you is the face of a villain after his success."

I fell into silence. Mi Cai and I were determined to pursue a life without a past at all. If I asked for another statement, would it still make sense?

But, I want to hear him tell me in person, "Behind human nature is the white clouds and cage dogs..."

When I accepted the fact of betrayal, my outlook on life was completely subverted. I thought through many details. The circumference of the square and circumstance made me feel the viciousness of human nature. What exactly supported him, put on a shameless mask and played with me in my palms?

.........

The police car approached us with lights flashing. I knew it was the traffic policeman notified by the woman in red who came over. I asked Mi Cai, "How fast did you drive just now?"

"soon!"

As long as she is by my side, I can still laugh, hold her hands tightly, and say, "Before leaving Suzhou, we have to take the driver's license again... 12 points should be deducted!!"

She was stunned for a moment, then reacted and smiled and said, "Why not take the exam, it's also good to ride a bicycle to work!"

"It's really an ordinary life...but when we go out and walk around in the future, we always have to drive alone, right?"

"Then you go to the exam. I don't want to take the exam anymore. I just ride a bicycle or an electric bike."

"Aren't you kidding?"

"Of course not..."

As Mi Cai said that, she turned around and opened the car door and took out her driving book. She also took out her driving book in my car. Seeing her ready to surrender actively, I looked at her and smiled. We could actually have fun in pain and indifference on this black road full of pain and indifference. Perhaps it was not fun. We were already adapting to the coming new life in advance.

Two traffic policemen came to us and severely scolded Mi Cai and me for not abide by traffic regulations. They also scolded us for being weak in safety awareness and making mistakes, but they could still laugh. Mi Cai and I were indeed smiling down, but our smile was not about not repentance of our violation of traffic regulations, but about being glad that after this crazy action, we were still alive, decided to be together with each other, and determined the direction of our future life... So, why can't we laugh?

......

After experiencing this thrilling night, my life direction was finally determined, and I really should say goodbye to this city. There is also Jian Wei and Luku, the company. At this time, nothing is more important than being with Mi Cai. I think when Ban Dad and his mother know what Mi Cai and I think, they will be ecstatic, because when Mi Cai retreats all the halo, she is the daughter-in-law that her mother and Ban Dad want.

Things are impermanent, and we really have to go back to Xuzhou to start a family. From now on, we stayed by Ban Dad and Mom, while doing our filial piety, and enjoyed the fun of ordinary life... At this moment, I seemed to see my life being divided into two halves at the place where Mi Zhongxin passed away. That half represents the past, which has been crushed by the cold wind here. The remaining half of my life, I will take good care of her daughter in ordinary days. In our lives, we will never perform the beautiful farewell made up again!

And love, hate, love, love, and hatred are placed in this city that makes me desperate, rot, and finally turn into soil, dust, and dissipate...

I seemed to have seen the smiling faces of Dad Ban and Mom waiting for us to go back... The coffee shop I envisioned is already being decorated in the expected days in the future...

As for everything I have now, I will treat it as if I can't keep my relationship with Jian Wei and return it to her together... I have decided to live a brand new life and should forget everything about her!!

............

There are always readers who question my three books using a routine, but real life is such a big pattern, the form of lovers, no matter how they are written, that is, the past and the present... Feelings are nothing more than inappropriate, betrayal and together... I don't think I should deliberately enlarge the similarities between the three books. If I were asked to say it, I could also find out the differences between the three books... including expression, plot structure, and relationship between characters...

If you read urban emotional novels with this big perspective, you will find that all books are similar and tell similar stories. This is not objective.
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