Standing on this tall building, I found myself so close to the hanging moon in the sky, but I didn’t get a trace of temperature. Only then did I understand that the moon is only leveraging the light of the sun, and it has no temperature. Even if you get closer, don’t expect it to drive away the cold. I think the stupidest thing in this world is probably to use the moonlight to keep warm.

So, in a trance, I seemed to have become that moon that emits light but does not have warmth. A blurry human-like image stood under the moon, but I had been lonely for a hundred years...

I turned around, stroked the red and swollen fingerprints on Leyao's cheek with my hands, and smiled and said to her: "Although people are real, those loneliness and pain are probably fake, because you and me are gone a hundred years later, and the loneliness and pain we have experienced cannot prove that we have come to this world..."

Le Yao was not emotional. She didn't even look at me. She just looked at the city under her that was not warm because of the neon light, and said, "Are you brainwashing me when you say these words to me?... Haha, there is actually no need, because I didn't plan to call you to the restaurant in the empty city today, but you arrived uninvited. So the pain I just experienced did not exist. I just treated it as the ups and downs you brought just now... Who should care about those bullshit pains and get married well is the thing I should do most in the future... And you'd better live happier than me!"

I nodded and put down the hand that was touching her face, but she suddenly pressed my hand with her hand that was about to put down, so the temperature on her cheeks came again from the palm of my hand... This temperature confirms that we have been here tonight.

......

As expected, after leaving the building, I went left and she went right. After a while, we went further and further away. The only thing that remained unchanged was the neon lights that still flashed, rendering the city so enchanting, so enchanting that I was incompatible with it.

I really escaped, fled to an old neighborhood with only dim street lights and no neon flashing. To be precise, it is the westernmost part of the city, the place we call "west of the old city".

I leaned on a telephone pole, looking at the ruin in front of me, and a sour feeling could not be controlled in my nose. At this time, I fully believe that Le Yao had been pregnant with my child, but when I was suffering from the pain of the abortion, I gave her doubts. Even after less than a month of miscarriage, I jumped into the cold pool water for filming, and I couldn't be by her side to give her some care. I think, I'm sorry for her, and for the love we spent together in the absurd years together.

If my life can be divided into three stages when I live to this point, the years I spent with Jian Wei represent youthfulness. This part with Mi Cai was reborn from the ashes, while the things I spent with Le Yao were absurd and bizarre... Perhaps, it was not Le Yao that I didn't love, but those years, and we didn't seem to meet each other at the most correct time!

A handful of tears turned from my eyes. I raised my head and swallowed the tears back into my stomach, then lowered my head and blew off my nose, and then took a step to find a shop in this old neighborhood where I could buy cigarettes.

......

The old city is never as prosperous and convenient as the new city. After walking a few streets, I couldn't meet a newspaper booth or convenience store that was still open. I already had the idea of ​​giving up temporarily. I wanted to go back to the new city where I should stay, or go back to the old house where Micai and I have always been concerned about, and there will definitely be cigarettes there.

I walked from the street to the end of the street, looking at whether there would be a taxi passing by, but unexpectedly I found a flower shop that was still open. The blackboard at the door of the flower shop was eye-catching that there was cigarette for sale.

I walked into the flower shop and saw a busy back. I said, "Boss, do you have Marlboro cigarettes? Come and get me a pack."

She turned around and was a girl in her early 20s with a ponytail. She looked very pretty and quiet. She shook her head at me and signaled that there was no Marlboro cigarette.

I asked again, "Is there any red plum or Zhongnanhai?"

She still shook her head apologetically. I wanted to leave because I didn't like smoking other brands of cigarettes, but because I was tortured by the addiction to cigarettes, I asked for the third time: "Then what cigarettes do you have here?"

She took out a few boxes of cigarettes that were often sold on the market from her bag that she was hanging with and handed them to me, but she never said a word.

I chose a packet of Hongtashan, took out a piece of money from my wallet in a daze, handed it to her, took the cigarette from her hand, turned around and left.

At the intersection of the street, I was smoking a cigarette while waiting for the passing taxi. Suddenly, the clothes behind me were gently pulled. I turned around in surprise, but found that it was the girl who had just sold my cigarettes. She was holding a stack of change in her hand and was signing language to me.

Only then did I realize that she couldn't speak and didn't understand the sign language she did, but I probably understood that it was probably because I was too dazed just now and forgot to make change with her...

I knew it was not easy for disabled people to do some small business, so I shook my hand and signaled her not to ask me for it, but she insisted on returning it to me. However, my pocket was very tight. She tried to stuff it in several times, but it ended in failure.

She finally took out her cell phone from her pocket and typed a row of words on it to me: "Thank you for your kindness, but I don't need sympathy, just make the money I deserve!" There was also a smiling expression after the text.

This is a very independent girl. My self-righteous behavior may have stimulated her self-esteem, so she said with apologies: "I'm sorry, I'm too self-righteous, I'll take back the money." I said and took the stack of change from her hands.

She made a smile on her phone, and when I was waiting for the car, I felt hungry and asked her who was about to leave: "Miss, is there a place to eat nearby? I want to go for a late-night snack."

She made several gestures to me, but I couldn't understand what she was referring to. She quickly pressed it on her phone and handed it to me: "If you are not in a hurry, I will go back and close the store and take you there."

“What’s the food in the store?”

"Do you like Xiaolong buns and rice porridge?"

I nodded, she put her phone in her pocket, signaled me to wait, and then turned around and walked towards the alley behind me. With cigarettes, I took out a cigarette from the cigarette box again, and waited while smoking.

......

While waiting, my cell phone rang again. It was called by a boy. Since he went abroad, he always liked to call me when he got up, showing off some of what he saw and heard abroad. Sometimes if he really didn't see it, he would talk to me about the dreams he had last night. In short, although he left, he had been using this daily telephone communication to appear in my life, which made me feel that he was actually quite lonely abroad!

My mood was a little low. After a while, he answered the phone. He asked me, "Brother Yang, guess what dream I had last night?"

“I care more about what you learned in school during the day yesterday.”

"Hehe... I've told you what I've learned about game programming, but you don't understand it either!"

"Then don't talk to me about those unreliable dreams!"

"Okay... Then let's talk about you. Have you been with Sister Le Yao recently?"

My heart suddenly became tight, and I remembered the scene that happened with Leyao on a high building. I didn't say anything for a long time. At this time, any topic about Leyao was a kind of destruction for me.

The boy didn't notice my strangeness and asked, "Brother Yang, can't you reveal any news about Sister Le Yao to me? Our fan support group has been waiting for her comeback!"

I took a heavy breath of cigarette and finally said to him: "She will not come back...because she is going to get married!"

"Ah!!......Who is she going to marry? Are she going to marry you?"

"With me?... do you think it's possible?"

"Why is it impossible? She has always loved you so much...I remember one time when she chatted, she told me that you would not marry me if you were not married!...But have you been reunited with Sister Mi Cai? Did something earth-shaking thing happen during my absence? Sister Le Yao successfully counterattacked you!...Haha, it must be like this, life is like play, and drama is like life!"

I was silent for a long time before replying: "Study well there, stop fantasizing... The person she wants to marry is not me, and the person I want to marry is not her."

The boy exclaimed: "oh, mygod...what a cruel joke!"

I just took a puff of cigarette and prepared to end this meaningless conversation. The boy asked me with pain and regret: "Who is the person she is going to marry?...Is that coal second generation?"

"No, I don't know who it is... I'll go to have dinner right away and I won't talk anymore. I'll call you when I have time."

"Wait...How could this be like this? The last person Le Yao married was not you. How painful and desperate she had to be. I still remember she told me that her greatest hope in her life was to be able to smile from the bottom of her heart on the day of marriage... It's over, how can she laugh!!"

The boy remembers so much, for me, it was a torture that was pierced into my heart. In my extremely depressed mood, I hung up the phone... In the breath of weak and heavy, I looked back at the somewhat dilapidated old city behind me... But the night turned this dilapidation into a kind of joy and joy that flowed from the past.

In absent mind, the girl from the flower shop had already pushed her pink electric car to me. I walked side by side with her to the snack bar in unknown corner. Ye finally became tactful in a silence that could not make any sound!...

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Chapter completed!