I looked at Le Yao, and the doubts that filled my mind were pulled between asking and not asking. In fact, I understood: my entanglement at this time has shown that I gradually believed that the child she was pregnant with was mine... But what's the point of verifying now? We will soon go further and further because of the marriage we each have to face. Perhaps as she said, I am destined to owe her in this life.

Le Yao looked at me, and she pinned the hair that was blown by the wind behind her ears and asked me, "Why don't you talk?"

"I don't know what to say except saying thank you to you. I feel pretentious when I say it... It's better to be silent!"

"What do you want to thank me? Should I thank me for promises you to participate in the micro-film, or will I thank me for getting married? I will lose a troublemaker in your life in the future?"

"The former."

"Haha, don't you ever think I'm a trouble?"

"I don't think it's a lot of trouble most of the time... Isn't it okay to say this? Or is it time for us to leave?"

Le Yao's eyes were filled with tears, but with a heartbreaking smile, "Zhaoyang, if our child hadn't been done, he would have been born now. At this time next year, he might have called him mom and dad... But why did I make him (her)?...What did I think at that time? Can you tell me? Tell me..."

Her hands grabbed my arms tightly, her nails embedded deep in my leather jacket, making a "squeaking" sound, and my heart seemed to be thrown on the ground and trampled around in this harsh sound, so painful that I couldn't help myself...

"Le Yao...you should be more sober, be more awake!"

My reminder has no effect on her at all, and she has already cried: "Zhaoyang...Zhaoyang, tell me, if I don't kill that child, will you... be a responsible father?"

"......meeting!"

Le Yao cried heartbrokenly: "I'm so stupid... You were so unreliable at that time. I'm really worried that we can't raise that child when he was born... I've long been... I should have gone to find Xiao Rulin (Le Yao's father). Why do you have to show off!! Why do you have to concentrate on developing in the entertainment industry?! Why do you believe you will fall in love with me in the end... But you fell in love with a woman who appeared later... With so many choices, as long as I choose the right thing, I won't be like this... I should blame anyone, who should I blame, tell me... tell me!"

"Blame me, it's all my fault."

Le Yao's emotions were approaching the critical point of collapse because of this topic she was involved in. She looked at me with hatred and finally raised her hand. On this tall building closest to the sky, she slapped my face with the greatest strength in her life...

I felt the fishy smell coming from the corner of my mouth, and in dizziness, that ridiculous period of time came to my mind again, so one by one hypothetical clip, like a movie replay, stimulated my fragile nerves at this moment.

Perhaps, Le Yao didn’t choose to take away that child at the beginning, we are now married, and there will be no Micai that appeared later in my life...

It turns out that what determines fate may not be who will fall in love with whom or who will fall in love with whom, but a choice between rationality and irrationality. So I don’t know what language to deal with. I was a little empty by the wind blowing, and I couldn’t even feel the pain on my face. But my heart was cramped. Although I stood on this tall building, my heart had already sunk to the bottom of the sea. I didn’t have the courage to remember that I had a child in those most ridiculous years.

A pair of cold hands pressed on my face, and I felt the scorching pain and looked at Le Yao with a daze. She wiped off the blood stains on my mouth with her hands, and her eyes were still filled with tears. Until she stopped choking, she said to me: "The slap I just vented my hatred... If you also hate me and think I have taken off our children with a good idea, you can also slap me in the face... When you finish slapping, we will bless each other here!"

I was still looking at her stiffly, and I couldn't feel that my body and soul could control my actions...

Without any preparation, Le Yao picked up my hand and slapped her hard in the face. This force was driven by extreme emotions. Five red and swollen fingerprints suddenly appeared on her flawless face.

"These two slaps were for the innocent child. I hope he (she) will forgive me... I regret it very much, but it is useless. I love you very much, but you already have a girlfriend... People can never give up the marriage that must be squeezed by age and family for an impossible love... Maybe, I am really a willful and insufficiency woman, so I never look at what I have, just think about what I have not got... Now, I should make myself mature, so I am going to get married... You will give me a blessing now. It is best if I get this blessing, I don't have to think about anything anymore, and be a happy woman from now on!"

I don’t know what kind of blessing will have a magical power, allowing her to be a happy woman from now on. After a while, I said to her: “The word happiness has been mentioned by countless people, but not many people are truly happy… But I will always remember that you and I have agreed to be experts in life… We are not very reliable people, but I think this agreement is reliable, because when you talked about it that day, you didn’t laugh, it was very serious, and when I agreed, it was even more serious… So, this is definitely not a joke or a longing, it needs us to realize it… So, no matter how unreliable we were, as long as it was reliable this time, we can really get through this life….”
Chapter completed!