The street lights lit up again, and the light swayed on our dining table through the window. I drank another bottle of beer, and then I felt a little dizzy. In the dizzy, I seemed to look back at the past. What did I do for love in those past clips?

After breaking up with Jian Wei, I began to live a decadent and indulgent life, which gave others the opportunity to take advantage of it. I took so many photos that Jian Wei, who originally planned to rush back from the United States, tore off the air ticket in despair.

After breaking up with Mi Cai, I always acted as an offensive attitude and never thought about anything to recover. But maybe, on a quiet night, they all thought of me, but what I responded was all about hurt.

How did my cold violence form, and what lurked in my heart, constantly causing trouble... I can't understand women so much!

Maybe the word "breakup" defeated me, maybe I looked at the breakup with a desperate attitude, and then rejected all possibilities, and then killed all room for nothing...

Fang Yuan continued to teach by example: "Zhaoyang, men and women are inevitably bumpy and bumpy. Yan Yan and I have broken up, but we still walked down because we are willing to calm ourselves down, give each other a chance, and give love a chance. You have also seen that in today's society, there are many people who remarry after divorce, so why should you be self-enclosed? You regard breaking up as a very desperate thing as facing a great enemy... Maybe when you are desperate, the woman is waiting for your retention, making her feel that you can't live without her!"

There was a faint sign of looseness in my stubborn heart. I lit a cigarette for myself again and felt those heart-wrenching nights in my breath. It was very likely that I was just fantasizing with a strong subjective consciousness, and I felt even more painful at this time!

......

After leaving the restaurant, I carried half a bottle of unfinished beer and came to a bridge embedded in the city. I looked at the cars coming and going under me in a blur. So the soul in my body was pierced by these flashing lights. The lively wind, which was also accompanied by the coolness of autumn, whizzed through the thorns. I gradually became a little empty, so empty that I couldn't remember what I had done and what I was looking forward to.

I was drunk and fell on this abandoned overpass, so I took advantage of this drunkenness and took out my cell phone from my pocket, found Mi Cai's number, hid in the softness of the city, and sent her a message with only one comma. I wanted to tell her that I didn't want to end it between us.

I was waiting, but maybe she couldn't understand, maybe she had already put an end between us, maybe I should be more proactive, but I was powerless this night and I was drunk!

Finally, a kind passerby walked up to the abandoned overpass. He woke me up and asked me where I lived. I told him the address of the old house, so he helped me get off the overpass and took me to the taxi.

After arriving at the destination, the driver helped me to the entrance of the corridor. I gave him 100 yuan, pressed his painful head and told him not to look for it. The driver said "Thank you" to me and left. My world became quiet again, or the quiet part was in this community. During this period, many residents seemed to have moved out of here, because it was too old and almost lost the atmosphere of the city.

I used my hands and feet, climbed up the stairs, and after reaching the top floor, I panted and leaned against the door of the house, took out a cigarette and lit it. I knew that Mi Cai would not come at this night, but I still wanted to come and see it. Thinking about the scene when we first met here, maybe we would figure out why we became like this and what destroyed everything we have managed.

My head is getting heavier, but my consciousness is getting clearer. I think of the life I am whizzing by, including love, and the river of happiness that I imagined in the melody played by the guitar...

But all this has gradually moved away from me, so in the remaining youth, I shed tears of repentance, but I couldn't keep the years that were running forward as always... In the psychedelic stimulated by alcohol, I held my head and whimpered in pain!

The door of the house was opened from the inside, and I fell to the ground without any support. Then I saw Mi Cai, who had been attacked by me in words during the day. I was so panicked that I didn't even have the strength to sit up...

"You've drunk?"

I responded with a whimpering pain.

“How much did you drink?”

I finally sat up from the ground, wiped off the sticky tears on my face, and said to her with the greatest courage in my life: "...you don't marry him, okay?"

She looked at me without much emotion and asked, "Why, can you give me a reason?"

"Because I don't think you've forgotten me yet..."

“That was before today.”

"The reason I said this to you today is because I don't want you to walk on a...wrong path, the more you make mistakes, the more outrageous it becomes!"

After a long period of silence, Mi Cai spoke: "But what I want to hear is not that you said to me... You go, I'm leaving too. Everything in this room will be moved by a housekeeping company tomorrow."

"where are you going?"

Mi Cai did not answer, but said, "Don't ask, go."

"Tell me where I can go, I'm so drunk!"

"Whatever you want, you're used to wandering in this city anyway."

Her words reminded me of those days when I had nowhere to go. I was wandering alone in this city in the middle of the night, so lonely and helpless. The loneliness in these memories made me helpless again, and I looked at her in a daze.

She stretched out her hand and signaled to pull me up from the ground. I held her hand and felt the softness again. My heart seemed to be melted. A thought popped up from my mind and asked her, "Is that guitar still there?"

My question surprised her a little, and she answered for a long time: "In my car."

"Can I lend it to me for use?... After using it, I will give you something in return!"

She smiled and asked, "Is this a deal?"

"No, I owe you all the time. Can I give me a chance?"

"Zhaoyang, I really don't need you to give me anything..."
Chapter completed!