The wind at night was still blowing by the moat, and the cigarette in my hand was almost finished. When it was extinguished, I could no longer have the desire to smoke. So I looked at the moat and was dazed. Jian Wei seemed not addicted to my emotions. She still lowered her head to process the documents in her hand, and sometimes answered a call.

I finally said to her: "I will go back to Xuzhou tomorrow, and I will lend you your car to me."

"Don't you have a Grand Cherokee?"

“Sold..."

Jian Wei knew it in her heart, and did not ask any more questions. She nodded and took out the car key from her handbag and said, "Then you can use it, there is a gas card in the car."

I said "Thank you" and then took the car key from Jian Wei.

Jian Wei seemed to have processed the backlog of documents and put them all in her handbag, and asked me again: "Do your parents know that you and Mi Cai have broken up?"

"I'm still in the dark, alas... I really don't know how to face them. I owe them too much over the years!"

Jian Wei nodded, agreed with the statement that I owe, and comforted him: "So I have always reminded you to take your career to heart. When men cannot meet their parents' expectations emotionally, if their career is successful, it can be compensated to a certain extent. After all, there are many successful entrepreneurs who are not married at the age of 30. After having enough material as a guarantee, what they think about is not when to get married or who to marry, but whether they want to get married!"

I smiled and replied for a long time: "If there really is such a day, I feel quite sad!"

"How do you say this?"

"If I am very rich and want to get married, there will be a bunch of coveted women waiting for me, but does that still have anything to do with love?... So I don't agree with your statement!"

"Haha, so your pain comes from being unable to distinguish between reality and ideal!"

"Maybe."

I was a little confused, and the desire to smoke was ignited in my heart again. I looked up at the sky and never captured the crystal clear city again. I was filled with disappointment. I just felt that the ideal that I had been pursuing for for half my life was just a fantasy that was out of reality... Finally, I asked Jian Wei beside me, "Do you still believe in love?"

"What? Do you think this is a question that needs to be discussed?"

"Believe it or not?"

"I only believe in life, and love is just a small part of life!"

Jian Wei's answer made me hear a broken voice again. It turns out that there will be no love in this world that elopes to the ends of the world. Even if Jian Wei chooses again now, I am afraid she will not have the courage to repeat the love burning in the elopement. She has also forgotten the intoxication of love under the continuous training of life and returned to a rational life. Hey... I think it is really depressing and sad!

I lit the last cigarette before leaving with her lighter, patted her on the shoulder, and said, "When you get married, remember to give me an invitation, I'll go and check it out..."

"What do you see?"

"What does it look like when the smoke leaves the fire!"

"Why don't you die? Is there anyone who speaks so badly?"

"I don't think it's hurt. When I get married, you can also see how the smoke leaves the fire!"

......

The next morning, I drove towards Xuzhou in the car I borrowed with Jian Wei. Although I was full of uneasiness and anxiety, I still warned myself to face it sincerely, because love is really not a war, and now I am not facing the desperate escape. Although it is difficult to pursue pure love, I am still full of opportunities in life. When I went back this time, in addition to looking at my father and mother, I also planned to choose a site for Xuzhou to build a bar and inn to continue to promote the layout of the literary and artistic road in Jiangsu!

At noon, I finally returned to my home in Xuzhou. After parking the car, I did not go upstairs immediately. Instead, I sat on the flower pond next to the car and lit a cigarette, trying to make myself more relaxed when facing my father and mother.

The old Santana 2000 of Ban Dad gradually drove towards me, and then stopped beside me. After he and my mother got out of the car, I squeezed out a smile and asked them, "Where are you going?"

"I went to the vegetable market with your mother to buy some vegetables." After saying that, Dad Ban looked around and asked again, "Why are you, Xiaomi?"

"Uh...she didn't come back!"

Daddy Ban looked displeased: "Didn't everyone agree yesterday that you will come back together?"

Although I had made up my mind to go to Daddy and told the truth about it, when I really had to face it, I was still so heavy. I really didn't want to face their disappointed appearance with this unfilial body.

My mother asked, "Why don't you talk?"

"Dad, mom, I said I hope you will be mentally prepared before, okay?"

My mother urged, saying, "What kind of mental preparation should you do? If you have something to say, hurry up!"

I said in a low voice: "I...I have separated from her, just what happened a few days ago!"

Ban Dad's expression immediately fell. My mother shook her mind, but she said to Ban Dad in an unexpected tone: "Lao Zhao, I have told you that our son and that girl are not suitable. We, a small family, cannot reach that high branch. Let's divide it..." Then she said to me: "Son, I don't blame you for this matter. Let's find a girl of equal status and get married steadily!...ah?"

But I didn't feel relaxed because of my mother's easy relief. I couldn't help but wonder whether my heartfelt efforts to Mi Cai were correct. If it was correct, why did my mother who gave birth to me be so lucky for our breakup?......I fell into ignorance again, and felt sad for the love that had passed away.

Dad Ban wanted to say something to me, but my mother stopped me. My mother took out her cell phone from her pocket, then dialed it out, and said, "Xiao Yun, I am Zhaoyang's mother... Isn't this weekend? Your father and your mother went to the countryside again. You come to my aunt's house for dinner. In the afternoon, I will call Aunt Li and Aunt Zhang, let's play a table of mahjong together..." As he said that, he lowered his voice and said, "He is back in Zhaoyang... Well, come here now, aunt and uncle have bought good vegetables, come and help the aunt..."

My mother was in a good mood and put her phone back in her pocket, then took my arm, pulled her father's sleeve, and dragged him upstairs...

This dramatic scene was unexpected, but I still felt like I was overturned with a bottle of flavors. I knew my mother’s thoughts. She had never given up on matching me and Li Xiaoyun. In her mind, Li Xiaoyun was the candidate for the most beloved daughter-in-law.

At this time, I realized that I was so resentful... Why can't I give me some understanding? Why can't I work together to pursue an ordinary and simple life? Do you know how difficult it is to give up this feeling that made me devote myself to it?

Now, my mother's complete denial is more like a great irony to us, and what have we done in love?
Chapter completed!