I fell into deep thought, and then Li Xiaoyun's meticulous and gentleness turned into a series of scenes that appeared in my mind. I understood: I am attached to her, but is that love?

In my previous evaluation of me, she said: I am not as thorough as Robben in terms of ideals, and I am not as good as Fang Yuan and Xiang Chen in terms of reality.

At this moment, it seems so pertinent. If I had Robben's persistence in ideals, I would abandon all distractions and insist on pursuing the woman with long hair and shoulders. If I had Fangyuan's understanding and compromise on reality, I would choose Li Xiaoyun and live a life of steadfast life.

But neither side is reliable, so I am destined to be so erratic when facing feelings...

Finally, I said to my mother who had been waiting for a reply: "Mom, don't worry about Xiaoyun and me anymore. Even if we are reluctant to be together, we can't make a promise and we will get married smoothly. If something goes wrong after that, wouldn't Xiaoyun be injured or not?"

"You are just a bastard. After all, you still have no relationship with Xiao Yun, otherwise you wouldn't hurt her like this."

I didn't say anything. In fact, what my mother said was right, not all, but I didn't know how to explain to her.

"Zhaoyang, I have said everything I should say, and I have told you what I shouldn't say. I hope that on the day you regret it in the future, just don't resent me, a parent, didn't remind you."

"Mom, don't say that, okay? It makes you feel like you want to give up my son..."

"Let's stop talking, Zhaoyang...or you can find a more reliable girlfriend than Xiao Yun and bring it back for me to see, otherwise you will be able to do it yourself!"

"Mom, don't hang up the phone for now, I want to chat with you..."

Before he finished speaking, my mother's phone had already hung up. I was stunned for a while before I sent her a message: "Mom... do you want me to go back during the New Year?"

"Let's come back when you find a girl who is more reliable than Xiao Yun."

I smiled helplessly and held the phone with my red hands for a long time, then looked up at the dazzling sunshine, not even knowing what I should think about at this moment, so I lay on the bench, covered the sunshine with my hands, and covered the wind with my other hand, so I wanted to sleep and sleep until the evening.

...

I don’t know how long I slept, but I felt someone pushing me. I woke up in a daze, but found that it was the little fat man Wei Xiao.

He said to me happily, "Brother, I have been waiting for you in the square for several days, and finally I have waited for you!"

"Do you have something to ask me for?" I said, holding a cigarette and lit it.

Wei Xiao nodded heavily.

"Didn't I leave you a phone number?"

"Lost."

I took out the paper and pen from my bag and wrote my number to him, then asked, "Tell me, what's the matter with me?"

Wei Xiao smiled and took out two hundred dollars from his pocket and said to me: "Yesterday, a sister gave me a lot of money, saying that it was exchanged for the basket made by her grandfather, and then she gave me the money and asked me to invite you and the referee sister to KFC!"

I understand that the sister who gave money in Wei Xiao's mouth should be Zhuomei's staff, but she was a little sad. At this time, Mi Cai was getting farther and farther away from us from the sky.

I smiled and said to Wei Xiao, "Your referee sister has left, she doesn't like to play with us anymore."

Wei Xiao immediately lowered his head and said for a while: "But I really want to treat her to KFC. Why don't you call her brother? You all have the phone number."

I took a heavy breath of cigarette, looked at the sky in the sun, and after a moment, I pointed to the sky and said to Wei Xiao: "She is on the plane and the phone is not reachable."

Wei Xiao was almost crying, so I patted his shoulder and comforted him, saying, "She doesn't like to play with us, so we shouldn't play with her. We can only eat well and eat well!"

"Okay, let's go and eat a lot!"

Wei Xiao is a child's character, so Mi Cai's departure will not touch him too much, but what about me? I don't care about it in my mouth, but I am probably worried about it in my heart.

But he nodded and smiled, "You are right. If you think more of her, you will feel that she will be more, and if you don't have less, you will be less. Let's walk in KFC."

Wei Xiao jumped high, then tiptoed and walked towards KFC in an extremely funny posture.

...

In KFC, Wei Xiao and I asked for a family bucket together. They were bored to compete with whom to finish the meal first. As a result, I lost my appetite, and lost to Wei Xiao. As compensation for the loss, I bought another family bucket and gave it to him. He said that the whole family bucket was taken back for his grandfather to eat... and then we parted.

Seeing Wei Xiao leaving like a barrel of wind in his arms, I couldn't help but wonder: What is happiness?

For Wei Xiao, maybe he just ate KFC once, and then let his grandfather eat it once.

Huh... What a simple, beautiful happiness, but why can't I take it as happiness? Maybe I want too much, maybe I lost my childhood, maybe I am not old enough...

After leaving KFC, I went to the bar again. At this time, the company in Suzhou had already started taking annual leave one after another, so the bar, which had just opened for a few days, has ushered in a downturn in business. Even so, the attendance rate tonight was 50%, which is much better than before the renovation.

I found a corner, took out my tablet and browsed the Weibo posts that customers helped forward the bar, and then evaluated the effectiveness of the Weibo forwarding activity.

After a while, I came to me and sat down, and asked me with great concern: "Zhaoyang, where are you going to celebrate the Chinese New Year this year?"

I subconsciously remembered that when my mother asked me to find a girl who was more reliable than Li Xiaoyun to go home for the New Year, she was stunned for a moment before replying: "Have you thought about it yet?"

"Or why we go to Beijing to find LeBron and Robben!"

In a word, "My parents didn't go to Hong Kong to celebrate the New Year."

cc pinched the flesh on my waist and said angrily: "Are you hurting me? You have to take it out and tease me, saying that your parents are so precious to you!"

"Hey, don't say it, my parents are just baby me, dumplings with big meat stuffing, and the buns have been prepared for me long ago."

cc gave me a blank look and said, "Okay, since your parents are so precious to you, I won't advise you to go to Beijing together."

I forced myself to smile and nodded. In fact, I really don’t have any idea where to celebrate the New Year. Of course, I can go home with shame, but if my mother really angers me, wouldn’t it cause trouble for her during the New Year? So wait a little longer, maybe my father will call me to go back for the New Year. Then, with my father guarding me, it will be much easier to do.

cc said to me again: "I will have my plane tomorrow morning, and you will let the bar close tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. Go back early to accompany your parents."

I shook my head and said, "It's more than a week before the New Year. It's too early to close now. Besides, the bartenders and several waiters in our bar are from other provinces. They haven't bought tickets to go home yet. The bar is open so that they can also make money."

"Well, then you can work hard these days."

I nodded and said, "You have a plane tomorrow morning, so go back early to rest today."

cc gently patted my shoulder, said "See you next year", then picked up his handbag and left the bar.

I looked at the time and it was already ten o'clock in the evening and I could leave almost as well because the bar has specially hired managers and I don't need to stay in the bar during business hours.

I want to sit by the moat. After my friends around me left one after another, I felt somewhat lonely. That moat is a place to save loneliness. I smoke a cigarette there and watch the water flowing surface of the river, and I will forget many things...
Chapter completed!