I got back that night and had a high fever, and I was 40 degrees. I was drained from water. The only strength I had to vomit. I was in pain, and I was so excited that I couldn't know who held me in my arms and hugged my head and asked the nurse to give me an injection. I was muttering and talking about what I couldn't remember, and smeared all my tears and snot on him, feeling wronged and sad. I faintly seemed to see the growth of cancer cells spreading from my stomach, like a parasitic skeleton, climbing inside my body.

I had tossed for a long time before my fever slowly subsided. Occasionally I woke up from my sleep and didn’t even have the power to raise my fingers. Once, I opened my eyes and happened to see Jiang Lei sitting beside me. I shivered and grabbed his hand, but before I could speak, tears fell down.

I asked him, am I going to die?

I didn't hear his answer clearly, but just kept crying, crying and falling asleep again. I had an extremely messy dream, and ran alone in the dream, and started to burn again as I ran.

The fever subsided and then started to get back on again. After more than a week of hard work, I finally got better. The whole person shed a lot of skin and went to the living room downstairs to sit in the living room. In Jiang Lei's words, it seemed as if he had no more in bed on the sofa.

Actually, it’s not that exaggerated. I have looked in the mirror myself and I’m just obviously thin. My face was yellow and gray, and a bag was bulging on one side of my neck. I couldn’t see it if I didn’t pass the medical record in person. People would just think that I was malnourished. I never thought that I was suffering from a terminal illness and would be in the near future.

Jiang Lei made some Chinese medicine for me, saying it was effective. He made the house bitter all day long and forced me to drink it. I held the Chinese medicine bowl and slowly poured it into the flower pot next to the sofa while he was out to call his wife. He only used it as nourishing flowers and a merit.

When I was in college, I registered on the Red Cross organ donation registration form. Over the years, I received emails from the other party, and even greeting cards during the New Year. I used to sigh to Cheng Yuanfeng that the public welfare institutions are really serious and responsible. I just left a little personal information. They even greeted him so enthusiastically during the holidays. Cheng Yuanfeng rolled his eyes and laughed at him saying that they were just thinking about your organs, afraid that you would change your mind and not donate them. At that time, he smiled, as if organ donation was something that would only be considered after the age of 80. How could he think so quickly, it was in front of him.

The older generation has a special point, which is called keeping the whole body when I donate it. By donating it, the whole body is destined to be kept, and I feel sorry for it. I wrapped myself in a quilt at night and thought about it again and again, but the next day I called the Red Cross.

If I don’t want to die, I will never be able to die. My morality is not very noble, and my sentiment is not very selfless. To put it bluntly, I want to live with another person’s hand. If there is really something like a Horcrux in the world, I am willing to sow widely. Even if I live in a dead state, I can look up and see such a blue sky, and run down to earth again, even if it’s just for the first sunshine that opens my eyes every day, I think it’s worth it.

I repeatedly asked the local Red Cross Society and confirmed that they had nothing to do with their godfathers. One of my kidneys would not be exchanged for a Hermes before agreeing to them to come to the door and officially sign an organ donation agreement. After making the phone call, I turned around and Jiang Lei was holding a bowl of porridge, which was so angry that he was so angry that he was so angry that he left and saw him until dinner. He was a bit conservative in his mind. He was willing to donate blood for voluntary purposes, but he certainly would not agree to donate my organs. For this, I spent a lot of talk. The two of them had been froze for many days. Just when I thought the two were about to continue the cold war, he suddenly figured it out.

Looking through the glass window at his extremely soft expression when he was calling, I could probably guess who helped me.

After he finished speaking the phone, he looked at the empty bowl on the table with satisfaction, thinking that I had all drunk. I poked him and asked, "Your wife?"

He chuckled softly: "My daughter wants to learn piano. She wants her daughter to learn dance. She had a fight with her daughter and came to complain to me."

"What's the result?" I asked.

"I asked them to draw lots." Jiang Lei said the fairest answer in history with an innocent look.

I laughed and said, "Your wife must have been with you because she was obsessed with your appearance!"

Jiang Lei still looked innocent and said, "I really don't know this. To be honest, I didn't refuse the men and women at that time, just be pretty."

I frowned: "At that time?"

"Seven years ago, a buddy and I bought wood in the Northeast. After I paid, I switched to building materials business. The more money I made, I became a little empty. The poor family came out and didn't know what enjoyment meant. Suddenly, I had money and wanted to go to the bathroom without paper and wipe my butt with a hundred-dollar bill. At that time, I was a little messy. Men and women changed people every day. If I liked it, I stayed by my side for a while, and I didn't like it, and I threw it away when I got into bed. Until I met my wife five years ago, I didn't know what, and I slowly calmed down. I thought to myself, don't care whether I like it or not, I will be this person in my life. Later, my daughter was born and hugged this child in my arms, and I knew that I had no reason to get into trouble again."

So I didn't agree with Cheng Yuanfeng's child, so men are different to their own children.

I just laughed and didn't answer. He turned his head and smiled a little embarrassedly: "To be honest, my wife is sometimes confused and a little bit like you. But she is thrifty and proficient in housework. You... can't do it."

"Get out!" I bared my teeth, "I am a big man who is just a shit."

But his words can also slightly alleviate my confusion that has been around for a long time.

My acquaintance with him was too dramatic. Even if I retreated for another five or eight years, I would not trust him so much when I saw someone on the street. At first, I just treated him as the object of congratulations. After all, I had nowhere to tell the depression in my heart, and complaining to strangers was the safest way. But later, I was really too relaxed and comfortable to get along with him. This feeling of being cared for hasn't happened for a long time, so I didn't feel a little sacred. Besides, although Cheng Yuanfeng is also a rich man in the city, he is really not as good as Jiang Lei. Jiang Lei is difficult for Cheng Yuanfeng and there is no need to use any roundabout tactics on me.

So my relationship with Jiang Lei is not so much a coexistence of equal trust among friends, but rather a life-saving straw.

Because I can't see any hope in my life, even if it's a false light, I hope to get it.

But fortunately, the sun is real and full of warmth.

After chatting for a while, I waited for the staff of the Red Cross. The person came. They were a man and a woman. They looked around thirty years old, dressed properly and were full of energy. The man's surname was Zhang and the woman's surname was Liang. I had seen many people in the world. I didn't feel strange at all when I saw me like this. I carefully explained all the details and explained all the hidden clauses clearly. I asked me if I needed to think about it for a while.

I had considered everything I should have considered many times. I lifted my pen and shook my head. Just as I was about to sign, Jiang Lei grabbed my hand.

"You think about it for a while," he said.
Chapter completed!