Every family has its own sutras that are difficult to recite

"Drink tea." The old man picked up the teapot on the coffee table and poured Zhao Mingyang a cup of tea.

Zhao Mingyang looked at the moment when the tea was introduced into the cup and said: "Old sir, you misunderstood. I am not asking you to do anything."

The old man glanced at Zhao Mingyang with a smile, poured out the tea, and made a new pot of hot tea.

The previous tea was overnight herbal tea, which means that if a person takes away the cold tea, he can no longer help anyone, and it is useless to approach him.

It was such a small move, and the two smart people knew the meaning without saying much. Zhao Mingyang said it directly, which made the old man change it to a pot of hot tea.

Zhao Mingyang drank hot tea again. The old man looked at Zhao Mingyang and asked: "Then what are you planning?"

"I said, I really want to know you. It's not the purpose you think, but I want to know your story. It's that simple. If there is a purpose, I want to know your story.

To uncover some conjectures in my mind and satisfy my personal curiosity." Zhao Mingyang took a sip and said.

"Then what did you guess?" The old man looked at Zhao Mingyang and asked.

"I guess you're waiting for someone, but what I'm wondering about is why don't the old residents in the neighborhood and community know about this?" Zhao Mingyang expressed his doubts. The news he heard seemed to be people here.

I don't think the old man is waiting for anyone at all.

The old man looked at Zhao Mingyang, took a long breath and said: "Because not many people know about this. They have either passed away or moved away. It has been more than thirty years. Moreover, the first phase of this place had just been completed at that time, and there were not many people."

Many of the old residents moved here later. There were only three buildings in the first phase, and the surrounding area is no longer like this. The earliest one was the kindergarten.

Now most of the remaining residents know about this, and I won’t tell anyone about it, because telling others about some things will cause trouble to others, and even cause trouble to myself.

You are very careful in your observations. The first time I saw you was when you moved here the day before yesterday. You and your girlfriend or wife were shopping for daily necessities in the supermarket. I saw your presence. I was

I know you two are not simple people.

Temperament is something you can't hide no matter how hard you try. Among a hundred people in the crowd, you can tell who is different at a glance. Of course, this requires sharp eyesight. Later, I noticed you when you appeared in the park.

At first I thought it was a coincidence, but when you showed up in the kindergarten yesterday afternoon, I knew it was not a coincidence. I was also waiting this morning to see if you would go to the park. If you did, I would be 100% sure that this was not a coincidence.

Now you tell me that you want to know my story, that’s good, I believe you, because I don’t want to make too many guesses and waste my brain. Do you want to hear my story?”

"I want to hear it!" Zhao Mingyang put down his tea cup and looked at the old man with a affirmative look.

"This community was planned in 1971, started construction in 1975, and was completed in mid-1977. At that time, I came to live here for graduate school. Before that, I graduated from high school and then went to work in the border area. I stayed there for ten years.

I have been a middle school teacher for five years and stayed there for ten years. Have you seen the beauty of the yellow sand in the sky? It is my second hometown.

Later, after the college entrance examination was resumed, many people took the college entrance examination. At that time, there was a condition that no matter what degree you graduated from, you could directly take the postgraduate entrance examination.

And I was a teacher. At that time, the subjects I needed to take the college entrance examination were Chinese, mathematics, geography, history, and politics.

There is no need to take the foreign language test. If I were to take the foreign language test, I would have a big headache. My English is not very good and I have basically never learned much. Moreover, there are so many courses to be tested, and many books are not available, such as geography. Many schools may not

So many books to borrow back and forth,

What I was thinking at the time was, if I take the college entrance examination, what should I do if I fail? This is a big problem. If I fail the college entrance examination and come back, I won’t be able to teach. The students will say that the teachers have not even passed the college entrance examination.

I finally chose to take the postgraduate entrance examination directly.

If I fail the postgraduate entrance examination, no one will criticize me, right? My wife was in the art troupe at the time. She and I met when I was teaching, and then we got married. We would have a child at that time.

At that time, I chose to get admitted to a university here in Shanghai. It was actually a bit selfish. I wanted to come back and see my family. Even if I didn't get into the exam, I could still come and have a look. It would be better if I got into the exam and go home directly.

My parents were scholars at the time, and I grew up in a family with a very good literary atmosphere. However, my parents were considered to have a bad status at the time, so some things could not be said. Later, things got better and were proven.

I applied for the Chinese Department of Fuzhou University at that time. Unexpectedly, I was admitted and had the best score in our class. At that time, I took my wife and children back to Shanghai.

We lived in this community in November 1977. In the building over there near the kindergarten, there was a small two-bedroom apartment with an area of ​​65 square meters. Our family of three lived there, and our children went to the kindergarten over there.

, this kindergarten has a history of nearly forty years.

At that time, these houses were temporarily provided for us to live in, so many of our neighbors were no longer here and returned to their respective areas after graduation. At that time, we were going back to our original workplace after graduation. I would like to thank my principal for keeping me here.

Came down to teach.

The child was lost at the entrance of that kindergarten. It was the winter of 1979 and the end of the year. In five days it would be 80 years.

I remember that day, and I will remember it all my life. It snowed heavily that day, and I had already started working as an intern and substitute teacher at the school.

My wife was cooking at home and waiting for me to come back. The children were playing in the snow below. But at noon, I went home and the children hadn’t come back for dinner yet, so we searched, searched, and searched~

I've been looking for it for decades, but I can't find it. Why can't I find it? Where did the child go? Where did it go? Peek-a-boo has come out. Isn't she hungry? Go home for dinner.

Ah..." The old man couldn't help but shed tears as he spoke.

Zhao Mingyang said nothing because he knew that the old man must have heard countless words of comfort and he was numb.

What he needed was emotional expression and release. The old man lay on the sofa and continued slowly: "Looking for the child. On that winter night, we and I were searching on the street. Our neighbors, teachers and students at the school all helped us.

try to find.

But Shanghai is too big, too big - there were no mobile phones or cameras like now. We went to the bus station and the train station to look for it, but we couldn't find it.

We searched for three days, and gradually, we were the only ones searching. After a month, we were both tired, but after all, it was our child, and it was impossible to give up the search. But I knew that searching like this would be the best.

To no avail.

I chose to return to my original workplace after graduation. My spouse chose to live here. In fact, we couldn't live here, but the school still left this place for me. My spouse was looking for her in the city every day.

We chose to separate because neither of us wanted to see each other anymore, because we were afraid and fearful, because we were speechless, and because we didn’t know how to communicate with each other.

My wife thinks it's all her fault. It would be better if she kept an eye on the child. She blames herself, suffers from insomnia, mania, depression, and is in a very bad mood. I know that maybe my short absence will be good for her mood.

I blame myself even more. I wish I had not taken the exam and come back. Our family of three is over there. Why should I choose to take the exam and come back?

I worked wholeheartedly, and two years later I came back again. I came back to see my lover several times. She became more and more taciturn, and I became more and more taciturn.

I even asked for her forgiveness several times. Everything was my fault.

By the time I returned to Shanghai, I could already own a house. I entered a publicity position and had a little say. I took advantage of this and asked some people to help me check it out.

There were a lot of true and false news in the process. Some people said they had seen my child in the north, some said they were in the south, some said they were abroad. The news spread more and more.

In 1985, my lover fell down the stairs and was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment. She suffered a brain injury. When she woke up, she only remembered our relationship and forgot about the child. Her memory was always in her twenties. One year old.

I arranged a make-up wedding for her, and we got married again, as if there had never been a child. The doctor said this might be a good thing, for her, and for me, and I think it is the same, so I let everyone know it openly. People should not mention the child, just treat it as if it never happened.

We are very happy every day. She is like a child. She laughs and makes me happy every day. We are just like when we were in love. We hold hands and go shopping and eat and drink every day. But we never have children again. I don’t want them anymore. I told my wife that I I didn't want children, so I lied to her, saying that I didn't like children and that I didn't dare to have any more children. Because I knew that once I had children, I might forget about Wenwen.

Wenwen, my daughter, this is the pain of my life. I swear, whether I am dead or alive, I will know the whereabouts of Wenwen. I will give an explanation to myself and an explanation to my lover.

Wenwen is very cute and smart. She always likes to let me carry her on my back~

I have to reach a higher and higher position so that I can get more information, so no matter what difficult task I dare to take on, I know that others dare not take it. Failure is nothing but criticism, but if I succeed, I can One step further.

Later, there were several times when I could have gone to the Imperial Capital, but my wife couldn't live without this place and liked to live here. We originally didn't live in this apartment, but in that small house. This big house was given to me. Yes, I have never lived in it before, because that small house is our home.

After my lover left, I never lived there again. I was afraid to face it alone. For my lover and for Wenwen, I did not go to the Imperial Capital because I had given up at that time. I just wanted to accompany my lover through the end. At that time, my lover was diagnosed with cancer in his later years.

I quit my job and took her to travel around the country and around the world.

Finally, she lay in my arms and left. She smiled and told me that it was worth marrying me in this life, but she hoped that I would not give up looking for Wenwen and wait for her there. Wenwen would come back. At that time, she

She is already six years old and has memories. She remembers the kindergarten and where her home is.

She told me not to forget Wenwen and exercise well. Others can live to be eighty years old. She asked me to live to be a hundred years old. She asked me to quit smoking and exercise until Wenwen came back.

I just realized that she had been pretending to have amnesia to prevent me from feeling sad and worried about her, and she was still asking for news about Wenwen in private. She was trying to make me happy. I was so stupid that I didn't realize that she was lying to me and that she was acting."

The old man's tears were like springs that he could no longer control. His tears washed away the dust on the surface of his face, as if washing away the dust would make him younger, and he would be able to maintain a good body when he was young, etc. Wenwen.

It is true that every family has its own sutras that are difficult to recite, Zhao Mingyang sighed with emotion.

He doesn't know how to comfort him because the other person doesn't need comfort anymore.

The old man was right. In the end, he remembered his daughter's existence. In those days, a person could be lost for a lifetime.

"If you are willing, can you record it for me? My daughter's information, I am afraid that I have forgotten her, because during a recent physical examination, the doctor said that I am likely to suffer from Alzheimer's disease, which is to put it bluntly, Alzheimer's disease.

I'm afraid that one day I will forget Wenwen and I will feel sorry for my lover and daughter.

I am already seventy years old, and even if I exercise every day, my body will still be able to move for more than ten years at most."

Zhao Mingyang was waiting for the old man's words. He looked at the old man and said, "Maybe you can find Wenwen? But can you accept the result of finding her and seeing her?"

The old man wiped his tears with a tissue and looked at Zhao Mingyang. After a long time, he took a long breath again.

He knew what Zhao Mingyang meant. At that time, most of the children who were trafficked were bought as children, and some were used as...

So this is the reason why the old man and his wife have always believed that the child is still alive. However, Zhao Mingyang's words really made the old man unable to bear it. What if his daughter lived an extremely miserable life? He might be even more painful after seeing this.

"I want to see her. No matter what, I want to see her. Do you have any idea?" The old man looked at Zhao Mingyang and asked.

"I can't guarantee it, but maybe this is the best time and era. I have a 90% probability of helping you find the news about your daughter, but the premise is that your daughter's disappearance will be known to many people. Are you willing?

"?" Zhao Mingyang asked.

"Yes." The old man said without hesitation.

"Okay, I'll help you find it. I'm very touched when I hear your story. I'll do it and you leave it to me. As for Alzheimer's disease, it can be prevented. Expose more to new things. I suggest you spend more time with young people.

People walk around and learn about what young people like nowadays, and they can even play games, cards, and puzzle games are the best." Zhao Mingyang said.

"Tell me, what conditions do you have? I don't believe that you can't do anything without benefits." The old man looked directly at Zhao Mingyang and said.

"I haven't thought about it. I may not really be what you think. If there are any conditions, I want you to answer my questions and clear up my doubts, because I don't understand many things, but I can really handle your affairs. I know
To be continued...