210. The Dog of God
Rocheton and Richard sat in the room at a loss.
"Shouldn't we run away?" Richard suggested.
Kelly glanced at him with a less friendly look, and the two of them immediately showed a timid look.
Now, she must read the complete diary, she needs to know the result, and she is very clear that she can no longer take her eyes off this diary.
If her feelings were accurate, she would eventually be extremely shocked.
The remaining content of the book and the previous content are somewhat confusing in time, making it difficult to tell whether the narrator is experiencing these things, or that he has finished it, and it seems that he is doing something, but he knows the result of the matter early in the morning.
Maybe he can't tell the difference.
“While reading Edward White’s text, I discovered a terrible fact.
My reading ability is regressing, and my understanding of words has become difficult and hard work.
There is no doubt that the stickman took me from a single tongue.
I can also infer from my various behaviors in recent times that my personality has changed significantly, not because of my social status, but because my mind has been destroyed.
I'm not a good person, no, I'm actually a bastard who is vengeful, easily jealous of others and narrow-minded inside.
But I still have to say that, I should stop it, Stickman, from now on I will no longer call it by my name, Abbott said that there may be power in the name.
Fortunately, on that broken piece of paper, we found some way to seal the stickman.
Abbott said it only takes a little time for him to restore it, but do we really have so much time?
I can't see it."
The text in the next paragraph is full of determination.
“I’ve been taken away so much, I’m turning into a monster.
“I asked Abbott and we talked alone for a while.
"He believes that the tongue, as a tool for vocalization, represents the human systemic language, and more than that, language is an important feature that distinguishes humans from animals.
It represents human nature.
And my human nature is losing. No, I have not become cruel and cold-blooded. On the contrary, I am irritable, impulsive, unreasonable, and impatient.
I'm becoming an animal.
The beast was invading my body, and I didn't tell Abbott that I had left school on a few nights, ran in the wild, howling towards the moon.
How free I was at that moment.
It seems that I have less time, and I must stop it! Before I can't do it."
Kelly turned a page.
The pain echoed on the tip of her tongue, and she tasted the writer's despair.
“We acted, as planned.
Even though we have taken Stickman so seriously, we still failed.
Sally died, and she exchanged her soul for Grant's life.
Abbott is crazy.
He had never betrayed us, and he had always wanted to help me escape the monster's claws, but he failed and the monster gained his tongue, so it just said a few words and turned Abbott into its minion.
Abbott was once a dark wizard who used evil and bloody magic to harm others.
He wanted to atone for his sins, and he was really repenting of his past sins. Now he is no longer the same as he used to be. He is confident, calm, gentle and kind.
But even if the stickman moved his tongue, he awakened the evil in his deepest place, causing him to fall back into hell, and suddenly killed Grant, whom he regarded as his son.
Maybe it was because he knew that if he had a moment of hesitation, he might not be able to take action.
Grant is dead.
So Sally gave up everything, and she bowed to the devil and begged for it like crazy.
She just wants him to live, even if she gives up everything.
So the devil wants everything about her.
Grant and I escaped there.
But we lost everything.
Although Grant did not become a lunatic, he completely lost his fighting spirit and numb himself with alcohol and hallucinogens.
I tried hard to communicate with him, but it didn't work much.
In fact, although he didn't say it, I know that he hated me.
And he should really hate me, it's all my fault.
As my animality becomes increasingly stronger, my perception of humans is so powerful that I am surprised, but my control over my behavior is gradually weakening.
I should have seen it happen, but I can't see anything."
The diary is coming to an end, and Kelly is also starting to feel excited.
"I asked Grant what he thought, he was already very sad, he regarded as half of his father's best friend to kill him, he had to love all his life and gave everything for his life, and then her soul might live in pain and despair forever.
I can persuade him to change his mind. As long as I use my power many times, I will definitely find the right method.
But every time I use this evil power, reason and humanity will stay away from me a little.
When I woke up one day, I found that my hair was getting much more vigorous.
It's like a wild beast.
It's funny to say that I have been pursuing the so-called money status for the first half of my life, but when I get all these, it seems so boring.
But in the more than a month since I met these three people, I felt like I was reborn and knew what I was going to do every day.
If I had understood this at the beginning, wouldn’t I have to pay such a heavy price? Abbott would have passed away happily as a kind old man surrounded by everyone, and Sally would have spent a quarrels but extremely happy life with Grant.
I will stop it, swearing with all I have left.
I asked, and Grant hadn't given up on revenge yet, but he couldn't face the friend who had become a slave of the demon, and he had no confidence to defeat it.
And I also found a way to balance the impulses in my body.
That is to keep silently reciting a small passage on the broken paper in your heart:
‘I am merciful to the Lord, and I wish to repay our original sins with my actions. God who is omniscient, omnipotent and all-god, bless me. You will be with me, and I will become your sword to eradicate all evil for you.’
Grant alone cannot defeat Abbott's seal stickman.
But if I add it, it may not be possible. He may not have the courage to kill his friends, but to me, who is not very human, killing is just a small matter.
If I can maintain my sanity and keep my sanity awake, and at the same time let the beast's power fill my body, and with the power I have obtained, there is no chance.
I will be God's most ferocious hunting dog.
I've been inspired."
Chapter completed!