everything is overthinking(1/2)
I thought too much about everything. Jingxing never thought that he would know this, nor did he expect him to ask suddenly, so he just sat there blankly, looking at him with a pale face, and still kept holding dumplings in his hands, forgot to put them down.
"Brother..." She murmured to him, but didn't know what she wanted to say.
In fact, it was obvious that it was explained, but the look he looked at her made her forget all the reasons.
It was very sad. He looked at her expression, which made her feel very sad.
Yingche seemed not really wanting to get her answer. Perhaps because he knew the answer, he had already figured out the answer, so when he saw her like this, he didn't say anything, got out of bed and walked into the bathroom.
The bathroom door was closed, and a sound of water came from inside soon. The water flow washed over Yingche, but it seemed that Jingxing had woken up.
She quickly put down the dishes and walked to the bathroom door and patted the door: "Brother, I didn't mean to hide it from you! I called you that day, but I couldn't get through! You are busy with work and so hard. I don't want you to worry about me anymore, I just don't want you to worry about my affairs!"
In the bathroom, Yingche stood under the shower with her eyes closed, listening to her voice coming from the door. After a long time, he reached out to turn off the shower, wiped the water stains on his face, and went forward to open the bathroom door.
Jingxing stood at the door and looked at him with some grievance.
"Don't want me to worry, don't want me to worry?" Ying Che looked at her quietly, "Why are you sure I will worry about worrying rather than being happy when I know this news? Or are you worried and worried in your heart from the beginning?"
Happy? Jingxing was stunned. How could he be happy?
"Brother..." She couldn't help but shouted again and whispered, "We are all so young, how can we have children..."
"So you took the initiative to abort the child." Ying Che heard this, and a faint smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, "It's not that we can't have children, it's that you don't believe we can have children."
When Jingxing heard this, he finally became anxious: "How do I believe it? It is simply unrealistic to have children at our age!"
"I could have made all the unrealistic become reality." Ying Che's eyes became darker again, "But now it seems that I was just a whimsical idea."
"You..." Jingxing didn't understand his words completely, but he just felt wronged. She was obviously hurt and sad about this matter, but why did it seem to be her fault in the end?
"You're inexplicable!" Jingxing was finally angry, turned around and walked out the door.
Yingche looked at her back quietly, but she had no intention of keeping her.
Jingxing finally walked out in anger, slammed the door and returned to his room.
She felt very sad and sat in the room for one night. Yingche did not respond to it. The more Jingxing thought about it, the more aggrieved she felt. As soon as the sky was dawn, she packed up and left the Song family.
Instead of going home, she went to school. When she walked into the dormitory building, Yan Luo was left alone in the dormitory.
It is the end of the semester now, and everyone is busy reviewing and preparing for the exam. They always get up early in the morning and go to the library to take up a seat. Yan Luo is also about to go out when he suddenly sees Jingxing walking in with red eyes and is shocked: "What's wrong?"
Jingxing casually dragged a chair and sat down, sniffed, and then said, "He got it."
"What?" Yan Luo immediately opened his eyes wide, "And what?"
"He blamed me, he said I didn't believe him..." Jing Xing's eyes were red, but he never cried.
"How could he do this!" Yan Luo suddenly felt angry, "It's obviously his fault, right? In the end, he puts the blame on you! Does he not want to be responsible?"
"I don't know..." Jingxing was very confused, "I don't know why he was so angry, I don't understand at all..."
Seeing this, Yan Luo could only sigh and stretch out his hand to stroke her head to show comfort.
That afternoon, Yingche flew back to City Z again, but Jingxing was always absent-minded, but he didn't wait for him to say a few words.
This is the last week of pre-exam review, but she is always confused. Yan Luo is anxious for her: "Dear, I will take the exam next week. I am in a hurry to make up for that damn calculus. Are you afraid of failing the exam?"
Jingxing is not interested in whether to fail the exam or not. He only knows that Yingche has been away for two or three days and still has not contacted her.
In fact, the connection between the two people always seemed to be her taking the initiative, but this time, Jingxing felt wronged, felt that she was not wrong, and felt that she needed him to coax her, so she waited for him to call herself, but there was no, never.
In the evening, Jingxing and Wen Cai called. Of course, Wen Cai was concerned about her life and study, and also whether she had any drinks of the soup she asked people to take to school to her every day.
Jing Xing forced himself to cheer up and talked to Wen Cai, but finally mentioned Ying Che, but Wen Cai said that he would not come back until the Chinese New Year when he went there this time.
Jingxing hangs up and falls silent when he gets silent.
She didn't come back until the Chinese New Year. At that time, she had already had winter vacation and was taken back to Hong Kong by her father?
He was really angry and didn't want to pay attention to her anymore?
Jingxing began to lose weight quickly, and he couldn't eat well every day and couldn't sleep well. Su Tingyue thought she was working too hard for the final exam, and said, "I don't study hard, so I only started to cram when it's over?"
Jingxing responded vaguely and finally came to the final exam, and he did a lot of trouble in every subject.
Immediately afterwards, the winter vacation.
Su Tingyue's affairs in City A had actually been dealt with long ago, and she was waiting for her to complete the final exam before taking her back to Hong Kong. Therefore, after the school was officially on holiday, Jingxing did not stop in City A and flew back to Hong Kong with him.
When I returned to the place I was most familiar with, there were naturally a lot of friends from the past waiting for her. So Jingxing asked his friends to go shopping, eat, watch movies and sing every day. The daily activities were colorful enough to make people laugh.
But every night after returning home, especially in the middle of the night, she slept alone in her bed, but her heart was always so empty that it was uncomfortable.
She knew what she was thinking and waiting for, but after waiting for so long, she couldn't wait. Is there still hope?
Jingxing's heart finally became cold little by little.
As the Chinese New Year approaches, Xu Murong, who had not seen for a long time, came back from abroad, and the plane stopped in Hong Kong and contacted Jingxing.
Jingxing has been eating, drinking and having fun with his friends every day recently, and he has long felt tired, but when he heard that Xu Murong was coming, he still forced himself to cheer him up.
Xu Murong, who was waiting for her in the hotel lobby, was startled when she saw her: "How could she look so thin?"
He has been abroad for the past two months and has never seen her. He has rarely contacted her by phone. But he didn't expect that he could finally come to see her once, but she looked haggard.
"Is there any?" Jingxing touched his face and said with a smile, "I'm losing weight, it seems that the effect is very good!"
After hearing this, Xu Murong just smiled faintly: "You look like you are more heartbroken than losing weight."
In fact, he didn't know what happened between her and Yingche. He just saw her look and guessed that something must have happened.
Jingxing listened and was stunned for a moment.
For so long, she always felt that she and Yingche were just misunderstandings, a little awkward, and were just a cold war.
But what Xu Murong said just now suddenly woke her up.
Actually, is she already heartbroken?
In fact, Yingche already completely doesn't want her anymore? And she is still waiting for him to coax herself?
Jingxing has never cried once since the two of them quarreled for so long, but when she heard Xu Murong say this, her heart suddenly felt aggrieved again, and her eyes were red in an instant.
Xu Murong's intentional or unintentional words made her red eyes. He suddenly felt a little panicked, stretched out his hand to stroke her head, and whispered: "What's wrong? Tell me about Brother Murong."
The more aggrieved a person is, the more afraid of getting comfort. For so long, no one has ever comforted her and Yingche, except Yan Luo. But now, when she gets the comfort of Xu Murong, who has always been as gentle as the spring breeze, she suddenly feels even more aggrieved.
Jingxing couldn't help rubbing his eyes and cried twice with some difficulty, but soon forced himself not to cry, because this was a public place and there were so many people coming and going, it was really embarrassing to cry.
Jingxing lowered his head, endured it for a long time before shook his head again: "It's okay, it's okay..."
How should I tell others about her and Yingche?
Seeing this, Xu Murong didn't ask anything else, but just looked at her quietly.
Jingxing calmed down for a while, then raised his head again and smiled at him again: "Let's go, I'm telling you to welcome you, and I won't say anything unhappy."
"Okay." Xu Murong smiled slightly.
The two of them did not go out for dinner because the restaurant in the hotel where Xu Murong lived was actually very high. They ordered a table of dishes and chatted while eating.
Jingxing didn't want to think about unhappy things, so he tried hard to eat and change the topic: "By the way, how are you and your fiancée?"
Xu Murong paused slightly when he heard this, then smiled faintly: "Their family does not agree to terminate the engagement, and my grandfather also does not agree, because he does not want his great grandfather to break his trust."
"Ah?" The news was really exciting. Jingxing was stunned. "That means you have to marry her?"
Xu Murong smiled faintly: "Maybe. But it's too early to say this now."
It was too early. Jingxing couldn't help but think of himself again, and his heart felt a soreness.
Seeing her appearance, Xu Murong knew that she began to think about those unhappy again, so she smiled and said, "Did you think about where to go after the New Year?"
Jingxing shook his head: "I haven't thought about it."
Xu Murong didn't say much, but just reached out and patted her head: "Happy."
Jingxing raised his head and forced a smile at him.
After parting with Xu Murong, Jingxing became distraught again. Sitting in the taxi, he looked at the scenery quickly retreating outside the window, but he only thought of two words in his mind - love breakup.
But even if we break up, we should always explain it clearly in person, right?
Thinking of this, Jingxing took out his cell phone and quickly turned to Yingche's number. However, when she was about to press the dial button, her hands began to tremble.
What if he really says to break up in person?
For a moment, Jingxing felt that his breathing became difficult, staring at his phone blankly, at a loss.
As a result, she kept going home, but she didn't dial the phone, so she could only put away her cell phone and walked into the room.
There was no one else at home, only two aunts were sorting out some things. When they saw her coming back, they quickly called her: "Miss."
Jingxing nodded, turned around and was about to go upstairs, but was stopped again.
"Miss, these are the foods that Mrs. Song sent to her for her. They seem to be all New Year's goods from City A."
After hearing this, Jingxing quickly turned around and walked over: "Ms. Song has been here?"
"No." The aunt shook her head quickly, "It was sent by the eldest son of the Song family, and it was said that it was prepared by Mrs. Song."
The eldest son of the Song family! Jingxing suddenly became nervous: "Has he been here? Where is he now?"
To be continued...