I……

My thought ...

Very chaotic ...

There are even signs that I have made me feel painful.

I thought, maybe I couldn't do anything at all, or, even if I did something, it was not a long time. It made me stunned.

Of course, I know that there are no eternal things in this world. Even the justice in their mouths is nihilistic, let alone people who are incomprehensible. The vulnerabilities they have proposed ...

I don't want to say that the people in the world are all benefit, but in fact, this sentence hit my heart ruthlessly.

It may be because the memories of the reincarnation and the shadow search have reduced my memory, so that I can’t even think of normal thinking now, no ... I always think about what they want to get,

Then what would I do ... what can they get or lose something.

This makes me sad.

Because, my life ... there is no regret ...

I don’t know, what's the use of too much money ... I followed my adoptive father and mother to live. I did n’t pursue money since I was a child.

Jinyi Yu Food, two do not ask for glory and wealth.

I thought, I have my hands and feet, and I should be hungry. I do n’t know if there is any disadvantage when I ate coarse tea. Most people are like this. I do n’t have any superiority than them.

I don't know, what's the use of too much power ... I don't need to do anything shocking, and I never thought about what I want to do. Of course

What you want seems to be too little ...

I want ...

I actually, there is nothing I want ...

Thinking of my old age, the red stubble, the death of the red strip is also no reason ... just, I think I will not die for no reason, I always live ...

I am alive, this is the body, the body is to eat three meals a day, and I have to worry about three meals a day. I live, but this body. I want to have the feelings of others.

Live lonely ... Most people are afraid of living alone, old, die, die, from beginning to end.

I envy, those who have the courage to be lonely for a lifetime, clean up, fight for one thing for one thing, and people who have been like a day for decades, but I really want me to do it ... I think ... I will only shrink back ...

Since I have no desire, there is no regret to live ... Why isn't the desire unlimited and full of regrets ...

Actually, I want everything ...

I want to ... a person who can accompany me to have this life ... I want to work with this person with full food, and laughed in the days without suffering. I don’t want her to cry. I don’t want her to cry for me.

, I want to go with her, grow old ...

I want to go with her ... to live together.

But I didn't do it ... but the person I wanted to accompany hadn't come to me yet, and I couldn't give him the life of Jinyi's jade food. Maybe she didn't care, maybe she didn't want that much.

Perhaps her heart is like the flames of the group, and it is not disliked. In fact, there is nothing me.

I want ... money ... because I can't have money ...

I want ... power ... because power can give me more ...

I want ... women ... because women can make me linger ...

Forget my ugliness ... forget my selfishness ...

Forget me ... the desire to make people trembling ...

I think everyone has desire ... Fei Huang Tengda is desire ...

No one will refuse to fly Huang Tengda for no reason ...

But everyone wants to fly Huang Tengda ...

So only some people can fly Huang Tengda ...

You may spend your childhood carefree, so that you can have an enviable youth.

But carefree, always accompanied by lazy punishment. When others have rushed to the end, you can only look around ...

How hopeful, people in this world should not be intoxicated with desire ...

I have never seen any person's money never brought hard sweat, and I never doubt that any person's money is flowing with the hard -earned by others.

I think I don't have no regrets ...

However, I would rather suppress my desire ... Because of the outbreak of desire, it must be accompanied by ... the uncertain people of people.

Or for the name, or for the benefit.

Not you, or me.

When a small game is only the first place to win the qualification, everyone else is a loser without warning.

It wasn't you lost, or I lost.

This world is not only zero game, but as long as it is in the heavens and the earth ... it is never possible to escape the vulgar world.

Maybe I should go to be a monk.

I should go to the empire, I should go to Bai Lingshan ...

No, I can't go to Bai Lingshan ... In the empire, the name is Xiu Xian, but in fact, it controls the fortune of wealth, and the gate of Xianzhishan is also between the earth.

The degree of eating and wearing is even more strange in the mountains. The water in the water, and the people in the sky must be caught, but there are really no these mountains.

Then, then

Then, how can it be the Tao ...

I want to find a look in this world, walking ... but this life ...

I can't be a monk ... it is impossible to become a Taoist, and it is impossible to produce silt between the world. I live ...

That is to ask for a heart ...

But my heart is not uneasy ... You have to say that I am too kind and put the tangled things on my heart for a long time.

In fact, that's my heart really guilty ...

How can I hate how I am so like that, I hate myself that I am not powerless ... I hate myself ... the soul cannot redeem the past ...

I actually ...

ah……

My memory is chaotic again ...

I feel myself, I can't handle my own feelings at all ...

I want both, but not ...

I sank in it ...

I can't imagine what kind of person will I be ...

Maybe what kind of person is not important, what kind of person I am, what kind of person is I am ... what kind of person is ...

No matter if I am good or bad, I am already alive in this world ... good or bad, and they say it ...

I can change ...

But I can never change ...

Can I do it?

Can I ... let me know myself again?

Am I really, a kind person?

I really, is a selfish person?

I don't know, I'm sorry, I don't know ... I'm really sorry, I don't know ...

I can't distinguish ...

I can't understand ...

I can't forgive ...

I ...

【Dingling Bell ~】

【Dingling Bell ~】

【Dingling Bell ~】

It is the ringing of my mobile phone ringtone ...

This sound is like an urging ghost ... urging me, getting up from the bed ...

I got up, wiped my eyes, and hadn't wiped the tears yet ... I couldn't stop flowing down ...

I am very painful ... painful, like a puppet who lost my heart.

But I have to get up, and I have to go to school ...
To be continued...