[Before the long-term feeling, I need to remind everyone that the following whole article has a bit of negative energy and friends who are worried about affecting their mood can now click and jump.].

OK, start.

I would like to explain to you why this month has been a single update since the 10th.

Many people will wonder if the author had a Silver Alliance last month and entered the fine products, and he started to float away? On the surface, this is the case. But there is a saying that is right, there is no real empathy in this world. Friends in life can't do it, let alone us across the Internet? How can you know what really happened?

Now let me tell you what I have been doing in the past half month. In addition to working and typing, I have also done one thing in the past half month, which is to buy a house.

Speaking of this, a thought emerges in many people's minds: The author is so rich and can buy a house.

If it is really that simple, I wouldn’t have “negative energy warning” before.

Let me tell you about the process of buying a house this time, which can be regarded as leaving a "diary" for myself to avoid forgetting it in the future, because I am a person who has a bad memory.

It must be said that I have a house. I came from a rural area and occupied land in 2017. But I did not become a nouveau riche because we took advantage of the land, which was so cheap that you could not imagine. The land (ten acres) was only more than 400,000 yuan, and less than 500,000 yuan. Including the various subsidies, I could barely be able to 500,000 yuan? I haven't calculated it seriously, but I feel that it shouldn't be.

My land alone is about three acres, and because I have never planted it, I don’t know the exact number. Even the money I owned, the process of my land was full of twists and turns, and the negative energy was even more explosive. I won’t talk about it here, which will affect everyone’s mood and may also destroy the three views of some young friends.

Back to the topic, in early 2018, I took the money and paid the down payment for the current house through some friends. Because I didn’t know anything, I entrusted someone else to handle it. I was in a low mood at the time and was in a state of “depressed” and almost nothing was taken care of. In short, the final result was that I paid more than 100,000 yuan and paid 1,500 yuan a month for monthly payments, and I got a ‘one-bedroom’ room. It was claimed to be forty square meters, but in fact... you can imagine that multiple bathrooms in the university dormitory are almost that big.

Decoration is called "simple decoration", but to be more precise, "simple in simple decoration". Everyone can imagine what it looks like. In this way, I moved to Changchun because I went to college here and was quite familiar with it. I successfully found a job and started my life as a house slave.

This city is very strange. As a provincial capital, I doubt there will be no poorer than this city. But relatively speaking, the consumption is not small. Because the transportation is not very convenient, if you don’t have a car, you can basically not go directly wherever you want. It’s okay along the light rail, but the buses have basically never been to the point. It may be because the planned route is unreasonable and there are overlapping parts. Each bus line always has a "war" and is either slow or dead, which is terrifying. I have to mention here that the drivers here are really excellent in driving skills, with almost no accidents, so everyone doesn’t have to worry, safety can still be guaranteed.

Moreover, it seems that everyone is more competitive and has a lot of pressure on ‘human favors’. If you want to do something, if you don’t have ‘people’, you will basically be destined to spend more time and money.

In short, in my heart, this is a place that puts me under a lot of pressure. However, compared to my previous situation, although I lived in a small place, and my mortgage and other messy unsatisfactory situation, I was still very happy. After all, this place is mine, and I can still afford it. In June 2018, in order to have more income, I chose to write novels. At the beginning, my idea was that it would be better to pay the monthly payment, so that my pressure would be much less.

There was no news at the beginning of the first few beginnings, until "The Technician of the Tang Dynasty" was the fifth book.

The results of this book exceeded my expectations. In addition to living expenses and mortgages, I finally had a little savings. But I still live very anxious because I am always worried about many things, such as how long can this book be written, will readers like the plot, why has the chasing order decreased, will the editor recommend this week... and so on, a lot of questions.

At the same time, the problems in reality also make me very anxious. I am not a social person, so I often have a state of being ‘unsociable’. For example, if a female colleague’s husband bought her a bag, everyone would say a few words, such as “Your husband is really rich, your husband loves you so much…”. But I can’t say it because I think it has anything to do with me. At this time, I didn’t say anything, and this female colleague would look at me with a slant, probably because she was dissatisfied.

She didn't know that when she was carrying her back, these people said that her bag was fake, her husband pretended to be rich, and she said that she had no money and pretended to be rich... It was still difficult for me to participate in such discussions, because I think it had something to do with me! At this time, something even more speechless happened. These people who talk bad things behind their backs, because I didn't participate, thought I would go to inform me... and looked at me with a stranger look.

I just can't figure it out. Socializing is so difficult. I can't even be able to not talk?

Go back to the topic.

In this way, the days passed day by day, and the Spring Festival in 2019 came.

I went home during the Spring Festival, just like everyone else, and I couldn’t escape the “fatal three-in-one”. What job do I do? How much money do I earn? When will I get married?

My job is very ordinary, and there is no place to show off at all. How much money can I earn? Four thousand, and I am completely my younger brother. Although I also earn a part of my income when writing novels, I said that when I write novels, my relatives and friends looked at me with a look of 'Do you have nothing to say', and then said in a very pity that "Ah, I have heard of writing novels. It's good to write novels, I'm a cultural person."

It was as if I was lying, which made people feel very uncomfortable, but I didn't say it later.

As for the third question, when will we get married...

Every time I am silent.

Is a 40-square-meter house slave worth getting married? This is not a map cannon, but in our environment, a slightly decent girl who doesn't ask you for a 200,000 yuan bride price, and the full payment of the RV is already a conscience. You have a mortgage for 40-square-meter house. If a girl really marrys you, unless the girl has a crooked and has a bit of a problem, or is really stupid, she will be willing and her parents will be forced to death.

After the Spring Festival, I became a little autistic. I was wondering, what should I do?

So in March, I was very excited. My thought at that time was that if I could make a breakthrough in writing, I would order 10,000 yuan each, and I would earn 100,000 yuan a month and earn one million yuan an annual salary. I would buy a house and a car, and find a beautiful wife. Wouldn’t the problem be solved?

However, this is just a dream. At the beginning of March, the orders dropped rapidly. I updated one chapter and dropped five orders because there were too few new additions. By the middle of the month, the orders had dropped to 2,500. To be honest, when I was typing, I felt cold.

But this is the best thing for me. Even if I feel cold, I can persist because I have been very since I was a child, and I am in my bones. Maybe I really can't do it, but I won't choose to give up when others say I can't do it, or when I realize it's not possible. Even if I give up, I will persist until others are not paying attention, or when I am desperate, I will give up silently. The action of licking my wounds will never be seen by anyone.

So, my choice is not to give up. I chose to listen to the song "Liangliang" while typing. Then in the middle of the month, I came to the recommendation of "Daily Introduction", ushering in the first explosion of "Tang Dynasty Technician", which increased by 120,000 yuan in three days to add subscriptions. Then a silver light flashed by "The Stubborn Lord Xiao Wang", and the Silver Alliance brought another 50,000 yuan in collections. Amid the scolding of a group of trolls, "Tang Dynasty Technician" finally became a fine product.

This is something I never expected.

In early April, the orders were about 3,000, and they were on the verge of being in danger.

I cherish this hard-earned grade very much, so I thought at the time that I must add more updates, and I must add more updates. In the first few days, I did that. But on the 8th, I received a call saying that our new city was built there, and there was a property that was about to be sold near Experimental Primary School. I asked if I was interested, and the housing price was about 5,000 yuan.

You may wonder, is there still 5,000 houses in this era? It's too cheap.

I want to tell you that this is a county town in the northeast, now called a "district". In the first two years, the most expensive house price was 3,500 square meters. In just two or three years, it has increased by 1,500. Do you still think this ratio is cheap?

But it's much cheaper than what I live now.

I calculated that if the house I live in is sold, it will increase by nearly 510 square meters compared to when I bought it. Although it is small and not a school district house, it is very close to the light rail, so it is still convenient to go to work. As for the most trash school district house in Changchun, I also have to pay more than 12,000 yuan for housing. Based on my current income, even if I have a family in the future, I will probably have to take three light rail stations to send my children to school every day.

Everyone advised me to stay here, after all, it is a provincial capital. But I have lived here for a year, and except for anxiety and inexplicable discomfort, I really didn't feel happy at all. After a few days of hesitation, I decided to sell it and return to the county (district) to buy the school district house that was delivered in October this year.

I have been running around this for more than ten days. The day before yesterday, I said at the end of the chapter that I want to do something big, it is this big thing. Yesterday, I went to pay the down payment. My house has been sold, and I borrowed 10,000 yuan from a friend, so I barely paid enough. I am still in this house now, and the countdown is still three days, so I have to leave here. To be honest, a lot of reluctance suddenly surged.

I rented a house for another half a year, but I can't quit because I can't quit my job now. My plan is to work for another half a year, and then wait for the house there to come down, and then go back to the county (district) and find a way. After saving the salary and the royalties, I should be able to live in the living room. I definitely have no money to decorate the house, so I can live in the unfinished house first. I just paid the deposit for rent, and there are still 37 left in my pocket. This is all my assets now.

When you read this, you will definitely wonder why you don’t ask your parents and relatives for help.

I don’t want to explain the reason in detail, because it’s very uncomfortable. I don’t want to look for it, nor have I never looked for it. But when I looked for my mother, my mother said, what did your father say? My father said, your mother has money to look for your mother.

Haha..., my parents are like this, who else can I find? I am also envious of other cousins ​​who buy houses, such as those who get 20,000 yuan for this one and 30,000 yuan for that. But there is no way, I am thin-skinned and can't afford such a big favor. Think about it, let it go, look at people's faces and laugh at others, but I still can't do it.

No one is looking for it. It’s either arrogance or a hard-working person. If you can stand up every day, you won’t bend over, you won’t bend over.

I did everything myself. Now everyone can understand why I have updated these days? To be honest, I can update it, but I feel it’s not easy, too difficult. But this is not an excuse or a reason. As an author, I have not fulfilled my responsibilities this month, I admit it. But I... really have no choice.

The process of buying a house is also full of discomforts.

As I said earlier, in the environment here, you have to be "someone" for anything you do. Of course, buying a house is the same. The price people get is much cheaper than "little white people" like me. Often, they are not short of this money, but I am a poor man, who has no money and is short of money, and I can't save money.

Moreover, because I didn’t know the house, I went into the sales office and looked like a fool. Whatever people said, I believed, and what public halls were, I didn’t understand. Finally, I bought a fourth floor on the west side, and the first floor was a shop.

There are too many unsatisfactory places, but I have paid all the money and can't change it... Oh, it's so uncomfortable. However, there are also good places. I don't have to live in forty square meters anymore. The new house is two bedrooms, which is more than twice the size. Of course, there are more monthly payments, 2,500 a month. To be honest, I don't know if I can afford to support this building in the future. I have to take one step at a time. My head is now gone, and I can't think of so much.

I don’t know if my choice is right, but I have done it. I have done it, and it’s too late to regret it, so I can only do it.

I originally planned to tell you about this matter yesterday, but I have been hesitating whether to say it out. But no one really said it. When people need help, they will know what your score is in the hearts of others. The answer I got is "zero". Fortunately, I still have a few readers after all, and after all, I am still writing novels. It is my luck to be able to tell you.

This article is not a tragedy, and I don’t need everyone’s extra help. If you can subscribe to a few more chapters, it will be my greatest help.

Finally, thank you for being with me for so long.
Chapter completed!