I felt dim and my stomach was sore. I felt very painful, and the severe pain made me crazy. I walked towards Lao Douzi with a knife, pointed at Lao Douzi and said, "I don't want a finger today. I will walk on my knees from now on!"

Maybe my expression was too hideous, so Lao Douzi was finally scared. The mouse grabbed Lao Douzi with one hand and pressed it tightly on the ground.

"Zhang Mingming, please don't touch my brother!" Li Xue shouted to me loudly.

"Zhang Mingming, let's put the old beans soon!" Dai Ji was also anxious.

"Little Bibi, you dare!" Uncle Hua's eyes widened.

"I'm going to you?" My hand lifted his knife and the old bean's thumb was cut off by me.

"Ah!!!!" Lao Douzi covered his broken fingers and howled. At that moment, I seemed to hear countless crows screaming, one after another, one after another. There was light in the room, but I felt that the light was constantly changing, twisting into a ball and spreading out.

My ears buzzed and my brain was blank. I held a knife and looked at my white fingers numbly and Uncle Hua picked up, and several people went to help Lao Douzi. Li Xue shed tears, and her eyes were filled with infinite resentment. Dai Ji, I dare not look at her eyes.

This is the first time I have really hurt someone, the first time I have crippled someone else. The first time, I cut off the fingers of a living person. That person will cry, laugh, hurt, and bleed. He has parents, wives and children, and he has sisters. I am quite familiar with his sister.

I asked myself, is this right? Is it worth it for the so-called face? I want to ask my sister-in-law, is my heart black?

It was very uncomfortable, and I kept thinking about stomping Lao Douzi's fingers or picking his tendons. However, when I really chopped off his fingers, I regretted it. I felt very uncomfortable, sour and soft. I knew that it was because my conscience had not yet been destroyed.

If you want to avoid being hurt by others, you have to keep hurting others. Do I still have to continue on this path?

No one seeks revenge on me, no one beats me and scolds me. I am like a spectator or an outsider. Everyone is busy saving Lao Douzi, helping Lao Douzi stop bleeding, and helping Lao Douzi to the hospital. No one pays attention to me, and I don’t even bother to look at me. I have a lot of blood on my body and my clothes are soaked.

Finally, I couldn't hold on and my eyes fainted.

When I woke up, I was lying in the hospital again. I had no strength and was very thirsty. After sucking my nose and snot, I found that I had a cold. There were four beds in the ward, and the room was thinking of thunderous snoring. There were people in three beds, and there was a young man in a hot tin foil and flip-flops lying on one bed. It was Brother Hao Nan. On one bed, a thin black boy covered with a thick quilt, wrapped tightly, which was a black guy. There was also a bed, a boy looked at me with his eyes open and breathed evenly. He slept with his eyes open, needless to say, Feng Tao.

Feng Tao looked at me, and I also looked at Feng Tao. I looked for water, and there was a bottle of mineral water at the head of the bed. I felt uncomfortable in my stomach and found that a thick layer of gauze was wrapped again.

I drank a bottle of water, then lit a cigarette and smoked. Looking at the time, it was already past three o'clock in the middle of the night. I thought it was interesting to sleep with Feng Tao open his eyes, so I kept looking at him with a smile.

"Are you awake?" Feng Tao suddenly blinked and asked me.

I always thought he was sleeping, but he suddenly talked to me, which scared me. The feeling was like masturbating at the beauty in the photo, and she suddenly blinked at me.

"You didn't sleep, you scared me." I said to Feng Tao.

"I'm waiting for you to wake up." Feng Tao yawned and lit a cigarette.

"What are you doing when I can't die again." I said to Feng Tao with a smile.

"Hey, do you think we did the right thing today?" Feng Tao sighed and asked me. He felt uncomfortable about what happened today. After all, it was very scary to chop off a person's fingers. I accidentally wiped my hands and felt blood on my hands. Brother Haonan felt that there was oil on his hands, and I finally understood it.

Our hands are covered with blood. The fishy smell of blood will accompany us until we are old. The smell of blood will never be washed away.

"I don't know." I stared at the ceiling blankly.

"Actually, I don't feel sorry for you when you stomp Lao Douzi's fingers. He is so mean, he deserves it even if he dies. I just think Dai Ji begged us, it's a bit bad for us not to give Dai Ji face. What's the point, our relationship with Dai Ji is okay." Feng Tao said with a sigh.

"..." After hearing Feng Tao's words, I felt speechless. I thought that I stomped Lao Douzi's fingers, Lao Douzi was pitiful. But Feng Tao thought that we didn't give Dai Ji a good face.

Anyway, Dai Ji never asks for help, she begged me so much, and I even stamped Lao Douzi's fingers. She must hate me to death. Alas, if I hate it, I hate it. If I don't hurt Lao Douzi, Lao Douzi will hurt me. There is no way, I just want to protect myself.

I chatted with Feng Tao for a long time in the evening, and maybe the chatting sound was a little clamoring, which woke up Brother Haonan and Heizi. I was quite surprised to see Brother Haonan. I haven't seen him for a short while and miss him very much.
Chapter completed!