"——I'll start over after death? The genius believes in you. Even if you have it, it's your pagan's dirty ability!"

"——Xixi, if you know the truth, just find a place to die, don't be upset here. The Jiushen aura on your body really makes me sick."

“…”

She has seen too many tragedies.

Every time she heard such words, she felt like she was stabbed hard.

Everyone was looking forward to her death.

But no one knew that it was useless if she died.

To prove what she said, she will die, but once she dies, the meaning of the proof does not exist.

How many times did she want to cry.

Why--

——Why did she lose so many lives but only gain an irresistible cyclical knot?

——Why can she survive and save her to this day, but she can only be despised and puzzled by people?

——Why, why can’t everyone give her more opportunities and time to explain?

--Why……

Her memory was blurred a little bit by bit during repeated deaths.

Her mind was tortured repeatedly by alienation and curses.

Reincarnation will not change her mental state. Her memory has been completely confused during the repeated deaths.

All kinds of deaths, even alienation... made her become more and more crazy and confused.

Reincarnation is not her lucky authority, but the curse and torture that prevents her from leaving her responsibility.

Gradually, she would forget who she was, why she lived, and forgot how she survived to reveal the truth.

She forgot what her name was, and forgot all the information she had obtained. Her memories were blocked by self-protection, and huge fragments of death memories were driving her crazy.

There were two times when she thought, why not open her eyes and don’t wake up, just let her sleep in that wooden house on the first day.

There were five times when she thought, just forget everything. She was Sissi, not Sibour, not the only believer of the oldest god.

There were ten times when she would cry to the corpses and say sorry, sorry.

She was on the verge of collapse, like a mad person, like a frightened animal, and a lonely and alert wolf.

As a person in the game, she could not break this dead end.

"It would be great if someone was willing to save me." She thought.

As long as someone is willing to stand by her and give her warmth, even if she just trusts her a little bit...

As long as someone can bring a hug to her who is cold all over her body, as long as someone can tell her that she can still see the sunshine and the sea...

She once thought that she would not wait until that day.

But this time, a person suddenly appeared beside her who had never appeared before.

...He has black hair and black eyes.

...He has a smart mind and a wise mind.

...He cared about his companions' feelings and ignored the loss of one or the other.

...He knows stories and musical instruments...

The words she wrote on the wall when she was young actually took effect with her authority in her faith.

When her memory was already blurred and confused, the person she had been fantasizing about suddenly came to her in this cycle of reincarnation.

He told her that he would always be with her.

He said that if he was a tourist who accidentally broke into the endless night, she would be his beacon.

He said that she is the most important and unique.

He said,

He would let her see the flowers bloom.

...

In this dome of fabricated faith.

...They are the only pair of "sober" lambs.

...

[Under the sky, all things are resurrected. Those who are forgotten are as "monsters" as they try to compete with gods.]

[The adventurer in front of her seems to have suddenly become the person who suits her the most.]

【This time,】

[Refusing betrayal, forbidden to abandon.]

[——She wants to become the 'god' among the 'monsters'.]

...

【This time.】

...

This time,

She fell into hallucinations in the middle of the journey, and the poisonous rain entered her body, and there was no hope of saving her. Feng Chang even chose to maintain the scam and did not believe her.

She failed again.

She pointed the gun at her heart.

"Bang!"

The gunshots rang out and her hands suddenly tilted.

When she opened her eyes, she saw the familiar figure again.

His dark eyes stared at her eyes like a description, with loneliness that was extremely similar to hers.

He held the barrel in his hand, and there was a white light of space displacement around him.

The moment he noticed that Siber was about to commit suicide, he moved over instantly and pulled her gun body.

"...what are you going to do?" Su Mingan said.

The black tentacles instantly emerged, and she immediately wanted to push him away, but it was as difficult as tearing the flesh and blood.

His hands were tightly pressing against her shoulders, and the temperature on his hands made her whole body hurt.

At this moment, she suddenly collapsed.

The thick wall in his heart was collapsed in an instant, and he was the only person who didn't want her to die.

"Su Mingan, I want to die so much, I want to die--you kill me, please kill me, don't wake me up again--!"

She cried loudly.

It hurts so much, so painful, so painful.

The skin is dissolving, the blood is boiling, and the bones are melting.

The continuous rain curtain hit her scalp and tear her skin, she was like a dry bone connected to the flesh.

Why do people regard her as evil—why do they despise her—why don’t they give her the right to speak—why don’t they even give her the opportunity to escape from reincarnation?

At first she had kindness and treated every nation around her well, but she always welcomed endless betrayal and cold death.

No one believes in her, no one understands her, even if she only has a hand of help, she will not have reached the point where she is now with madness.

She was tired and didn't want to go on. She wanted to die, but she wanted to die so much. Why didn't she even give her the power to die?

——What did she do wrong?

——What did she do wrong?

She had already begun to fear this life that "was passed quickly". She hoped that disasters and pain could end here and that all people would be blessed.

However, she can't even protect herself in this world.

Just "live", she felt very painful.

"It's so painful." She choked out a mouthful of blood.

"It's so painful." Her fingers were broken.

"It's so painful, it's so painful-"

"Su Ming'an! Save me - save me, save me, save me save me-"

She cried, her whole body melting.
To be continued...