How do you know I'm not happy
Achu is still as good as before, and he is always so kind to her, and has no selfishness at all, but what she was thinking just now, she actually thought that he was jealous and unhappy, so she turned around and left.
Qiqi suddenly hated herself a little. She was really sorry for Achu.
"I'm about to go find you and Bao'er. Since you're here, I'll try it first. I'll bring Bao'er." Mu Chu turned around and was about to walk outside the tent.
Qiqi said, "She and Xuan Chi have returned to the camp, now..."
Mu Chu paused, looked back at her, and was stunned for a moment before returning to the table. After asking her to sit down, he lifted the pot beside him, picked up the empty bowl and poured her a bowl of ginkgo porridge, and pushed it in front of her.
"Since her biological father is with me, I won't disturb you. Come and try it. It took more than two hours to do it and a few days in the war. I wonder if the skills have become worse."
Qiqi said nothing, but he still made her feel so sad that she couldn't say. What exactly are the two of them like now?
Looking at the bowl of porridge and thinking about the lingering relationship with Chu Xuanchi last night, I felt no shy at all, only a hint of melancholy.
But Mu Chu held the chopsticks and stuffed them into her hand. Seeing her like this, he frowned and couldn't help asking, "What? Have you used breakfast and can't eat it anymore?"
"No, I can eat it." They are all her favorite snacks, and the porridge is also delicious. It is much more exquisite than the breakfast Xiao Yuer gave her. How could she not eat it?
I picked up the porridge and drank it for a few sips. It was fragrant and pleasant. After swallowing it, I left my lips and teeth with fragrance. Only Achu could do such a skill in the world.
But how could she do this? She already has a home and is already with Xuan Chi, how could she possess his tenderness?
"Achu." She put the bowl down, and finally raised her head to meet his gaze. She mustered up the courage to say, "Achu, we..."
"How are we?" Mu Chu looked down at her uneasy little face. Something suddenly flowed through her eyes. The smile on the corner of his lips gradually dissipated, and his face also darkened: "Do you want to tell me that you should not be so kind to you in the future?"
Qiqi didn't say anything, but this was what she wanted to say. Although she really couldn't bear to give up his tenderness, since he was not the one he was destined to be, she could no longer occupy the position that belonged to others. Only by letting him go can he find his own happiness.
"This means... you are not going to drive me away, right?" Mu Chu frowned, his face getting a little deeper.
"No!" Qiqi was startled, and the four words "push him away" scared her hands so much that she shook her hands, and the bowl of porridge immediately slipped down from her hands.
If Mu Chu hadn't picked it up quickly with his eyes and hands, this bowl of porridge would have fallen to the ground and sprinkled all over the floor.
"It's such a waste of my heart." He put the porridge on the table, and when he put it down, his strength became a little heavy. The low sound of the bowl colliding with the tabletop hitting Qiqi's heart like a huge rock, which made her heart suddenly feel aching.
But she didn't say anything because she didn't know what to say at this time.
"Do you really think that I'm in a way that's your eyes?" Mu Chu looked at her, and there was no smile on his face at this moment, and even a faint cold air was overflowing from his whole body.
"No..." Qiqi shook his head quickly, frightened by his words, and shook his head vigorously and said, "No, really, no, why did I mean this? I'm just afraid of you... I'm afraid you will not be in a good life."
"Drive me away and let me wander around alone outside, will I live well?" His voice was a little light, cold and indifferent. Mu Chu was so scared that Qiqi didn't even dare to breathe his breath.
After knowing him for years, he rarely has such a terrible side.
She held her hands tightly, lowered her eyes, looked at the bowl on the table, and the ginkgo porridge he had carefully cooked in the bowl, and there were tears in her eyes, but she just endured it hard to prevent them from falling.
She didn't drive him away, but she could no longer get along with him as a husband and wife as she did in the past, but how should these words be made clear to him?
Both of them were silent, and the atmosphere in the tent was extremely depressed. Until the porridge became cold, her tears couldn't help but slid down.
Qiqi turned around in a hurry and raised it casually. The silent tears were wiped away by her. When she turned around, there was no trace of tears in her eyes.
She said helplessly: "Achu, you are my righteous brother..."
"Since I know that I am your righteous brother, why can't I treat me like Chu Jiangnan?" Mu Chu was helpless. Even though she tried her best to prevent her from seeing her tears, he could see the tears clearly and felt distressed.
He let out a breath, and the cold air in his eyes was finally retracted by him. He said in a shallow voice: "I am calm and peaceful now. Even if I see you and Chu Xuanchi together, I don't have so much regret. From the past, I knew that your relationship with him could not tolerate a third person interfering. Those two years were enough for me to reminisce about my life, but now, I have regarded Baoer as my own biological daughter. If you want to drive me away, wouldn't you break up our father and daughter? Qiqi, I can don't want you, a wife, but how can you bear it, and I will lose my daughter?"
"I didn't mean that." Her palms were tighter again, and her chest kept rising and falling. She knew that the words would hurt him, but since she knew, she could even speak cruelly: "Kebaoer..."
"It's always Chu Xuanchi's biological daughter, right?" Mu Chu sighed helplessly, and took the porridge and stuffed it back into her hands: "But I am also her adoptive father, and even her master. I have raised her for two years. Isn't the relationship between these two years broken up just by saying that it's so difficult to make her call me adoptive father?"
He no longer expects her to have feelings for him, but it is not because she had been with her in the name of a husband and wife, and now that she has a good man around her, this place cannot tolerate him?
He is also a living and flesh-and-blood person. If the three of them come back together, will he have to leave? He has also paid his feelings in the past two years. Even if Baoer is not his daughter, the relationship between him and Baoer is even more close than that of a real father and daughter.
How cruel are they to let him even want his daughter whom he loved all his heart and for two years?
The word "Entertainment Father" hit Qiqi hard in his heart.
It's not bad, she just fears that he will be too forced to do so and will feel uncomfortable when looking at them, but as he said, would he live well if he is alienated from him?
"Don't interfere in my affairs in the future, and don't think about introducing me to any girl. If you are not me, how can you know what I think?"
After Mu Chu looked at her and suppressed the pain, his eyes finally softened completely.
He was still like in the past, no matter how much grievance he felt in his heart, he still didn't want to put any pressure on her.
He just wanted to keep his little joy within the scope of his ability: "I may not be in a bad life alone. At least there is a prince Nan with him. When he is bored, he can still play chess and talk about life. If you force me to stuff a girl, I will think you are disgusting me."
"I never thought this way. I just... I just hope you are happy." Qiqi whispered.
"How could I know that the happiness you are for?" He smiled helplessly, pushed the plate in front of her, and his eyes fell on the snacks. Although there was still a little loneliness in his eyes, his words were sincere:
"Sometimes, I make some snacks for you and Baoer, and watching you eat happily is the happiness I want. Sometimes, I will say a few words to you, taste the delicious food in the world, and see the beautiful scenery in the world, which is also my happiness. Even if I see you and Chu Xuanchi together, I will still be a little lonely now, but if I can't see you, I think it's not just the word loneliness to describe my mood, how can you know that looking at you is not my happiness?"
Qiqi was speechless. Such a relationship was too deep and too great. She could not repay it. She would not be able to repay it in her life.
Mu Chu didn't say much. He was quite embarrassed to say so much to her today, but he didn't say this clearly. This girl was thinking about avoiding him, and his life would be very hard.
As he said, how did she know that it would not be his happiness if she could be with them now? Sometimes happiness is different for everyone, how could she be compared with him?
It is certainly a great thing in life to be able to get her. If you can't get it, at least when he is still thinking about her, don't drive him away, don't alienate him, and don't deliberately distance yourself from him.
It is his greatest satisfaction to be able to live together like a family.
He knew that he was very selfish, but not everything could be done to cut off the love roots of the Huijian, and not all pains could be turned into short pains. She didn't understand because she was not him.
Some recognitions are for life. As long as they are determined, it will be difficult to change in this life. She will never be able to understand his mood. So for him, he will be satisfied with maintaining his current state.
If she had to sort out something or push him away deliberately, it would be a disaster for him.
Can he keep a little selfish? He doesn't want to leave. Here are the women he loves, the daughter he loves, and all his dreams.
Even if he was called selfish, he still couldn't bear to leave. Baoer was born and raised until now. How could he bear to leave?
Qiqi picked up the snacks and ate them silently. As she thought about what he said, the more she thought about it, the sadder she felt, but there was one thing she seemed to have figured out a little.
Everyone's happiness represents completely different meanings. How can she know that living a quiet life is not the happiness he wants to pursue?
Chapter completed!