I had a mistress, so my family was gone. The court sentenced me to my mother. My mother was only in her twenties at the time, and it was impossible to take care of me. I stayed at my grandma’s house until I was four years old.

This period of time is the most memorable time for me, and it is also the happiest time. My memories at that time are also good. My mother would come back to see me every weekend. My grandma and my father loved me very much. At that time, I felt that it was nothing without my father.

Yes, but my damn dad is quite conscientious. He gives me living expenses every month. I can’t eat so much and he gives it to my grandma. He comes to see me once a month. In this regard, my dad still has a good conscience.

Yes, from the beginning of the divorce until now, we have maintained this frequency without any interruption.

It's a pity that such happy days did not last long. My father passed away when I was four years old, and my grandma failed to support me at the end of the year. When she was dying, she asked my mother to take good care of me. I had no choice but to leave my hometown.

, but I had to follow my mother to Mianyang. It can be said that it was my first time to come to such a big city. My mother rented a house here. She watched me and went to work, which was also very tiring. Later, my aunt gave me

My mother introduced a boyfriend, and that’s when my miserable days began.

The man my mother later found was stupid, big, and thick. At first, my mother thought he was very nice. After a few months of dating, we reached the age where we were ready to talk about marriage. He was also pretty good to me. He tricked my mother into getting married.

After that, the matter became completely different. I smoked and drank every day. I still remember at that time that I felt very uncomfortable when I smelled the smell of cigarettes. This bastard smoked hard in front of me and scolded me for the first time.

, saying that I don’t know whose seed it is, she has to be the one to provide for her. When he saw me, he thought that my mother had given birth to me with someone else. It was so heart-wrenching, but this person said so in front of my mother.

I'm fine. He threatened to beat me to death if I told him about the flowers. I could only swallow my anger.

When I started going to school at the age of six, this man was responsible for taking me to school. The other children were all behind their parents, wrapped up tightly. The winter in the south was also very cold. But this man always left me behind.

He left one kilometer away from the school. He was busy playing cards and sent me to waste time. Once when I was in the first grade, I walked home alone. I was five kilometers away from the school and didn’t want to stand up. As a result, after returning home

He said a few words to my mother, and my mother asked him to argue. This man lost money and drank, so he slapped my mother in the face.

"You bitch, you are so shameless, right? Why the hell are you yelling at me for such a little bastard? Be careful, I will kill you." This person called my mother like this, and my mother was also shocked. Memory

Nothing like this would happen here, and he felt it was not enough. He became even more angry when he saw me. He picked up a stick on the table and hit me. I still have scars on my back.

My mother was so angry that she came up and beat him. As a result, this bastard beat my mother black and blue. My mother didn't believe this man would do this at all. When they talked about it afterwards, the man said, I married a woman.

, It’s no big deal to have a child. It’s not mine. I feel uncomfortable when I see her, so I have to beat him to feel better.

From then on, this man called me a little bastard every time he saw me. He probably didn’t know my name until I was ten years old. Beatings and scoldings were commonplace. My mother also thought about divorcing him.

, but this guy threatened to kill me as long as we got a divorce. My mother saw that he could really do it, and she was worried about my affairs, so she didn't get divorced. The rest of the day would be like a nightmare.

, there was an episode in the middle. My father saw that my life was not good, so he took me to live there for two days. However, because his later wife couldn’t tolerate me, he sent me back again. This man was even more confident.

It’s no use scolding me hard, no one wants me anywhere.

When I was twelve years old, I graduated from elementary school. My grades were really terrible. I was ranked last in the class. No one else had ever been in my position. It was considered an honor. This was the beginning of my career in society.

During the time when I was a gangster, my mother gave birth to a little brother to that man. The birth of this boy made me even less important in the family. The man enrolled me in a boarding school and ignored it. My mother could not get out of the confinement period.

Come on, I have to rely on myself for everything. I was given 50 yuan a month. How can I live with 50 yuan in 1999 for a month? Even one week is not enough. I have no choice but to start to enter the society.

I wanted to see my mother, and she threatened me every time I walked in. My mother gave me money, and he took it away from me, telling me that I could just eat that. The rice in the school was free of charge, so I had to eat hard.

That’s it, why don’t you just try to eat without vegetables?

It was during this year that I met Brother Fei in society. Brother Fei is the gangster leader here. Regardless of whether you are a boy or a girl, Brother Fei will accept you as his younger brother. I was only twelve years old that year, but it was considered

It's okay to be nervous. The first time I met Brother Fei, I was snatched away from my first kiss by this bastard in the alley. From then on, I felt that kissing others was nothing. I kissed four people that year, but I

I still know the last step, and I also know a little bit about it in the video room, but in order to curry favor with Fei Ge, I let him touch me all over my body. I can eat and drink with Fei Ge without any worries, and I also learned how to do it.

Smoking and drinking. When I didn't learn how to do it, I thought it was too disgusting, but after I learned how to do it, it turned out to be really good.

When I was thirteen years old, I did the first big thing in my life. I was caught stealing a bicycle. I didn't know it at first, but later I found out that Brother Fei was looking for kids like us to work for him.

He took some of them and sold them to us. Of course, he still had the biggest one. I will never forget how cruel those policemen were. Even they punched and kicked a kid like me. They beat me directly.

I fainted, and clearly remember vomiting acidic water. When I was taken to the police station, my mother didn’t even recognize me when she went in to collect people. How sad. She walked right in front of me. I pinched myself hard and told me,

What are you doing with your life? Your mother doesn’t even recognize you anymore. It’s no wonder. She hasn’t seen me for a long time. I’ve become like this again. This ghostly look makes anyone want to leave as soon as possible.

Things changed after my mother took me home. She started to care about me. I also wanted to be a good boy. But it was different after her man came back. I just decided to be a good boy at noon.

Good student, in the afternoon he took a stick and beat me until my eyes were shining with stars. He also told me to get out of that home, saying that I didn’t belong there, and that I would teach his son bad things if I was here. My mother

After saying a few words, he beat up my mother too, saying that I was a nuisance to the family. I could clearly see the look in my mother's eyes, and it was clear that she didn't want to care about me. Okay, I know, I really shouldn't have come back.

, my biological mother also has a family of her own, and people like me are redundant in this family. That was the saddest time for me. When I walked onto the street, my biological mother ran away and gave me a hundred yuan. That man in the north caught me

She went back with her hair down. I understand her. People who are almost forty can only live like this and cannot get divorced. But could you understand me once when you held me in your arms?

From that day on, I really was a child without a home. I had no place to go at night. I had no choice but to stay with my former brothers and drink some wine with me. What I thought at the time was that I was going to fall.

That day, Brother Fei put me on his bed. That night was the scariest night for me. The pain was so painful that I wanted to die. However, Brother Fei, who was drunk, didn't care about me at all and directly made me almost die.

The sky has not fallen, and I can't help crying when I think about it. At that time, I hated my parents. If I had a knife, I would kill you first. I don't blame other people, I blame you. It's you who don't want me.

, I was just ruined by this bastard. If it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t be in this situation. I’m probably the person who hates my parents the most in the world. Why didn’t I have a family when I was born?

Until now, I have been a thief, snatched other people's wallets, and even sold my body. I was so hungry that I couldn't lose weight once. I only paid fifteen yuan. I remember it very clearly. I am a fifty-year-old man. When I think about it, I also think about it.

I had no choice but to throw up. I had no business for several days and I didn’t eat for two days. I was so skinny that I could only do that. What was the shame? I didn’t even know. All I knew was that I couldn’t starve to death outside.

I have to live, and one day I have to let my parents come and see what kind of life I am living, and see if they will regret not wanting me.

Brother Fei got me pregnant when I was fifteen. In fact, he was the man who had the most contact with me. When I told him the news, he asked someone to buy me an abortion pill and said, "Take it and you'll be fine."

, just go to the house and take a nap." I listened at that time and went straight into the house after eating these things. After the effect of the medicine took effect, I bled a lot from my lower body. I was very scared myself, but they

But he was watching me having fun and didn't care about my thoughts at all. On the third day after I had the abortion, Brother Fei forcefully took possession of me. I told myself that I didn't hate him, I hated my wolf-hearted parents.

When I was sixteen years old, I couldn't stand Fei Ge who was supervising me, so I beat him with a stick. He was so perverted that he would do whatever he saw in pornographic films, no matter when or where he was.

place, I didn't hit him, but I suffered a severe beating myself. After that time, I was no longer qualified to follow Brother Fei. I could only go to the street to find business on my own. My future life would be even more bleak.

I have worked as a waiter in a small restaurant and worked as a salesperson on the street. Anyway, I have done some jobs that can fill my stomach, but I have never sold my body again.

Finally, I took the right path and realized that I had no way to survive, so I started hanging out in bars and other places. Although I was able to have enough food and clothing, I lived among those people every day. That is, this year I got infected.

I was addicted to soft drugs, and I didn't feel anything good at first, but then I couldn't stop. The next time I saw my hateful parents was when I was in the detention center.

I was arrested and sent to a detention center for taking drugs. The next day, I was transferred to a drug rehabilitation center. When my parents saw me, they couldn’t believe that this thin person was me. I was really skinny and bones. They watched the two of them leak out.

I could only sneer over the tears. Everything was brought to me by them. I thought that the children outside could hold their parents’ hands properly. If they could hold my hand, I wouldn’t have reached this level.

, now I can only spend the past few years behind bars. The prison guard told me that I have to come back and report all the time after I get out, because people like us will be regular visitors here for the rest of our lives. People who have successfully detoxified themselves will come back here after they get out.

The probability is more than 60%, and only less than half of them don't have to come back.

My parents visit me once a month. At first, I didn’t want to see them at all, but when I saw their gray hair, I finally realized that they are all in their forties and old. Every time they see me

They all cried a lot, and my dad beat him hard in the hope that I would forgive him, but it was of no use to me. This is what I have been doing for the rest of my life. I have never been to junior high school. After I went out, I could only

I may come back here after I have been dawdling. Ladies and gentlemen, take a look at the children around you who are like me. If you are able, help them, take them back, and give them a warm home.

I asked my parents once when they saw that the breakup of your relationship led to this tragic life of mine. I wish you had not given birth to me. I don’t want to know this society. During a physical examination in prison, the doctor told me

It is impossible to have children in the future, and I will even go through menopause at the age of thirty. Uncles, aunts, and uncles, take a look at these children around you. Children wandering on the streets, children from families about to get divorced, use your

Genuinely warm them up, and maybe with that moment of soft-heartedness, this child's life will be changed.

I am already a disabled person, and I no longer resent my parents. I just see them as strangers, or even worse than strangers. I hope to use my story to tell the world that there are many couples of street children, divorced

Children dedicate themselves to their love, and I want to say to those parents, take good care of your own children, and don’t let them leave your arms prematurely. He is still very weak and needs you. I want to say to those who have become mistresses or are about to become mistresses.

For those of you who are feeling comfortable, do you look at your child to see if he or she is resenting you? I would like to say to those who are about to get divorced, look at your child’s eyes. You can see the future in his eyes. I would like to say something to those who are about to divorce.

For those who have become stepfathers and stepmothers, you have nothing to lose by being kind to your children. I hope that people like me will never appear in detention centers. I hope that street children and divorced children will never appear in this society.

All the above are true stories. I recorded all these things in the computer room of the drug rehabilitation center of the group. Looking back on the first half of my life, I hope my story can give people who read it a reference. I hope you all take it seriously.

Consider the children's thoughts, and hope that you can care about every street child and divorced child around you. As long as you give a little love, there will be one less useless person like me in this society. As long as you all take a step back, there will be more people in this world.
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