Jiang Ou held the paper cup he handed him and took a sip. The temperature was just right. She swallowed the water. Suddenly she realized that her son had always been like this for so many years. He didn't talk often, but he always took good care of people. It was because he was so good and too calm that sometimes even she would forget that he was not very old.

"Have you taken the medicine?" Jiang Tian sat with her for a while and asked in a deep voice.

Jiang Ou nodded: "I ate one before coming."

The communication between them mother and son always seems to be like this. Jiang Tian is not good at chatting, is not good at explaining, and is not good at finding topics to make people relax. He always stays silently in a place where she can reach, like a steady and speechless shadow.

Jiang Ou stared at the shadow at the soles of his feet for a long time, and suddenly heard him ask, "How are you having fun?"

She was stunned for a moment, a little surprised. She thought Jiang Tian would go straight to the point and asked her what she had said to Ji Huanyu, but she didn't expect that many years later, he actually learned to be tactful.

"It's pretty good, not tired, very relaxed." Jiang Ou smiled lightly, and her eyebrows were still gentle and friendly when she stretched her eyebrows. However, years of psychological torture made her feel a little more tired than before. "The old man also liked it very much. He found two chess friends and met an old lady who could play the piano."

Jiang Tian said "hmm", turned his head towards the ward and said, "Why should I pay attention to him?"

Jiang Ou smiled and sighed softly after a long time. She knew that the tactfulness was only temporary, and her son was still the cold and stubborn temper who could not turn around.

"I just want to give it a try." Jiang Ou said.

“What to try?”

"Try the doctor's advice and see if I'm really getting better."

"Why did you suddenly want to try?"

Jiang Ou opened her mouth and wanted to say that because I know how tired the people around me are and how tired you are. But five or six years of living in a foreign country were standing in front of her, this sentence seemed extremely pale and powerless, and she couldn't say it. What's more, she would still get nervous for no reason because of a few words and not recovering so completely.

She was speechless when asked, and was about to joke that she was staring at her mother and interrogating her? Suddenly, she remembered what the doctor once said, saying that she was more like a junior in this mother-son relationship, and was more dependent rather than taking care of the other party. It was like this before, but she didn't realize clearly that she just thought that Jiang Tian was more independent and she couldn't get involved even if she wanted to take care of her.

Later, because of Ji Huanyu and Du Cheng, she became frightened and suspicious, thinking that no one was trustworthy and no one was worthy of pouring feelings into it. The only exception was Jiang Tian.

So she herself did not realize that she treated her son as a life-saving straw. Her survival instinct made her hold on tightly, for fear that she would not even see the only one after turning her head.

Seeing that she was stunned for a long time and didn't know how to reply, Jiang Tian pursed his lips and lowered his eyes. He put his elbows on his knees and held his fingers loosely. After a while, he asked again: "How are you talking to him?"

"Who?" Jiang Ou was confused for a moment before she realized that he was talking about Ji Huanyu, so she replied, "It's different from what I imagined."

Jiang Tian turned his head to look at her, and she frowned and thought, "I thought I would be very uncomfortable, anxious, sweating, etc., but no. He changed a lot and almost didn't recognize him. Maybe he was not doing well, and I had nothing to be angry about."

This time, Jiang Tian didn't say anything and was silent for a long time. Jiang Ou couldn't sit still and glanced at him.

"Xiaotian?" Jiang Ou called him.

"Um."

"Do you think mom is ridiculous?"

Jiang Tian pulled the corner of his mouth, and it was not considered a laugh at all. He said, "It's not funny, I just can't figure it out."

"What can't be understood?" Jiang Ou asked in a gentle voice.

Jiang Tian didn't even raise his eyes and asked indifferently: "Even Ji Huanyu, you can say forget it, why can't I?"

Jiang Ou's heart suddenly tugged, as if someone had pinched a little flesh on the tip of his heart with his most sharp nails.

Although he spoke directly, he never asked such a question. He was afraid that she would have anxiety, insomnia or her emotions would collapse. He pressed his temperament and slapped indirectly for so many years, but for the first time today he couldn't hold it back.

"Is it harder for me to accept than Ji Huanyu?"

His tone was actually very calm, as if he was really just confused. The more he did this, the more painful it felt in Jiang Ou's heart.

Once she was bitten by a snake for ten years, she was afraid of a rope. She had been in the horns over the years, but she was afraid that she would not raise herself well, and that Jiang Tian would fall on Ji Huanyu's road... In the final analysis, she didn't want Jiang Tian to have any similarities with Ji Huanyu.

But she never expected that after a long round trip, Jiang Tian would put herself and Ji Huanyu on the scale. She was speechless and didn't know how to refute it.

She wanted to say of course not, how could it be possible? You are so different from Ji Huanyu.

But she looked around in a daze and found that over the years, everything she did seemed to be on the opposite side of this view, and every reaction she had seemed to be clamoring, "If you accidentally become that scumbag."

The most terrifying thing is that if Jiang Tian didn't ask that, she would never even realize it.

But……

"I really don't mean that, Xiaotian." Jiang Ou took a sip of water, pinched the cup and pressed her emotions slowly. The process of facing Ji Huanyu just now provided her with experience. She subconsciously recalled that moment and tried to imagine herself as a bystander. The person sitting in front of her was not her son, but a strange young man who tried to make friends with her.

She is not so anxious, much better than in previous years. She is just sad...

In order to avoid violent emotional ups and downs over the years, she hasn't sorted out her thoughts for a long time because of the medicine. In other words, she hasn't "think" about this behavior for a long time, so that at this moment, too many words came to her mouth, but she didn't know what to say.

After a long silence, she finally found the beginning: "I actually tried it."

Jiang Tian raised his eyes.

It was like an encouragement. She held the cup and continued, "Mom really tried to understand. For a while, she was in good condition and didn't need to take medicine. I thought for a long time. I was thinking... Why do parents hope that their sons and daughters can get married and have a good baby? My mother, your grandmother told me before. She said that she just thought that when she gets old and she is gone, what should I do if I am alone? It's better to have someone around me. If there is a reliable person who can take care of me, she will feel at ease. Actually, I'm about the same, I just want to..."

She paused, her eyes turned red a little. She lowered her head and took a sip of water before saying, "My son was lonely when he was a child, and no one took care of him. In fact, it's very strange that Ji Huanyu is useless. I am not qualified. I'm not as good as an old man without blood relationship to kiss you. But the old man is old and his health is not as good as before. Including myself, he will leave first in the future. If you are not married at that time, you will still be lonely. It doesn't matter in normal times, what if you get sick? What if you get in trouble? What if you get older in the future?"

Jiang Tian moved: "You can't guarantee these things even if you get married."

"I know." Jiang Ou said very slowly, always with a bit of nasal sound, "Look, my mother really thought about it. Later I told myself that getting married doesn't mean anything, and getting married may even get divorced. I am a living example. But I have you, who will you have in the future? I thought about it at that time, and I couldn't get out of it for many days."

Jiang Tian pondered for a long time and turned to Jiang Ou: "You came to Wutong to pick me up, but did you think you were taking care of me in your seventies or eighties?"

"Of course not." Jiang Ou said.

"Then why do you have to think about it?" Jiang Tian said.

He was not questioning, his tone was not heavy, as cold as ever, with a little helplessness and arrogance. But Jiang Ou was indeed stunned when he heard it.

"The old man has never been married and has never given birth to a child. There is still someone to raise him now. There is only a caregiver next to Ji Huanyu." Jiang Tian stroked his knuckles with his thumb and said in a daze: "Who knows what will happen in the future? Will it be useful to plan so many years in advance?"

"How do you know if you don't try?" Jiang Ou said.

"I tried it at the age of 18." Jiang Tian said.

Jiang Ou suddenly couldn't speak.

It was a hurdle to be 18 years old. Since then, Jiang Tian has never celebrated his birthday. She and old man Ding, professors, classmates or neighbors, no matter who tries to prepare for him, will be rejected. He is as if he is afraid of that day, and even hates that day.

As long as Jiang Ou thinks of this, he will be so uncomfortable that he can't feel.

She hunched down and drank a few more sips of water.

The corridor was not so warm, and the water was cold very quickly. Jiang Tian reached out to take her paper cup, got up and walked towards the water room.

In the past few years, Jiang Ou has seen his back many times. Perhaps because this floor is too empty, it seems to be more silent and lonely. The corridor is very long and the water room is on the other end.

For a moment, Jiangou had an illusion. It seemed that the lonely back would walk on the narrow road for a long time and would never get to the end.

She clenched her fingers and suddenly stood up and followed.

Jiang Tian filled the warm water in the water room, and the hot air at the mouth of the cup was filled with white mist. Yu Guangli Jiangou followed him and stood beside him.

After a few seconds, he heard the other party ask softly: "Does it be Xiao Wang?"

Jiang Tian was stunned and almost scalded his index finger by boiling water.

He lowered his eyes, turned off the faucet in a hurry, and stood there with a slightly scalded cup for a while before saying, "Why can't it be him?"

Why can even Ji Huanyu treat him calmly, but he is always so sensitive when he hears Sheng Wang's name?

Jiang Ou's face was not bloody and looked a little pale: "Because I really regarded Xiao Wang as my son."

She knew that Sheng Mingyang's businessman would be kind to Jiang Tian, ​​but it was difficult to treat him as her own. But she was not. For a long time, she really regarded Sheng Wang as her second son, her own child. It was not because of how deep she had feelings for Sheng Mingyang, but because she regarded Sheng Wang as Jiang Tian in another time and space.

"I told you before? I have heard a lot of things about Xiaowang when he was a child. I think he is very similar to you when he was a child, but he was raised like that, and I developed you like this. I often wonder, if I could be more qualified, spend more time with you, and spoiled you, will you grow up like Xiaowang, and will make a fuss and get angry. It's either that his personality is better than you, but I just think... If that's the case, will you mature later, think less, and smile more." Jiang Ou said.

She really regarded Sheng Wang as her son. How should she accept the fact that her two sons were together?

Jiang Tian didn't say anything after hearing the words, but just stood silently, staring at the slightly swaying waterline in the cup, and it took a long time to suddenly speak: "Have you seen him before?"

Jiang Ou didn't react for a moment: "Who have you seen?"

"Hope."

"……No."

"You should meet you." Jiang Tian said.

"Why?"

"When I saw him a month ago, he could no longer laugh, make noise, or get angry." He pulled the corner of his mouth, with self-deprecating smile, "It took five or six years to raise another Jiang Tian."

Jiang Ou's breathing stagnated, and her heart seemed to have been caught by someone, with blood leaking. She was very sad. She didn't know whether it was because of Jiang Tian who said such words, or because she became the hope of "Jiang Tian". Or... it was because after so many years, she turned everyone into "Jiang Tian" herself.

She suddenly remembered the young man she saw outside the hospital gate, opened her mouth blankly and asked, "Is Xiaowang here?"

"Here, I didn't let him come up." Jiang Tian said.

She subconsciously wanted to ask why, but fortunately she stopped before the words were expressed, otherwise it would be embarrassing. She also wanted to ask "Are you together again?" but she couldn't ask. Because she even said Ji Huanyu, forget it, and didn't know what position she could use to ask this sentence.

It seems that as long as she asks, the two of them are placed on the same line as Ji Huanyu, and this should be what she least wants to see.

She didn't find a position to ask, but Jiang Tian took the initiative to speak: "I shouldn't be able to change anyone else."

Jiang Ou was stunned for a moment.

"I want to spend a long time with him and never missed any year." Jiang Tian looked at her, "If you can't accept it, I will still look for you alone in the future, and there will be no changes. If you can accept it, then the two will be together."
Chapter completed!