If you cannot come out on time, it means you have not passed the dangerous period.

When I heard this news, I could feel Jiang Xi's heart. She must be helpless and at a loss.

Because she knew that her mother would not come out of the intensive care unit for a day and a half, and the doctor asked her family to be on call 24 hours a day, she could not come home. In fact, this was a precaution to see her for the last time, so Jiang Xi found a hotel near the hospital alone and stayed in.

She didn't always send me messages, but I was worried about her. I sent her messages to her every morning, midnight, and evening to ask about the situation.

She always replied: There is no news yet.

It was not early to get off work in the evening, so I hurriedly picked up Jiang Tiao from the evening care shift and took her to dinner. It was dark and Jiang Tiao was about to go to bed.

I can't leave Jiangdong alone at home to sleep, and at night, I have to deal with some work matters. I told my boss that I have to pick up children recently and can't work overtime in the company, but I can't really not work overtime, and I have to work overtime at home to handle work.

In China, overtime is the norm for our programmers. It may be because China has a large population. If you don’t work overtime, there are many single dogs working overtime in the company. If you don’t work overtime, you will definitely be targeted by your boss. Therefore, it seems abnormal not to work overtime.

Because of this, I didn't go with Jiang Xi for the first three days, and even though I was worried about it, I could only send text messages occasionally.

On the morning of the third day, I sent Jiang Tiao to kindergarten. When I was about to go to the company, I received a text message from Jiang Xi: Husband, can you ask for leave to accompany me? I feel like I am about to collapse.

I'll reply immediately: Come immediately.

I called the leader and said that my mother-in-law was in the intensive care unit and the leader understood it well. Although the work was very stressful, I still agreed to take a day off.

I immediately ran towards the hospital. I saw Jiang Xi in that small hotel. Her eyes were swollen like cherries. At first glance, I didn’t know how many times she cried alone in the hotel in the past three days.

As soon as she saw me, she came for me. When I was one step away from her, her body fell directly into my arms. I hurriedly hugged her tightly, and she was in a state of exhaustion and unsupported state.

Before I could ask, she burst into tears again. Her face was buried in my chest, low, sadness floated out of her throat with endless hoarse voice, "Husband...my mother... may really not be able to come out, um..."

Her crying was powerless, hoarse and very little, and it became more and more helpless, just like a person was locked in a room without windows and doors, without a way out, and could not see a glimmer of hope.

I felt that everything I said at this moment was pale and powerless. I could only hold her tightly in my arms and use my body temperature to convey a little bit of strength and warmth to her.

There is nothing else to do!

"Woo...woo...woo..."

She lay in my arms, motionless, making the heartbreaking sound until she cried until her voice was hoarse and almost couldn't make any sound. She was so tired that she lay on the bed and fell asleep as soon as she closed her eyes.

I think she hasn't slept in these three days.

About two hours after she slept, her cell phone rang. I picked it up and saw that it was the phone call from Dr. xx.

When Jiang Xi heard the phone call, she was shocked and turned over, snatched the phone from my hand, and immediately pressed the answer button.

I heard the doctor's voice coming from the opposite of my phone: Come to the intensive care unit and see her for the last time.

With a "bang!", Jiang Xi's phone fell to the ground. She took a breath, and a lot of tears burst out from her eyes. Her expression was a little bit muted, as if she hadn't reacted yet. The next second, she ran out.

I picked up my phone and followed her quickly.

We came to the intensive care unit, and the medical staff brought us sterile clothes to put on. There were critically ill patients everywhere. At first glance, we couldn't see which one was Jiang Xi's mother.

The doctor who performed the operation on Jiang Xi's mother waved to Jiang Xi at this moment, and Jiang Xi ran over quickly.

When we saw Jiang Xi's mother, she was completely disfigured. I saw a dialysis machine next to her, and what was stirred up was Jiang Xi's mother's blood.

It turns out that the five internal organs of humans are all connected, because after Jiang Xima's heart surgery, the heart function does not recover and the kidney function cannot work normally, which will lead to inability to urinate. Then the kidney function must be completed with the help of the kidney dialysis machine.

Some patients have given their hearts enough time to recover after dialysis, and some have recovered health. After three days of treatment, Jiang Xi's mother's heart function has not recovered and has declined more and more. Until the doctor felt that she should not go back late, she quickly asked Jiang Xi to meet her.

Jiang Xi grabbed her mother's hand. At this moment, her mother was still a little conscious. She was wearing an oxygen hood and the sound she could make was very weak.

I also hurried to grab my mother-in-law's hand.

Then, she looked at me with a weak but hard work, "I'm relieved to hand over Jiang Xi to you... You are a good son-in-law..."

After saying this, it seemed that she had used up her last little strength in her life. She slowly closed her eyes, and the last tear of her life flowed out of the corners of her eyes...

Jiang Xi was out of control in my arms, but this was the intensive care unit, and there were many patients who were fighting against death like this. Jiang Xi could not cry loudly to disturb them, so she could only lie in my arms silently and she trembled all over and burst into tears.

I couldn't control my tears, but I didn't say a word, just hugged Jiang Xi tightly, trying to give her a strong support.

At this time, the doctor said, "This is the intensive care unit. The family members cannot stay here for a long time. Her consciousness will gradually disappear. It is meaningless for you to continue to stay here, it will only be even more sad. You will be mourning and changing things... Then, you will go through the death procedures now, and you must hurry up and prepare the funeral and funeral. After about an hour or two, I will notify you to go to the morgue to get people. Also, do you need the hospital to help you contact the funeral home car?"

I said, "If you need it, please contact us."

In Beijing, we have never experienced the death of a relative, so it is most convenient for the hospital to contact us.

The doctor said, "Okay, then you guys go quickly."

I walked out of the intensive care unit with Jiang Xi who was basically slumped in my arms. Jiang Xi stopped crying, and seemed to have no tears. She was just a little stupid, as if she had lost her soul.

I didn't say anything, just silently held her hand, first completed some relevant procedures, and then went to the shroud shop at the entrance of the hospital to buy shrouds for Jiang Xi's mother based on her figure. There were many accessories and hats for her clothes. We had never done these things before, so we took the clothes and left, and didn't even look at them.

After we were ready, the doctor had not sent a message, we found a bench in the hospital yard and sat down.

Jiang Xi never said a word, and her whole body seemed to be frozen.

I kept holding her hand tightly, and she suddenly turned around and looked at me, "Husband!"

"Hmm?" I quickly agreed.

She blinked and said, "Just... the doctor asked us to go to the intensive care unit, right?"

I looked at her with distress and said, "Wife, mom... is leaving!"

She blinked again, and was stunned for a while and said, "Oh! Yes! I remembered..."

When she said "I remembered it", her tears came out again. She frowned and looked helplessly, and her voice was hoarse, "In this world, there are few people who love me. Now the person who loves me the most, who has always depended on me for his life is gone, no more... She was still here three days ago... At least she is still here, she can still talk, eat, so quickly... It's gone so quickly. She can never hear me speak, and she can never see the Jiang Ting she cares about the most. Husband, I can't accept it, I can't accept it..."

She cried in my arms tremblingly, while stomping her feet anxiously and quickly. She looked like her emotions were suppressed to the verge of collapse, but she could not find a break to release.

I quickly tied her in my arms, pressed her trembling body, and fixed her legs with my legs, "Wife, wife, you must be strong..."

"Husband..." She cried out loud, "Am I wrong? I made the wrong decision, I shouldn't let her have surgery. If she didn't have the surgery, she might be able to live for one month, two months, three months, maybe even more days... I was wrong, it was me who made the wrong decision that killed my mother, I was wrong! Woo... Woo..."

I looked at her and really didn't know how to feel sorry for her to relieve her pain. I could only say loudly in her ear, "Wife, wife, be calm, calm down, she will walk happily and not suffer. Otherwise, what if she lives for three months? At most, she will be tortured by illness for three months. You are right, you are not wrong!"

No matter how you decide this, it is difficult. It seems that there are mistakes in doing things, and there are mistakes in not doing things. There is no standard good answer. Anyone who encounters such a thing will feel like a heart-wrenching pain.

Jiang Xi cried loudly in my arms for fifteen minutes, trembling all over, and sweating all over her body. It seemed that she was tired of crying and could not cry anymore, and her crying gradually faded away.

It was at this time that Jiang Xi received a text message from the doctor on her cell phone: Your mother has been sent to the morgue.

I took Jiang Xi's hand and took her to the morgue.

When I saw Jiang Xi's mother covered in white cloth, I felt that Jiang Xi's whole body was weak and could not stand. I hugged her with one hand, supported her, and said in her ear, "Wife, you have to hold on! Mom definitely doesn't want you to be like this. What a strong person Mom is!"

Jiang Xi immediately took a deep breath, as if this could increase his strength.

At this time, a staff member asked, "Do you change her clothes yourself or do we change her?"

"You guys change it!" I said.

"If we change it, it will be 800 at a time. If we put on makeup, there will be 2,000 in total." The staff member said.

I thought about it and said, "There is no need to put on makeup."

I think Jiang Xi’s mother doesn’t want to put on makeup, and when I saw her face, I walked peacefully and seemed to have no worries. I suddenly thought of what she said to me at the end, “I’ll rest assured to hand Jiang Xi over to you, you are a good son-in-law!”

Thank you, my mother-in-law, from the beginning, you didn’t accept me, but in the end, you praised me as a good son-in-law. In fact, I didn’t do anything. Instead, you have been working and living for me and Jiang Xi, doing our logistics well, so that we can work and live without worries, and be happy for so many years.

If you can hear my voice, please accept my thanks and be grateful for meeting a mother-in-law like you in this life!

After the staff changed their clothes, they put their mother-in-law in a large freezer.

Accompanied by the sound of the metal drawer closing with a long slope, I knew that my mother-in-law had left us forever and would never see this person again in her life.

Suddenly, this cognition really makes people feel cold all over. Human life is so fragile that it will disappear if you say nothing!

Jiang Xi contacted his mother-in-law's good partner during his lifetime. Among them was a Christian aunt. The Christian aunt suggested that the mother-in-law be buried in the Christian way, because she also believed in Christianity during her lifetime.

Jiang Xi agreed.

The Christian funeral is very simple. After arriving at the funeral home, a pastor was found in a small ceremony hall and led several Christians to pray, bless and bid farewell to the deceased.

Christians take death very lightly. They feel that death is just returning to God's arms, it is the beginning of rebirth, and family sadness is limited. They will remember the deceased by praying for the deceased family.

Therefore, Christians do not visit graves or burn incense because they feel that the grave is just a pile of abandoned things, and the human soul has already returned to God's arms, so people do not necessarily have to have a grave after death.

Our family is in Beijing and there is no family or relative cemetery. I think it is not interesting to build a cemetery for Jiang Xi’s mother. Finally, at the advice of the Christian aunt, we decided to sprinkle my mother-in-law’s ashes into the river, river, lake and sea. This is also a good feeling. Premier Zhou did this.

In Christian terms, when God created man, he created it with the soil and the spiritual energy he blew. Now the soul has returned to God, and the body comes from dust and returns to dust.

In this way, our original family of four became a family of three.

In the first three months, Jiang Xi was unable to get out of losing her mother.

I go to work during the day and work overtime at night. When I come back, I often see her crying secretly. She is in such an mood and has to take care of Jiangdong and cook for us. I am a little worried.

I called my elder sister and hoped that she would take leave to take care of Jiang Xi for a while. My elder sister immediately asked for leave from the school.

So, my elder sister came to Beijing for the first time and came to my house to accompany Jiang Xi.

This incident touched Jiang Xi. Later, after she got better, she told me that she really needed someone to accompany her during that period. She missed her mother in a daze every day. She was afraid of knocking, touching, or losing it wherever she had forgotten. Fortunately, the eldest sister came, which made her feel relieved.

When the eldest sister took Jiangdong out to play, she could have a good rest and then start to devote her mental state to writing.

In the evening, my elder sister, Jiang Dong and I were back. With children, there were more people, there were more joy. Her mood improved a lot. She gradually began to adapt to and forget about her mother. In addition, her readers kept urging her to update, so she was forced to write well.

Unfortunately, my elder sister can only stay here for one week. The school said that if she takes too many holidays, it will affect her professional title evaluation, and I can't make it difficult for her. After all, professional title is very important to the teacher, so she left in a week.

I thought Jiang Xi was in a much better mood, but after my elder sister left, she suddenly called me one day and said to me when I was very busy with work, "Husband, I don't want to live anymore, I want to commit suicide. What's the point of living? My mother suffered all her life and finally didn't enjoy a few days of blessings. She left as soon as she said she was very busy. It seemed that life was meaningless."
To be continued...