The most terrifying thing about love is not that you don’t love, there is no harm if you don’t love. The most terrifying thing about love is that you have loved, you have passed it again.

Adversity always trains people more, swaying in difficulties and doing everything they can. That bursts out with huge power, right? You must release your greatest potential, resist the harm that may bring to yourself.

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After the hotel work started, the young man suddenly became busy. He insisted on coming every morning, smoking and waiting downstairs of Beibei's house. The two of them went to have breakfast together, and the wind and rain were all the time. He always said that he was very busy now, and said that he met new friends. He said that there was a very good sister at the bar. He said that the bar sister always brought him delicious food. He said that she was pretty, but she was a little dark. He also said that he missed Beibei every day.

"Yeah!" Beibei responded casually, all as if it was a response to him, responding to his overly enthusiastic longing, like a basin of cold water in his head.

"Are you still so busy these days?" Beibei handed the shrimp dumplings to Peng Cheng. They would not order five kinds of shrimp dumplings anymore, and the kelp filling was enough.

For people like Peng Cheng who have never studied much or worked very much, he can be a waiter in the hotel and do the most heavy work. He naturally has to be busy. The time is tight in that place, and it is almost nine o'clock in the evening after get off work. If he gets drunk, he will be even less order after get off work. They don't have time to meet at night. Beibei doesn't think it's inappropriate, but Peng Cheng is always reluctant.

"Oh!" He was a little distracted and looked very sleepy: "It's okay, I was a little tired yesterday. There were guests who didn't leave in the middle of the night. I was on duty and it was a little late to go back."

The young man looked very fragile, and he was eating less and less. As long as he had a little food, he was not too hungry. After sitting there for a while, he was straightforward, as if his mind was already asleep.

"Why go back early and have another sleep."

"No, you'll go to work later, I'll make up for it."

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For this breakfast every day, Peng Cheng had to get up at about five o'clock and walked from the hotel to Beibei's house. No surprises, it took about half an hour. After breakfast, he would hike back. If time permits, he could stare at the little fan for a while, which was the most comfortable.

When the morning shift at nine o'clock, Peng Cheng had no time to sleep and there was no time left. Perhaps because he was too busy with his partner, his son, he was eating shrimps and the dumplings fell asleep. Beibei had a casual chat. He raised his head suddenly and saw him sitting with his eyes closed, his chest rising and falling evenly. For some reason, the girl felt a hot heart. She couldn't bear to wake him up. She quietly finished the porridge, wrapped the remaining shrimp dumplings and porridge, and waited silently alone.

It was getting late. The second guest this morning came. The door was suddenly opened. The girl at the bar suddenly raised her head and even she fell asleep. Peng Cheng woke up as well. He seemed to be startled. He was shocked and held up: "Am I asleep?" When he saw the girl sitting opposite him, he felt relieved and relaxed. The man suddenly became shorter, with an inexplicable slight anger on his face.

"Don't come here in the future." Beibei lowered her head, picked up the things on the table, and was about to leave. She was not very happy.

"I don't, my wife, I didn't do it on purpose. I stayed up until the middle of the night last night. The bar sister was on duty with me. Her husband didn't come to pick her up. I took her back and went back to sleep. I didn't do it on purpose." Peng Cheng turned around and sat on the chair next to Beibei, clamping the girl in it. He kept coaxing her and always seemed very enthusiastic to coax her. He was hoarse and coaxing Beibei's face became more and more gloomy.

"Chengcheng, stop talking, stop talking, your voice is hoarse. I don't mean that, I think you are too tired, and you can't stand it if you come out again in the morning."

"I don't, I can, I can hold on, I can, I can't even get out at night, and I can't see you in the morning, so why am I still looking for this job?" He finally felt relieved, and then put his head on Beibei's shoulder, like a puppy that has not yet been sleeping. He bent his body and nested on her shoulder, and his eyes closed again with a firm look.

"My wife, it's so nice. You feel sorry for me."

"No, you're thinking too much." Beibei leaned on him without moving: "Then don't come in the future, okay? It's so cold, and I don't like to go out for dinner when you come."

"That's OK." As if he had figured it out, he replied quietly.

Maybe she was too tired! She could understand, but her heart still felt a little sore. The girl had been mocking herself for a long time and got on the commuter bus. When she saw Xiao Ai, she still felt unsatisfied.

That night, Beibei received a call from Peng Cheng from the county town. He said that he would go home first and wait until the weather was good before coming to have dinner with his wife. Finally, he had not forgotten to threaten Beibei. He said that she was Peng Cheng's wife and told her not to always think about other men.

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New Year's Day is coming soon. Qin Tian called just after midnight on New Year's Day to wish Beibei a happy New Year. He said he hoped her happiness.

Beibei pondered his blessing in his heart. He heard the sadness in people's hearts. He said that he hoped she would be happy. How sad it would be! The girl didn't know what else she could say. Should she bless him, but she couldn't think of a better statement, so she also said that she hoped Qin Tian was happy and so stupid.

Qin Tian seemed to be very helpful in Beibei's blessings. He smiled very happily. It was really a joy that floated out of his heart. Then they hung up the phone, like an old friend.

After talking about introducing her boyfriend she met last time, Qin Tian had obviously fewer calls. After calling several times, she asked Beibei if she had dated him. The girl knew that he hoped that she could develop well with her new friends, so she didn't explain much. More contact would only make her feel that she was a shameless bitch.

Since the matter of going abroad was finalized, Qin Tian seemed to have become more confident. This is also a good thing! At least in China, he may not be so confident or so full of hope. Although the procedures for going abroad were not going smoothly, this did not hinder his expectations for the future at all. He was so excited that he was like a bird that was whistling. He would blow once every time he called, which would always hurt Beibei's heart.

Qin Tian asked Beibei if the snow is heavy in the northeast? Then he heard Beibei say exaggeratedly, saying the Northeast is like the Xing'an Mountains. He asked if he couldn't pull it out even if he stepped into the snow. Beibei said, "No, the whole person can sink in the place where the snow is thick."

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January, Laba came. At noon on the Laba day, the cemetery prepared eight-treasure porridge, which tasted very good. After drinking two large bowls of porridge, Beibei sweated on his forehead. In winter, there was not much work in the cemetery, and the mountains and ground were covered with snow. In this season, the cemetery seemed much more desolate, with the snow pressing on the grave, lonely and bleak.

In the afternoon, I went up the mountain to check as usual. As soon as I entered the cemetery, I received a call from my boyfriend last time. More than a month has passed, and this person should have forgotten it long ago.

He had no sense of disagreement at all, as if the gap this month did not exist. It seemed that after eating the tomato scrambled egg rice bowl, he woke up today. He asked Beibei if he had time to come out for a date.

Beibei was about to refuse, but was stopped by her colleague. The colleague quietly leaned into Beibei's ear and said, "It's not small, it's almost done, give him another chance." So she agreed despite her helplessness.

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The temperature of the passers-by was so low that the passers-by had to tremble. Beibei went home and deliberately changed into a thin mid-length coat, and the high-heeled leather boots that had been sold for a long time but had not dared to wear.

After getting out of the house, he naturally became colder. As soon as he walked out of the corridor, Beibei wanted to go home. The man was much smarter than her, wearing a dark gray down jacket, a cotton hat and a cotton shoes, so he couldn't see his face. He walked away from afar, maybe he hadn't seen him for more than a month, and Beibei didn't recognize him. He said that he would go to Laba porridge together in Laba today, so he took the girl to a nearby porridge shop.

The congee shop is not far away and there are three stops. It is not easy to walk over. Beibei wears little clothes. She is frozen as she walks like this along the way. He doesn't think of this person's three-layer sweater inside and outside. He staggers and chats with her while walking, and his pace is extremely slow.

Finally, when he arrived at the porridge shop, Beibei was already frozen, and the heat from the human face was steaming. She felt that the person would be alive in an instant. Instead, he was so uncomfortable that he was still wrapped in his coat on the outside, and he started to take off as soon as he entered the door, taking off one piece on the left and one piece on the right. After a while, it became even hotter. He took off the inner layer of down vest and fell on the stool next to him.

"Why is this hot in the room?" The man was so hot that he pulled his collar straight, his face moisturized. Beibei turned his head to look at him feeling uncomfortable: "It's the porridge shop! It's too cold and it's uncomfortable to eat."

"What's wrong with you? It's uncomfortable if you're hot." He took off another sweater.

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There were many people eating Laba porridge in the porridge shop. Beibei and his two men waited for a long time before they could wait. They still had a table. The man's pile of clothes had no place to put, and he was lying around: "Why are there not even a serious table?" He complained, as if he was very bored.

"Waiter, move a chair." He shouted loudly, but there were too many people, and the shouting was drowned in the crowd. The heat made people lose their good temper and there were people everywhere. The waiter moved a plastic stool, but there were plastic stools everywhere, and people were everywhere. Not only did there be no place to put it, but he really couldn't hold so many clothes.

"Then where will I put my clothes?" He suddenly became angry and shouted sternly. After dealing with each other for a long time, the waiter suggested that the clothes be stored in the bar.

"Is that clean? I tell you, don't get me dirty." The waiter promised repeatedly, and the man followed him specifically, leaving Beibei alone sitting awkwardly. The other couple on the four-person stage looked at her strangely, and the girl shrugged her shoulders embarrassedly.

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"What do you want to eat?"

Finally saved his clothes, he was well-fed and hurriedly walked over. He sat down and pursed his hair. He put another piece on his white shirt. The gray and snow-flake-like coat made him look very elegant.

Today is Laba. Although I had eaten it at noon, Beibei still chose Laba porridge. She seemed to be unsatisfied. This time, after having the experience of the last two times, she directly said that she wanted to order a side dish and ask for a basket of shrimp dumplings.

"The porridge is delicious in the porridge shop, and everything else is average." He said this, as if it was a suggestion, and it seemed like a decision. He called the waiter to order two bowls of Laba porridge and brought another portion of sugar: "I'll go to the side dish area to pick up the dishes, what do you want to eat?"

"Whatever, anything is fine." Beibei Shang was a little relieved. Although he didn't order the shrimp dumplings, at least this time he recognized the side dishes.

After a while of busy work, the other couple on the four-person table had finished eating, and there were fewer people in the store. Finally, Beibei was left on the table. The man came back with the side dishes and placed neatly in a small plate.

He seemed to be a regular person. The side dishes were coded extremely neatly, and they were finely arranged so that they could hold such a lot. Picking side dishes also requires skill. If someone changed to someone else, he would probably not be able to pick up such a lot. There was a high stack of dried tomatoes, so he didn't have to drink porridge, and he would be almost full after eating them all.

"No one pulls it? I'll bring the clothes." "Chen Xiaodong" put down the side dishes and went to the bar to get the clothes. Beibei looked awkwardly at the meal bundles in front of him, which was ashamed.

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As the same goes for two people, you spoonful of you, I spoonful of you, each of them ate porridge, and no one talked to each other. Before the food was finished, he rarely talked to people. The porridge shop was probably crowded and very noisy, and the side dishes were too neatly arranged. Beibei could only eat them in order, otherwise the one below would fall off and fall outside the plate.

She looked down on this beautiful man a little, thinking that she was such a stingy guy. She started looking for the brands of his clothes. After a closer look, although Beibei didn't know a few, she knew that he was really valuable big brands. The most valuable thing was his shiny watch.

"What kind of watch is this? It's so beautiful." Beibei pointed to his wrist and asked curiously.

The man put down the spoon and touched the watch, as if he was very proud. He said a strange name. Beibei had never heard of it: "This was given to me by a friend of mine, about 30,000!"

The girl lowered her head and thought about it, and it was a little strange. She couldn't think of any friend who could give her a watch worth 30,000 yuan. A young worker who could only write some articles was without money or power. What kind of friend was so generous that she gave her a watch worth 30,000 yuan?

"A female friend." He seemed to see Beibei's doubts, explained it specifically, or showed off. He said that although they were female friends, they had an extremely innocent friendship, but the friendship was too strong and she gave him this watch worth 30,000 yuan.

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"Let's go back by taking a taxi! Don't take a taxi, then you'll go home directly." Beibei trembled and suggested that when he came out of the restaurant, the air was getting colder and it seemed to be even stronger, and it blew directly into her heart through the bones.

"It's time to go, I'll take you home, and I'll go back to the station." He said, tightening the hat of the down jacket and ready to act.

"My house has to walk three stops!" Beibei said reluctantly.

"It's okay, I'll be there in half an hour."

"Don't leave, you're snatching the watch."

After hearing what Beibei said, the man seemed to think about it. He raised his arm and stuffed the watch into the cuffs: "Okay, it's okay." He looked at the girl proudly. Everything was ready. No one could see that he had brought a watch worth more than 30,000.

"Then you can take the car by yourself! I want to take a taxi." Beibei turned cold and turned around and left.

"Oh! Don't take a taxi, why are you so unaware of your life?" Chen Xiaodong grabbed the girl's arm in anger and scolded her in a very annoyed manner.

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Lexin's baby was born, and it was a winter without any play. On the fourth day, the little princess was diagnosed with congenital heart disease. There was an unnecessary hole in the heart, which turned the originally well-confined heart into all directions. Venous blood and arterial blood would be integrated in the heart.

Beibei called Qin Tian again, because she felt extremely guilty. After the child was diagnosed, she asked herself more than once that if she told Lexin that Qin Tian's words, she might not have been like this.

"Xiao Ben, listen to me, even if you tell her about Le Xin, she may not be able to abort the child. She will worry that she will not be pregnant again in the future, and she will definitely take this risk." Qin Tian comforted anxiously. He spoke carefully, hoping that she would feel more comfortable, but that didn't work much. Beibei always accepts it sometimes, and sometimes doesn't accept it. There is no reason, and she will change her mind. She always thinks that maybe she has said it, and Le Xin will have a glimmer of opportunity to change her mind, and soon she will start to insomnia again.
Chapter completed!