If I could only see darkness, maybe I would no longer desire light.

It was a village hidden deep in the mountains, where he was born. It was not popular there to go to the hospital to have children. In the low winter of 1986, the transportation was not convenient. Only one dirt road with a wide meter leads to the town that is not yet prosperous. To this day, the road with a wide meter is still wider, but there is still a dirt road.

There is no one who remembers the specific one Peng Cheng was born on the kang. When he was given to his parents in the city, he was so young that he didn't remember these things. As for others, he generally felt that there was no need to remember him as a person.

She was still a baby in cradles, probably in the first month of the year. Before the New Year was over, the snow was almost Fengshan. It was a cold and cold day. The mother, who was still in confinement, cried and sent away the soft son in her arms. The poor countryman didn't bother to remember even Peng Cheng's specific date of birth, but only remembered that it was one morning, a very cold morning, and the sky was not completely bright.

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"Old Zhang, why are you squatting here? Isn't it cold outside?"

The middle-aged man was tucked in his sleeves, tightening his neck, and was twitching. He walked up from the slope below and looked up at the man squatting in front of the house door. The man curled up, his head drooped very low. When someone called him, he raised his head, his face was dark and covered with wrinkles, and his face was aggrieved and bitter.

"Brother Cheng, you're here, oh!" The man's mouth was grinning in a zigzag shape, and he thought he had made a big trouble: "Where is the dumb house! Look!"

The middle-aged man pushed the door and entered the room. The door shaft creaked. Half of the screaming, the door suddenly sank, and a clanging sound woke the woman on the kang. The woman held up and struggled to sit up from the bed. Maybe she had just given birth to a baby, she seemed to be exhausted. People cried so hard that they had been crying even more and more when they were there. When the middle-aged man came in, she cried even more.

"Don't cry, why are you crying?" The middle-aged man's voice was a little loud, and he forgot to turn his loud voice down. The child on the kang whispered softly, smashing his eyes, which were still not clear, and then bursts of crying. The child's crying came very suddenly, as if it had been recorded in the recorder earlier. With just one signal, he screamed.

"What, why are you awake again?" Lao Zhang rushed in outside the door. The strong door panel was hit and the sound of a clang. The child on the kang cried even more. Lao Zhang grinned with a big mouth, as if he had eaten coptis chilly. His shoulders drooped weakly and his eyebrows were strangled to death, as if he had been tortured to death.

"Brother Cheng, I'm crying like this, I just cry all day long, and I don't know what's going on. This kid, brother! Why did I make such a fun move?"

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In the eyes of those poor parents, maybe this child is a product on their production line and it was broken if they were not careful. That was a very embarrassing thing, and Lao Zhang had that expression. The child might mean that his guy was not responsible, so this defective product was released.

"It's okay, I'll take it away if I don't work. Someone wants to keep one." After saying that, the middle-aged man laughed. He took off his cold clothes and placed them on the kang at the farthest position from the child. After putting it down, he walked over and rubbed his hands quickly, looking at the aggrieved little and pitiful child who didn't even have the strength to shake his arms, but was still stubbornly crying.

"Brother Cheng, why can't he not cry?" The thin and dry woman on the kang asked begging, and the middle-aged man didn't know what to say. He looked at the helpless woman. The more she asked, she cried more and more. I guess she was reluctant to let go, but what if she could not let go? Women! They could only cry.

"Why are you crying? Why are you crying?" Old Zhang rushed over in two steps, reached the edge of the kang, glared at his witty girl on the bed, reached out to wrap a small quilt, picked up the child, and turned his body halfway towards Brother Cheng, and his mouth was full of abuse at his wife: "You useless girl, look at what kind of thing you gave birth to, like a monster."

It was as if he understood his father's words, the child suddenly cried even more, louder and louder, and cried anxiously, and he kept twitching. Old Zhang didn't care about this. He patted the child's back and walked two steps towards Brother Cheng and stuffed the child into Brother Cheng's hand. The child kept twitching, and Old Zhang felt something was wrong. He pounded hard, and the little guy let out a muffled Yingning, and then he really stopped crying.

"Lao Zhang, what are you doing? Put the child down first." The middle-aged man quickly took the child, held it in his arms and looked at it again. When he saw the child crying again, he walked to the edge of the kang and put it down again.

"This room is so cold, and the little bit of heat on the kang is so hot. The child should be frozen. Don't scare people talk nonsense. What monsters aren't monsters? This child has encountered a long time ago. I will take them away later. I won't do anything to you both." Old Cheng didn't like to listen to Lao Zhang's words, and quickly scolded. The woman on the kang moved over at this time. She reached out to hold the child, so pushed the child into the kang.

"It's true!" Old Zhang shouted and slapped his thighs, lowered his head and squatted beside him.

"Brother Cheng." The woman on the kang started crying again. The middle-aged man's words seemed to have a backbone. She wailed and rushed out of the dilapidated house, which scared : "What his father said was true. The fortune teller came here, saying that we had no life as two sons, and said that I only have one son in my life. This child is not our family, he is a monster, he came from the world by himself. Brother, why did we get this matter up?"

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On the way out, 's heart never felt at ease. I wonder if this child really does not belong to that family. He didn't want to take the child out in the first lunar month. The little guy is not yet full term, but when he sees the couple, he is afraid he can no longer bear it.

The heavy snow covered all the ruts he had pressed, and it seemed that no one had passed by behind him. He rode his bicycle back. It would be late at night when he got home. It was strange that it was so cold outside and the wind and snow were so strong that the child was sleeping in the basket with his bicycle swaying left and right, and he didn't even say a word. But these were even more amazing than when he just left. He just hugged him out of the room and crossed the threshold. I don't know why, but he stopped crying and stopped silent.

"Old Cheng, look, he is really not a family member, why did he give birth to our family?"

Lao Zhang followed him tightly and he spoke again. turned around and looked at Lao Zhang's big mouth. How did he put it in this shape? His mouth was so flat.

I have not returned to my hometown for some time, and my relatives at home can never get up. It is difficult to get in and out of the mountains, and I don’t have a bicycle. I will ride a bicycle to go in and out and then go back. I have to delay the road for a long time. I usually do not go there often during the New Year holiday. It is not easy to have a child this year. They are all only children, and each family is one child. No one can bear to give it to others. If it is not... Hi!

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After staying for only one night, 's wife made a bowl of egg custard for the child and fed it early in the morning. The child was very energetic and got up early. She seemed to be hungry, but she still didn't cry.

"Boy's father, this child has become obedient."

The wife was feeding the child, and she kept praising her, with her hands and feet in front of her heart. didn't say anything. She was nervous. She didn't know if her brother-in-law could accept the child. After all, he just heard that there was something wrong with him and hadn't really seen it. If he didn't want it, thought about it for a while and then he would discuss with his wife that we should raise it ourselves and give him an operation when he grew up. It's not the same as a good child. He also found a younger brother to accompany his daughter.

In the afternoon, my brother-in-law came and brought 's daughter back. It was snowing outside again. My brother-in-law and sister were all white, but there was no trace of snow on her own daughter. hurriedly let the couple into the house. The girl who could not have children was his own girl. consciously lowered his face when he saw people, especially since his brother-in-law never said anything, and there was no bad thing to take care of his sister, which made him feel even more inappropriate.

The four of them sat awkwardly for a long time. Old Cheng felt it was difficult to speak. Finally, the brother-in-law spoke first. The gentle man was just to see the child, and he was impatient: "Brother, where is the child?"

When looked up, he wanted to see his parents-in-law even though he was ugly, so he gave a wink to his wife. His wife was a delicate person and hurriedly got up: "Okay, then I'll go and bring her over, Peng, you guys sit."

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"Brother, why is this kid like this?"

The girl was unhappy at home. repeatedly coaxed and persuaded her, but her brother-in-law couldn't see any reluctance. He seemed to like the child very much. He was surprised that the child seemed to be in love with his brother-in-law, and his eyes lit up when he saw him.

"Brother-in-law, I'll call this kid Peng Cheng. Do you think it's OK?"
Chapter completed!