I put the phone aside and took out a can of beer from the convenience bag and drank it. My mood became more and more disappointed, but I couldn't find a reason to comfort myself. I didn't know how deeply I hurt Li Xiaoyun, as well as my father and mother. I could imagine what they were feeling at this moment. For them, the upcoming late night was also sleepless.

The phone ringtone rang again, but it was called by Le Yao. Her persistence made me helpless. Finally, I answered the phone and said patiently: "I have really had supper. Can you go and eat it yourself?"

Le Yao choked and said to me: "Zhaoyang, I know you are in a bad mood. You must have given up a lot for my business, right?"

"You're thinking too much, just going back to Suzhou, at most you think you've never returned to Xuzhou." As I said, I subconsciously took out a cigarette from the cigarette box and lit it.

"Then you come out to have dinner with me, I'm really not in the mood alone."

I was silent for a while and finally agreed to Leyao's request, because I didn't want her to see my downfall and then felt psychologically burdened. But I was really tired of the forced smile after meeting, and this was the main reason why I refused to have supper with Leyao at the beginning.

...

I ignored the severe cold of winter and took a hot shower in the small hotel. Then I walked out of the small hotel with my wallet, but I didn't want to be looked at by Le Yao, who was already standing across the street waiting.

She trotted to me and stared at me, but she didn't say anything for a long time.

I snuffed out the cigarette in my hand, and put my hand in my pocket because of the cold, and said, "Are you going to have a meal? Let's go."

"Why did you stay in a small hotel?" Le Yao asked with red eyes.

Subconsciously, I thought women were born to be procrastinated, but I didn't expect Le Yao to arrive at the agreed place before me. Then she saw me walking out of the small hotel. Looking at her, she found that she didn't wear makeup and just wore the simplest sports down jacket. No wonder she arrived before me.

I avoided the important things and said: "Find a place to eat first."

Le Yao nodded gently with tears in her eyes, and then the two of them were submerged side by side in the crowd and walked forward along the street.

I just wanted to eat some casually on the street, but Le Yao insisted on stopping a taxi and asked the driver to take us to a high-end Western restaurant.

...

In the Western restaurant, listening to the soothing music and the sound of running water in the fountain pool, my nervousness finally sootheed a little.

Le Yao lowered her head and ate, but she never talked to me, but I had no appetite and just drank a glass of red wine.

Half an hour later, Le Yao finally finished eating. She looked at the food I had never moved before and felt sad again. After a long time, she asked me in a low voice: "Zhaoyang, this time I went to Suzhou must be very embarrassed, right?"

"Nothing is difficult, you don't have to care."

"What about your girlfriend, didn't she say anything?"

I was told to the pain by Le Yao, but I had to endure the pain and said, "It's nothing, she supports my decision."

Li Xiaoyun did support my decision, provided that I also lost the love that I went to marry her.

Le Yao asked again: "Then why did you stay in a small hotel alone?"

I was finally upset and said with an unhappy expression: "Le Yao, do you know why I don't want to come out for dinner with you? I really don't want you to ask this and that endlessly... No matter what the consequences of this matter are, I have already chosen it, so all your questions now have no meaning."

Le Yao didn't say anything more.

I said to her, "I'll get over as soon as possible when I help you manage the bar, it may not take a week."

"Well, Robben has been singing in my bar now. He has been singing for free for a month. I feel sorry for him... Zhaoyang, if there is a way, I won't look for you. I know this will make you embarrassed!"

Le Yao's words made me feel inexplicably. Sometimes life is so cruel and gives people no choice at all, and living is so involuntary.

Leaving the Western restaurant, we walked on the cold street under the lights of the street lights. I was still smoking, while Leyao looked at the end of the street with a little confused.

I don’t know how long I walked in a lonely posture, but finally returned to the hotel where Leyao stayed. We are going to part for a short time.

I said to Le Yao: "Go back to the hotel to rest early. If it's time to go to the morning, I'll give you it."

"No need, I'm at 10 o'clock in the train, you're already at work then."

"Well, then you should pay attention to it on the road. There are too many people on the train."

But Le Yao ignored my advice and said to me with tears in her eyes: "I am really ignorant. I should listen to your advice. I shouldn't open a bar. I have harmed myself and you too!"

I gently patted her shoulder to comfort her and said, "Don't cry, a person will definitely do wrong things in his life. The important thing is how to make up for it after making mistakes. I will accompany you through the difficulties."

Le Yao threw herself into my arms out of control and sobbed, "Zhaoyang, I will definitely compensate you twice the amount you lost for me today."

I held Le Yao's shoulders and asked her to leave my arms. I said to her seriously: "Remember, we should never say the word compensation between us. Just like you were slapped for me. Have you ever thought about asking me to compensate?"

Le Yao shook her head and said, "I don't want your compensation, this is what I'm willing to do for you."

"So, I am willing to do it for you when I return to Suzhou."

...

After sending Le Yao back to the hotel, I walked alone on the street and then walked past the platform in front, which was the small hotel I checked in, but now I don’t want to go back, even though the world is so cold at this time.

I sat on a stone bench in front of the railway station square, lit a cigarette and watched the people coming and going in distractedly. At this moment, the people who passed by me had a brief intersection with me, but the next moment they would all take the train to go their separate ways, and there would be no intersection again, but their lives would continue, full of sorrow and joy in the future.

Therefore, no one will live a peaceful life, and a life filled with sorrow and joy is considered a secular life.

After taking a deep breath, I finally snuffed out the smoke in my hand, and couldn't help but look up at the sky. Where is the crystal clear city? I have already traveled to Suzhou and Xuzhou. Whether it is looking up during the day or looking forward to the night, I have never seen it again. Is this really just a fantasy city? If so, it makes people so sad... because the tired heart can never find a place to live.

How great would it be if there was a silver boat at this moment, swaying, swaying, squandering the night and taking me into the velvety sky...

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