After leaving the cemetery, I walked empty-handed on the straight road. The road became wider and wider, fitting with the blue sky and white clouds above my head. I stopped and looked up at the distant city. I felt the scars that could not retreat on our bodies. Perseverance and giving up were just a thought, but I have not figured out whether it is persistence or giving up to open a window for our lives... In recent years, what I have seen is the collision of countless emotions in the troubles of the world, and we can only use the trapped eyes to chase sometimes real and sometimes illusory freedom...

Perhaps it was because I had no burden on my body. I walked with my legs in the city that made me feel depressed for many years. I walked to the moat... To this day, this place has been transformed into a leisure gathering place similar to a river square. Every time I saw countless smiling faces asking for happiness here, I understood: This place no longer belongs to me and Jian Wei. The labels we put here have been ruthlessly torn apart by time. In the end, there was only a trace of nostalgia that fell on the river surface and floated to the end of the city with the wind...

In the noisy crowd, I turned over and sat on the guardrail by the river. Here, I didn’t want much. I just wanted to sit quietly for a while, then light a cigarette, and think about something...

I really lit a cigarette, but found that there was not much that could make me miss it at this moment. Until a dead leaf fell silently into the river, my memory was opened...

At this point, a lipstick once slid down in Jian Wei's hand. At that moment, her expression seemed to have lost the whole world and was so melancholy. But I realized it more than two years later: 6 years ago, she used this lipstick to rewritten the waiting on the car window that I would never forget for the rest of my life...

wait?

I waited, but there was no result in it... In the end, it was just a very hurtful mark in the lives of both of us!

But even so, I will never forget that when I first met her, she wore a white T-shirt, which amazed me all summer...

I took a deep breath of cigarette, but I was trapped in my mouth, reluctant to let it go... because I was afraid to see the original starting point in the smog!

"Jian Wei, we have no future, just like the water in this moat in front of us. Although we have never blended with each other, as the wind direction changes alternately, we have flowed in two directions. Now, I have already reached the shore, where are you?..."

"You must be working hard, are you?"

I finally spit out the smoke trapped in my mouth, but what I saw was not the original starting point. I seemed to see Jian Wei's happiness in her future life. She would not be worse than Yan Yan's close friend. One day, she would become the most beautiful mother in the world, holding her beloved child and smiling in the bright sunshine!

.........

Walking has become something I can't stop today, so I went north and came to that period of railway tracks that Le Yao often regarded as a support. The dusk came quietly when I stopped. In the scattered afterglow, I seemed to see a lonely back. She stroked her hair gently and looked at the farthest stretch of the railway tracks...

As the friction between the train and the rails, I gradually remembered some of the things she said to me...

She said: We want to be experts in life...

She said: There is an isolated island in her heart, and she will wait for the man who comes on the sails on this isolated island.

She said: All the pain of a person is just because he regards himself as too important and wants to satisfy his illusory desires in his heart. For example, love will be painful once it is not what he imagined!

She also said: This life has planted a seed in my heart. If there is rain, you must remember to blossom and bear fruit...

"Le Yao, you really understand the principles in life better than all of us, but for a long time, you are unwilling to be experts in life with these principles... In fact, I always know what you are thinking, but I don't understand why you think so. Think about it, this is the biggest regret when we get along!... But in my heart, I will never forget the years when we penetrate each other in pain...That period was when you graffiti in my life, and I was tired of it. But when I looked back at your graffiti work, I realized that it was the most beautiful picture in life..."

"Le Yao, we all have our own families, and we have fewer and fewer opportunities to get along, but I'm afraid there will be no less thoughts in our hearts... With these thoughts, I really want to see what will your woman who loves to play and make fun of, and like the wind will become after understanding the responsibilities of the family?... In fact, the responsibility of the family is also a railway track, which must be tightly matched and symmetrically with each other, so that the train of the family can be driven smoothly, representing a successful journey... Do you agree with this?"

......

Under the setting sun, two trains traveled in opposite directions, as if carrying several memories in my life, chasing the farthest place...

And it’s time for me to leave Suzhou again, and then wait in my hometown for the woman that is indispensable in my life and the surprises she will bring me soon!

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On the afternoon of New Year's Eve, I sat in the video cafe I created with myself, drinking coffee, watching the latest issue of financial magazines. On this special day today, the coffee shop is not open to the public, I just want to wait quietly...

Putting down the magazine in my hand, I squinted my eyes and looked at the blue sky and white clouds outside the coffee shop. I opened a window and reached out to the outside. The dazzling sunlight was not as eroded as the bones in winter. In such a good weather, I couldn't help but hang my smile on my face and untied the necklace with a butterfly pendant that Mi Cai once gave me. I put it at my hand, and then watched the sunlight pass through the aperture refracted after the butterfly wings...

In the distance, a figure gently walked towards the coffee shop under the breeze. My heart, which had been calm for an afternoon, began to beat violently...

She got closer and closer to me, and I looked her in a real look, and there was a child in her hand holding a bear-eared hat. I felt inexplicably intimately friendly because there were too many traces of me between the child's eyebrows, and the skin and lips inherited Mi Cai. I had never seen such a beautiful and cute child, and I couldn't help but burst into tears... I know that this is my child, and I finally understand why Mi Cai disappeared for so long last year...

In the sunset, Mi Cai stood outside the glass window. She carried the chestnut she bought in her hand, and said dotingly to the child who was holding it in her arms: "So the saying goes, hand the chestnuts in her mother's hand to her father..."

Tears have made me unable to see clearly. The world in front of me is so beautiful that it is heartbreaking... It turns out that our child is called so-called. This name must be given by Mi Cai. Only she has the mood to name the so-called child.

The child can't speak, and he can't hold on to the chestnuts. He just looked at me and smiled, then leaned on Mi Cai's shoulder, fiddling with Mi Cai's hair with his small hands, as if this was his greatest pleasure...

A gentle wind blew the breath of Mi Cai and the child, and then fell into my open collar through the window. I knew that I was not dreaming...

In this half of my life, I have been decadent, painful, hurt by love, and betrayed by my brothers, but all of this has melted into the afternoon sunshine. I am willing to forgive all the injustice and secret injuries in this world for the sake of the loved ones in front of me...

At this moment, I seemed to see a kind of purity. It floated in front of the city, merged with the blue sky and white clouds in a return posture, and then scattered with the sun, falling on the ground became a passionate feeling...

I walked out of the coffee shop with solid steps. I came to their mother and son. Mi Cai handed the so-called to my hand. I hugged him so carefully. He did not cry because he had never seen me before. Mi Cai kept holding his little hand and encouraged him to recognize my hug... My heart was melted like this, and she said to Mi Cai with sobs: "Four years ago, you were my tenant, and four years later you were my wife... The fate is really mysterious!"

"Well, you were the man I loved deeply two years ago, and you were the father of the child two years later... We should all thank fate, thank you for the old house for letting us meet in fate!"

I nodded and gently hugged Mi Cai into my arms. The sound of firecrackers representing the arrival of New Year's Eve came from the distance. I held Mi Cai's hand, held the so-called, and walked home along the gravel-paved road under my feet... Our figures were getting longer and longer under the street lights that just lit up, but left a harmonious journey... And the scene where Mi Cai and I met on a rainy night four years ago was embedded in the soft night, like a long movie rendered by fireworks, describing the feelings of youth and the indelible hope in life!

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My name is Zhaoyang. This is my story. The end may be the beginning...

The whole book is over

After a year and a half of creation, it was finally finished. I know this is not a perfect work, but I have tried my best and my ability can only be written to this extent. Thank you for your support along the way.
Chapter completed!