When the word elopement was repeatedly mentioned in Jian Wei's mouth, my perception was once again pulled into the vortex of memories. I remembered every detail of Jian Wei's life in Suzhou that year. Although this was an old past, the expressions she had been satisfied, sad, happy, and cried in this past still ignited my emotions in an instant, making it impossible for me to return to the house to face her...

I finally heard Mo Zishi respond to her: "I said elopement only shows that my determination for you does not objectively exist. If you can face it bravely with me, we would not have made things so bad as to elope!"

Jian Wei's tone became more and more painful. She kept repeating the words "elopement" in her mouth. Mo Zishi's experience command, realizing that these two words touched the deepest secret in Jian Wei's heart, he comforted Jian Wei softly, saying that it was her mistake and let her calm her emotions.

In order not to further stimulate Jian Wei, Mo Zishi left the room, leaving only Yan Yan and Qin Yan to comfort Jian Wei. As the man who eloped with her at the time, I had no courage to face her, so I just stood outside this deserted house, feeling a little lost!

Mo Zishi came to me and asked me for a cigarette, which was stuck between my fingers. It seemed to be igniting it with borrowed flames, and took a hasty breath. Then he coughed violently in this incident that I was not good at. I also lit a cigarette, extending the smoke from my mouth like a textbook, and then merged with the light of a lamp and dissipated...

The room finally became quiet. After a long time, I heard Jian Wei's sad voice: "Yan Yan, tell me why I always feel that I have experienced some things, but I can't remember anything. This feeling seems to empty my whole body, and I can't stand it anymore!"

"Vivi, if you can't remember, don't force yourself to think about it. Forget some things is a relief. You really don't make things so difficult for yourself anymore! I beg you, okay?"

There was a silence in the room that was so quiet that it was almost suffocating. I saw Jian Wei's almost collapsed expression through the window. She finally whispered to Yan Yan: "You guys go back first. I'm tired. I want to be alone."

.........

Originally, this happy night became a little heavy because of Mo Zishi's unexpected arrival, but this was definitely not Mo Zishi's unilateral responsibility, but the historical problems left by Jian Wei and I affected the innocent. If there was such a possibility, he would have the opportunity to know Jian Wei in the early days when Jian Wei and I broke up, and many things would not be as regretful and so difficult to solve as they are now.

After leaving the sanatorium, I drove Mo Zishi to a nearby hotel. On the way, we inevitably talked about Jian Wei. He smiled bitterly and said, "Zhaoyang, do you think fate is a very strange thing? ... At the beginning, I just promised Xiao Cai to do my best to treat Jian Wei, but now it has become a fateful entanglement. The most incredible thing is: you are her first love boyfriend who has always existed in her subconscious, but we still have to talk about her past and the life she may experience in the future in this way!"

"We really have no way to control many things happening in life, so we often describe this world as absurd and bizarre."

Mo Zishi remained silent......

I slowed down a little and asked him again: "I have a general understanding of your view of love. Because you talked to me before, I am now very curious. There are countless women who choose you. Why is the one who makes you excited in the end, Jian Wei, a woman who is full of shortcomings in life?"

Mo Zishi looked at me, and he asked with a proper expression: "Then tell me, Xiao Cai has countless gold men to choose from, but why do she follow you wholeheartedly? She has done so much for you, paid so much, and even ignored her own life without regrets! What is the reason for this?"

"What does this mean regardless of your own life?"

Mo Zishi replied in a daze, "I just exaggeratedly describe it like this. What I want to express is: Love is not something that requires reason and truth. Sometimes it happens in an unintentional moment, and many men and women tie their lives together because of this moment. Do you understand?"

"I know, the reason why I questioned is that I was worried that you would have unreliable emotions for Jian Wei just on a whim! Now she has almost nothing, only the face that can make all men excited. If you just want her beauty, then you are a dangerous man to her... This is my concern!"

"I don't want to explain, because this is not an explanation... But I must admit that Jian Wei and I are not reliable enough. What I worry most is her memory problem. If one day she recovers her former memory and still can't let go of her unforgettable feelings for you, is this fair to me, Mo Zishi? What should I do then?... For me, the resistance from the family can be overcome, but I don't have the confidence to deal with this!... Can you understand my concerns?"

I was silent for a long time before replying, "I understand, so you didn't take her to the United States before, but she mistakenly thought that she was not worthy of you, which caused you a lot of pressure from your family!"

"It can be said that... why can she remember many things in the past, but there is no signal from you in her brain at all?... From the perspective of brain science, this is a sign of extreme inability to let go, so she used this accident to activate the brain protection mechanism and selectively forget you!"

I felt a bottle of five flavors in my heart, but I was speechless.

Mo Zishi sighed softly and said, "I don't want to worry so much now...Who makes me like her so much!...I want to take her to the United States to live. Don't her parents hope so much?"

"I don't deny that it was a good ending for her..."

Mo Zishi continued what I didn't finish and said, "But, she is no longer willing to give me this opportunity!"

"Wait patiently... Time will definitely give you the answer!"

"Yes, there will be answers, good or bad!"

......

When I returned to the old house, I couldn't sleep, so I wiped the coffee table where Mi Cai once liked to work on it over and over again, and then looked at the almost transparent glass surface and lost my mind for a long time until the ringtone of my phone came, and I came back to my senses...

I answered the phone and Le Yao's familiar voice came from it: "Zhaoyang, are you free now? Come with me to the movie."

"Are you in Suzhou?"

"Well, I participated in the recording of a variety show in Shanghai this afternoon, and went back to Suzhou to have supper with Roben Xiaowu and the others in the evening."

"oh."

Le Yao's tone was a little impatient, and she said again: "Don't ask me these irrelevant things, and quickly answer if I'm free."

"You have to explain what movies you watch first. I don't like to watch them in urban emotions!"

"So, you just have time...you are waiting at the entrance of your community. I'll drive to pick you up now, and it will be around a quarter of an hour." Le Yao said this and hung up the phone quickly, which made me feel helpless again. God knows where she's coming out of the movie late in the winter night.

It was really cold late at night. I specially put on a thick down jacket and stood by the platform opposite the community wearing a scarf. After a while, a rare pink Land Rover drove towards me, and then I saw Le Yao in the car. She seemed to have turned into a pink girl on this night, even her scarf and knitted hat were pink.

She motioned me to get in through the car window. I immediately opened the passenger door and sat in, and asked in confusion: "Are we going to the cinema to watch it?... Your video has just been released recently, and its popularity has soared. If you are recognized by enthusiastic audiences in the cinema, it will be a big trouble. I won't care about you at that time, and I will definitely run away without any loyalty!"

"Don't talk, you'll know later."

......

Le Yao drove to the edge of the city. The empty feeling made me feel uncomfortable. Finally, I couldn't help but say to her: "It's a bit empty here. Can we still have a cinema?... Can we not make it like a thriller drama? I'm not in a good mood recently, really!"

"Don't be pretentious, don't complain, please be a bloody man!"

When Le Yao finished this sentence, a lonely railway track appeared in our sight after she turned a sharp turn. After driving forward for a while, she finally stopped the car. I once again felt uncomfortable about this uninhabited empty space. Until I saw the abandoned white wall diagonally opposite, I felt that there might be someone else who had built it here, but there were only the railway tracks and this abandoned wall, and there was no even a little artificial garbage and planted flowers, plants and trees.

Le Yao glanced at the angle between the car and the wall, and she got into the car again, and made two moves in the direction. The rear of the car was facing the white wall. Then she opened the door of the trunk and walked out of the car. I looked at her in a daze, without knowing what she was selling in this gourd!

At this time, a blue-purple light in the trunk was projected on the abrupt and lonely wall. I immediately saw the movie Le Yao invested in and shot again. It turned out that the trunk contained a projector and two small speakers. When the picture and sound were received by the senses together, the whole world seemed to be completely occupied by me and Le Yao! I never thought: I would be left in my world like this, just like now, Le Yao, a car, a rail, a wall, and a movie that I have seen.

Le Yao pulled me to sit next to the projector and speaker in the trunk, and I said to her: "Why do you have to watch movies like this? And I've watched them once!"

Le Yao stared at me with tears in her eyes... She seemed to know that I had not been very focused on watching this movie before.

Indeed, on the day the movie was released, after I brought the senior executives of the company into the cinema, I kept talking about the company's affairs with Chen Jingming beside me, and then I fell asleep in fatigue. Until the end of the movie, Chen Jingming beside me woke me up and realized that I could not even see the last shot of my guest appearance in this movie.

At this moment, this scene made me unable to not focus. Twenty minutes later, I finally saw this movie in my heart. I regretted the mistakes and misses of the hero and heroine again and again, and my heart aches. I lit a cigarette and watched the cameras concentrated in the bars and the wet streets, sometimes fast and sometimes slow. This made me feel like I was living in this movie because I had experienced too many scenes... I had a little difficulty breathing!

It was not until the heroine took a bag on her back and left the crowded and fast-paced city and saw the first wide sea area that I felt relieved, and there was a feeling of moisture in my palms...

At the end of the movie, the heroine died in a shipwreck with the hero's child and fell asleep forever in the sea. Her wealthy father bought her a small island she loved most during her lifetime and placed her tombstone on that island...

It was not until the third year after the heroine died that the hero learned the truth. However, because of guilt, he did not dare to go to the island where the heroine sleeps, and only dared to stand on the opposite island and look at it from afar. So there was the back of my guest appearance. The appearance of this back was not the last shot of the whole movie. I saw a translucent picture, with a blue sailboat in the picture, with only a resting seabird on the sailboat, and the wind slowly blowing the sails...

"The world floats away from the sea, and it is a wound. Where is my hometown tonight? I once had a home called talking to myself. I once had a room full of her sorrow..."

The song "The World of Lies" written by Robben once became the ending song of this movie, singing countless sadness and separation... Finally, in Robben's song full of vicissitudes, I felt that I was being tortured by my own internal injuries. I swallowed my saliva in pain, and I held back the tears that were about to fall.

At the end of the movie, there were only some scattered moonlight left around. Le Yao's hair was blown by a cold wind. She skillfully pinned it behind her ears and said to me softly: "In the movie, I died for love, but I lived forever in the heart of that man... What about reality? Haha... I lived happily, but in the heart of that man, it was just a meteor that had been splendid for a few seconds... But what does this mean?... It means that life is life, art is art, so we all continue to compromise in life and pursue the alternative pleasure caused by sadness in art!"

"I agree with you saying that because we are all like this."

"Haha..." Le Yao smiled, laughed... She finally stopped laughing, she cried... After crying, she smiled and said to me: "Zhaoyang, I have decided to have a child with Jin Fei... We must have a child too. Although it has not been created yet, Jin Fei's parents and my father are waiting for the birth of this child!"

"Um......"

"Remember, the woman next to you will no longer have that island in her heart, nor will there be extended rails... I want to thank you for building a place called Xiaoyaochi and Jinfei Valley for me and Jinfei in the game, which will become the place I long for the most..."

"Um......"

"Also remember: keep the island and tombstone I left behind in my heart, even if it is just an inconspicuous place, but remember to put it."

"Um......"

Le Yao held my face with both hands, tears in her eyes, but said with a smile: "Then I'll leave first, you can walk back by yourself... Although the road is a bit off and a bit difficult to walk, you will definitely walk back to that old room because you have indelible beliefs in your heart."

"yes."
Chapter completed!