Chapter 78: Love you instead of him
This late autumn night, I chose to fulfill the arrangement of Mi Cai. She and I drove home to get the guitar. Then the two of us came to a square close to the lake. This square would be very lively in summer, but it was late autumn, and after the evening, there were few people coming here to find entertainment.
Mi Cai and I sat cross-legged on the lawn, the street lights were gently reflected on us, and the wind seemed to become softer under the filtering of the light.
I tried the guitar tone and asked Mi Cai, "Let's go to the part where you order me to sing, and say, I'll try to satisfy what song you want to listen to."
"Just do whatever you want."
I thought about it and finally chose "Winter" from the band of Good Sisters. The reason I used this song to warm up the scene is because I like the lyrics of this song very much.
"A little colder, in the winter when snowflakes are flying, that year I passed by your door, the street we walked together; a little farther away, in the hazy season of youth, your smile condensed in the wind, flooding my eyes like white snow, time passes for many years, flowers fall and people scatter. I want to ask if there are raindrops in the white clouds that you miss the raindrops; the moon falls and the crows cry and the frost is everywhere, the sea turns into mulberry fields, spring goes and autumn comes again, do you still miss me once again..."
I ended the song with a long tail tone in my self-intoxication. Mi Cai applauded me with a smile and praise. I smiled and habitually lit a cigarette for myself after singing, and handed the guitar in front of Mi Cai, asking, "Can you play? I feel you can!"
Mi Cai handed me her hand and showed it. She had done manicure.
"You mean you can play, but it's not convenient to play?" I asked.
"I used to study abroad, and I learned a little when I was bored." Mi Cai nodded and said.
"I think your temperament is more suitable for playing the piano, and it's good for a woman with the cc temperament to play the guitar."
"You have clearly divided a woman's temperament."
I sniffed the smoke and smiled, "I only have the pleasure of studying women in my life... Alas! Otherwise, how could I survive the changes of the four seasons over and over again!"
Mi Cai smiled, saying that it was my words. I put out the cigarette butts and lay on the lawn on my back, looking at the starry sky, I felt a little tired by the autumn wind, and it might have nothing to do with the wind, but the night was too quiet at this time.
The faint fragrance of Mi Cai drifted into my nose with the breeze. I felt comfortable and comfortable, gradually closed my eyes and became drowsy.
Mi Cai, who was beside me for a long time, finally pushed me and said, "Zhaoyang, can you sing another proverb of love for me?"
I sat up and looked at her, remembering that I had played this song in her car not long ago, but she cried. I realized that there must be a story in this song that she would never forget.
I was afraid that she would cry again, so I asked, "Are you sure you want to listen?"
Mi Cai nodded heavily.
"Okay, but after singing it later, you have to tell me the story of you and this song, last time..."
Mi Cai interrupted me and said, "You sing."
I didn't get Mi Cai's affirmative answer, but I couldn't barely do this. As long as she was willing to listen to it at this moment, I would sing it to her, let it go and let it continue to be simple.
I pulled the guitar again and performed this song that represents great love in the lowest voice.
Just now, when I sang the sentence: "Love is something that no one can understand, love is the eternal melody, love is the process of laughter and tears falling, love was once me and you...", Mi Cai's tears had fallen, and her face was filled with sorrow from the bottom of her heart.
I didn't stop singing because of this. I knew that Mi Cai would not want me to stop because there was her nostalgia in this song. If the nostalgia was interrupted, it would be cruel to her at this moment.
I slowly finished singing this song with a soothing rhythm, and Mi Cai was already crying like a tearful person. In my image, she is a strong woman and never cry easily, but this song touched the softest part of her heart.
The quiet night, the wind blowing and the crying woman made me, a man, feel compassion. I gently hugged Mi Cai beside me into my arms, stroked her hair, and wiped away the tears after crying for her.
Mi Cai did not struggle. She leaned in my arms for a long time and said to me with a sob: "Do you know... This is my favorite song during my lifetime... When I was 15 years old, he took me to listen to Luo Dayou's concert in Nanjing. The scene was very noisy and noisy that day, but when singing this song, the whole audience quieted down. Dad told me softly: He will always love me, I am the person he loves the most in his life, but... he did not keep his promise, he was a liar... But I really miss him... He must be very lonely in that world!..."
Mi Cai was already crying, she leaned against me tightly, like a girl who lacked sense of security. At this moment, I finally understood why she hated others' behavior of not keeping promises, because her father Mi Zhongxin could not keep the promises that he had always loved her, but life was so impermanent, and a great promise about love was ruined in a car accident... But I believe that if there was really another world, Mi Zhongxin would definitely stick to his promises and always love his daughter Mi Cai.
I was at a loss when a breeze blew. I didn’t know how to comfort me. After a long time, I said in a deep voice: “Stop crying… In the near future, there will definitely be a man who will love you and protect you on behalf of your father, and love you longer, longer, and there will be no end.”
Mi Cai did not respond to my comfort, but leaned closer to me. I couldn't help but look into the distance and asked myself: Is there really a happy river in this world? If so, at this moment I would like to hold this woman's hand and jump into this river, and even if I was exhausted, I would hold her to swim to the end of the river.
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It was getting deeper at night, and the breeze passed by our side with the moonlight. Mi Cai finally left my body. She sorted out her hair, which was wet by her tears, looked at the darkness that was not illuminated by street lights in the distance, and there was no weakness in her expression. After a long time, she turned around and looked at me and said to me: "Zhaoyang, I hope you will return to Suzhou, but I won't force you. If you don't find a suitable job in Xuzhou and think Suzhou is more suitable for your own development, come to me and I will arrange it for you."
I put the guitar into the box and asked with a joke: "I want to go back to Suzhou. Are you willing to give me that house?"
Mi Cai was stunned and said, "If you are willing to go back, you can give it to you."
I smiled, put on the guitar on my back, and said to Mi Cai softly: "Let's go and take you back to the hotel... By the way, do you really have to stay in Xuzhou for a few more days? I can take you to our Xuzhou attractions."
"No, I have already said what I should say, and I have done what I should do. Just choose the rest yourself. I will go back to Suzhou tomorrow morning."
I was not surprised that Mi Cai left in a hurry. After all, Zhuomei’s group needs her to manage. Even if she only spent one and a half days in Xuzhou, this has been long enough for her, and I just hope that she can resolve Zhuomei’s internal interests as soon as possible after she goes back, so that she will save a lot of worry and feel much more at ease!
When I walked side by side with Micai towards the car, I said to her: "What time will I leave tomorrow morning, I will go see you off."
"At 7 o'clock, but you don't need to send it. I drove my own car, which is very convenient."
"No matter how you said you came to Xuzhou to find me, so you have to give it to me."
"Then whatever you want."
I nodded, and the night color seemed to be deeper as we walked and spoke.
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Second update
Chapter completed!