Chapter 39: Convince yourself as usual
I stood in the hot summer wind and answered the phone, then asked Anqi anxiously: "How is it, have you heard about Mi Cai?"
The silence on the other end of the phone was like a basin of cold water pouring on me head-on. I realized that things did not develop as I expected. Finally, Angel said to me in a low voice: "Zhaoyang, we went to find Weiran. He told us very surely that Mi Cai was not in the United States now, but he didn't know where he went... Later we found a way to find Yan Zhuomei, but she was very resistant to Mi Cai leaving the United States. I judged that Mi Cai should have had a serious conflict with her when she left the United States. She just said that Mi Cai went to other countries for vacation. As for when she came back, it depends on Mi Cai's mood!"
I was stunned again. If Mi Cai was really on vacation outside, it also means that she has regained her freedom and she has no surveillance. Why don’t she contact me? Does she really regard “Mochou” as an irreversible contract between us? Even if she is lonely, even if I worry about her day and night, she still treats distance as a test paper between us!”
Angel seemed to sense my emotions and comforted her: "Zhaoyang, don't worry too much. Mi Cai is the most sensible woman I have ever seen in doing things. Maybe after going through so much, all she needs is a trip alone... I have a deep understanding of this. She is using this method to relieve stress for herself!"
"Haha...If this is true, then I'm jealous of her now being free and careless!"
An Qi was silent for a moment, as smart as she could not hear the grievance in my heart. She finally said, "No matter what, I think you should give Mi Cai some trust, believe that it makes sense for her to do this, or now she is thinking about what appropriate way to contact you again, what do you think?"
"I hope this is the case. Anyway, I have never changed all my contact information. As long as she wants to contact me, it will only take a few seconds."
"Well, give yourself some patience and Mi Cai... Many things are destined, just like Zhang Yixi and I, I once left him for nearly two years with hatred, and finally entrusted my life to him, so relax and throw all the difficult and complicated problems in life to time to solve them. It will always give us an answer!"
"Maybe you're right."
"You, don't come to the United States for the time being. We can be sure that Mi Cai is not in the United States. You should do your career well in China with peace of mind. What you carry is not just love..."
Perhaps, I am not a very rational person, but I also understand the responsibilities I bear at this time, especially the responsibilities to the investors. Zhang Yixi has made himself almost bankrupt for the literary and artistic project. I cannot be too selfish, so I decided to give myself another month. If there is no news about Mi Cai during this period, I don’t want to be a very rational person. Even if the whole world wanders, I will find her... But I believe more that she is also looking for a suitable way to contact me again. Maybe in a few days, I will receive her message, and I comfort myself in my heart.
I finally said to Angel, "I will not go to the United States if I can be sure that she is going to vacation. I will not run to the United States impulse. I plan to wait and see if she sends me news... Also, thank you this time. I am so happy that I can't go there and destroy your originally planned itinerary."
"These are all small things. As a friend, I just hope that you and Micai can have more mutual understanding and trust, so that you can have less twists and turns."
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After the conversation with Anqi, the feeling in my heart was unspeakable. The situation is not bad now, but it is not as good as I imagined. I finally lost all the news about Mi Cai, but I don’t know what she was in and what magnificent foreign territory she was traveling on.
I finally brought the soup cooked for Jian Wei to her room, then knocked on the door. After waiting for a while, she opened the door for me in her pajamas, looked at me in surprise, and asked, "It's so late, what are you doing?"
"I cooked some soup for you, stewed with wild walnuts and fish heads, which is very nutritious for the brain."
Jian Wei blocked the door and did not make way for me to get in. She said, "You seem to be too good to me... You are just Dr. Mo's friend, and we are not very familiar with each other!"
I was stunned for a moment, then squeezed out some smiles and said, "I am Dr. Mo's friend... Before he left, he asked me to take good care of you. Since I promised him, I should do the job competently. But I am very busy with work, otherwise I should have sent it to you before dinner."
Jian Wei then turned sideways and made way for me to go in. I entered her suite, then found a rice cooker, poured the already cooled soup inside and heated it up. During this process, I did not communicate with Jian Wei, but just stood by the windowsill and looked at the very classical mist and rain corridor dotted by colorful lights outside. At this moment, it seemed that the whole world was made of poetic and picturesque by the quiet night, which made me indulge in it, and even forgot the troubles in the secular world.
The soup in the rice cooker was already boiling, but I seemed to have not even finished a dream. I quickly came to my senses. Under the soft light, I put the fish soup out again, put it on the coffee table, and said to Jian Wei: "The soup is still a little hot now. You can drink it in five minutes... Don't wash the bowl after drinking it, and the waiter will pick it up tomorrow!"
"oh."
I looked at her and after a silence, I said, "You have to rest early after drinking... It's time for me to go back."
"Um."
I looked at her again, and finally turned around and walked outside the house. But she opened the window and lay on the carved wooden windowsill. She asked me as the lights flashed, "Zhaoyang...Doctor Mo will he come back?"
I stopped, looked back at her, and asked with a smile, "Do you miss him very much?"
“A little bit.”
"Didn't he leave you a business card? You can try calling him or sending a message... As long as you are braver, he will definitely give you an answer."
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Half a month later, Le Yao's movie entered the later filming as scheduled. On this day, I fulfilled my promise to her before and came to the city of Weihai with her to shoot the last shot of the whole movie for her.
This afternoon, her crew and I were waiting for the arrival of dusk. According to the script, I should carry a guitar and let my back and the sunset reflect on the calm sea together, so this artistic conception must be completed in a calm dusk.
Dusk is coming, and the crew is nervously preparing all the shooting equipment. Le Yao and I are sitting on the high reef. I smoke. She holds the script and tells me the feeling I will create later. She hopes that I can use my back to show a secret loneliness that hurts my heart...
I didn't think it was so difficult. After nodding to show that I could do it, I looked at another island in the distance. Unlike the desolation of this island, there were some fishermen living on that island. I vaguely saw the wisps of smoke rising from the chimney, and the seabird shook its powerful wings, following these ethereal smoke and heading west along the wind...
I finally said to Le Yao beside me: "This is probably what the island you long for is, right?"
Le Yao put down the script in her hand, looked up in my eyes, and she replied with a smile: "It seems that there is everything you should have, but unfortunately there is still a man riding a sail!... Haha, fantasy is just fantasy after all, and it cannot be equated with reality. I have long seen this!"
I smiled with her and didn't say anything more. Then I threw away the cigarette butts in my hand and lay on the rocks and looked at the sunset hanging on the sea level. I also became lazy, but I remembered Mi Cai again in this laziness. More than half a month has passed. I still have no news about her, and I still look forward to it so much every day...
The shooting equipment was finally ready. After I got the instructions from the crew, I pulled Le Yao down from the reef, then carried the heavy guitar, faced the sea, and looked at the island opposite with the heroine's tombstone...
Maybe it was because I had not participated in the filming of this movie before, so I could not have such sadness. Soon this indifference was revealed in my body. Le Yao stopped shooting and sat next to the camera and said to me dissatisfiedly: "Zhaoyang, what about the promised secretly? Where is the promised lonely back?... It will be dark soon, and we will have half an hour at most, so you can quickly adjust your state and shoot the picture I want, otherwise you will have to wait until tomorrow to shoot!"
I turned around and made a ok gesture, then closed my eyes and faced the magnificent sea again. I subconsciously took out the wedding ring from my pocket that I had not put on for Mi Cai's own hand...
I opened my eyes and stared at me. The afterglow of the setting sun fell on the ring, as if telling a kind of sorrow. My emotions were finally brewed. Then I remembered the tombstone of the heroine on the opposite island. My heart suddenly felt like I was stabbed by a sharp blade... I knew that this was just the plot in the movie, but I still unconsciously put myself in. I lowered my head in pain, hunched my body and walked forward. The rushing sea water instantly wet the leather shoes on my feet...
Finally, Le Yao shouted through the sound behind her... I only used this shot that was presented in the movie twice before passing, but my emotions still failed to emerge from this tragic ending. I haven't turned around for a long time to face the group of people who were reveling because of the complete work!
It was not until I heard Le Yao's crying sound coming from behind that I turned around and saw all the staff around her, asking her with concern what was wrong with her and why she was crying so sadly...
She wiped her tears and smiled, but still told her team that she cried because the filming work had been completed. She couldn't bear to leave the crew, and even more so that everyone in the crew. So everyone's emotions were also infected by her sadness and wiped up tears. Indeed, the crew has been established for more than half a year, and the members have feelings. They have worked day by day for this drama and have traveled to several countries. Only they themselves know the hard work and the friendship established in hard work.
Chapter completed!