Jian Wei seemed to see this morning when she was shining with sunshine as usual. She skillfully dredged a pastry with jam, then put it into her mouth, picked up the milk and took a sip. Naturally, this set of actions could no longer see her emotions, but I knew: this was just a show of self-strongness in front of me, or she was already in pain and numbness.

A quarter of an hour passed, and she finally wiped her hands with the dough paper and said to me, "I've finished eating...you can tell me your business."

I looked at her, but I remembered the words that Xiang Chen had placed me in a low-level way. He had resentment towards me for so many years, and many details could be reflected, but I avoided it and was unwilling to think too much. But my concession did not change his contempt for me in his bones. My background and background were indeed impossible to compare with him, so under this obvious gap, Jian Wei chose me, which he could not tolerate. So, he showed the twist of human nature and did one thing after another that I could not do to Jian Wei, including at the wedding of Fang Yuan and Yan Yan, he gave an exclusive customized necklace. Based on this, he asked for love from Jian Wei. He got Jian Wei, but also suffered.

Jian Wei is an alien. Her growth environment makes her pursuit of material things much less than that of ordinary people. So when she was in college, she wore the best clothes and used the best items, but she always followed me, played bands and loved drum sets. Although she didn't play well, she also liked to talk to me about non-mainstream bands and singers who roared in the secular world and wanted freedom and light, and then put her dreams into my dreams and pursued fantasies that were not practical in the world...

It was not until one day that her family learned about my existence that she told her like a flaw that there was something called a good match in this world, but she was no longer willing to change it. She followed me from Shanghai to Suzhou without hesitation, avoiding her parents again and again, but family affection always had a place in her heart. She was in pain and asked me to live out hope for her in the material world, but I had not yet figured out the distance between idealism and social reality, and had been addicted to my own world until she left...

Looking back on the years we spent, I cultivated her into a proud bouquet of sunny flowers, but did not give her nourishment or sunshine, making her into the withered appearance today. But she stretched out her branches and was still looking for it proudly...

I thought a lot and wasted a lot of time. Jian Wei waited patiently until I looked up at her. She gave me a look and asked if I could express my purpose today as soon as possible.

My fingers were trembling slightly, I lit a cigarette, and I tried to calm down. Finally, I said to her: "I came to you today to tell you that I am going back to Xuzhou... I can only do this about the project Luku and Literary Road."

Jian Wei raised her head, then closed her eyes and asked to me in a low voice: "Have you given up so thoroughly?... The road of literature and art is a project that embodies our hard work and carries your dreams. What's commendable is that it is still making profits!...... There will be no such opportunity in your life again."

I felt very painful, but when I remembered that Mi Cai and I had decided to live in a simple life, I nodded and said, "Give up completely and leave here completely. Please start my resignation process. The shares I own will be handed over to you. Since this project is still profitable, there are many solutions that can be handled and will not make you too embarrassed."

"It seems that Mi Cai has given up on Zhuomei, and you have chosen another way of life. This way of life, you mentioned to me, I was unable to give it to you, I went to the United States..."

Her words reminded me of a detail. On the eve of her decision to go to the United States, I told her that elopement to the farthest town is just a wish in the lyrics. I hope she can go back to Xuzhou with me. I wanted to open a small bar and then go to ask him to arrange a job for Jian Wei in the state-owned enterprise where he works. She agreed to me after hesitation for a long time, but not long after, her parents found Suzhou and finally gave up the idea of ​​returning to Xuzhou with me.

I still think that she has not really made up her mind to go back to Xuzhou with me, and even solicited opinions from her parents here. Otherwise, her parents would not have found Suzhou at all, nor would they find her, because we have lived in a very hidden place and Suzhou is very large, so it is not so easy to find.

Jian Wei said again: "Zhaoyang, do you still feel that I promised you to go back to Xuzhou, but I just said it but felt hesitant in my heart?"

I nodded: "Yes, but I can understand you...that lifestyle is not for you!"

Jian Wei looked at me and smiled in pain: "Can you understand me?...I don't need your understanding, because you don't know the truth of the matter at all!"

My heart was beating violently...waiting for her to continue talking.

Jian Wei lowered her head, she was in pain, she was hesitating...

"What the hell is the truth?"

Jian Wei finally looked up at me and said slowly: "Do you know, why did my parents find Suzhou back then?......Haha, go and ask your good brothers Fang Yuan and Xiang Chen!"

"them?!!"

"It was them. Xiang Chen found Fang Yuan. Fang Yuan told him about our residence, and even told him about our going to Xuzhou... Then he told all these things to my parents, so they found me on the afternoon of December 11, four years ago!"

My heart beat even harder, as if it was about to penetrate my chest... It took me a long time to say, "You were still shaken after all, otherwise why would you go to the United States?"

"Zhaoyang, can I not waver? ...If I went to Xuzhou with you, not only you and me, but also your father-in-law could not keep the so-called iron rice bowl of a state-owned enterprise. We would never have any marriage certificate. My parents can do these easily. In the face of their will, what can I resist if I love you?"

I was so depressed that it seemed as if I was lacking oxygen... I could already guess what was below that Jian Wei would rather die than follow. His parents had no choice but to use this delaying strategy to send her to the United States first, trying to use time and distance to dissolve our love. Jian Wei firmly believed that neither of us would be shaken, so in order to protect my and my family's livelihood work, she chose to go to the United States.

Everything began to make sense, otherwise why Jane Wei would rather be self-reliant in the United States than accept the living expenses of her parents? She hated her, but had to compromise.

"Zhaoyang, my parents once promised me that as long as I can see your progress in the past three years in the United States, I will accept that we are together after I return to China. If they don't give me this promise, I will never leave no matter what. Even if I wander around the country and the whole world, I will never leave... But..." Jian Wei could not continue to say anything. She was already crying. Too many things and grievances were hidden in her heart, and it had become a disease!

I asked with a sob, "Why didn't you talk about this to me when you left?"

"......Your self-esteem at that time... did you hear this?...I only dare to tell you that going to the United States is for us...we have a better future!...We all love to be like this. Is it important to say or not?...At least, I never thought of betraying you!"

My self-esteem at that time?

I really remembered my self-esteem back then... Even Jian Wei wearing a luxury brand of clothes made me feel uncomfortable!... I hate the obstruction caused by inappropriate families... I am really too afraid of losing Jian Wei, afraid of being fragile and sensitive, so I have that low self-esteem!

I gasped violently, my heart could not bear the fluctuations of emotions. It took a long time, and a long time before I finally accumulated strength and asked Jian Wei: "We all love to be like that... Why, why do you dare to break up with me?... Why?"

Jian Wei was even more painful, as if she remembered a disastrous experience. She covered her face with her hands and whimpered, finally raised her head, looked at my body, and asked, "I can tell you, but after I tell you, I want you to be with me, we will get married and have children as we said before... Do you dare to ask me to say it?...If you don't dare, if you love Mi Cai the most now... I have no meaning in talking about that past. It will only hurt each other, embarrass each other, and make each other unable to recall the beauty of being together again!"

I swallowed my saliva in pain. I had wanted to get a result for the breakup countless times, but every time under Jian Wei's oppression, I gave up the idea of ​​wanting, because what she said was the truth. Since I have decided to pursue the ordinary and simple life with Mi Cai, why do I have to go against my original intention and entangle the past and the future? And I have no ability to solve the karma between the past and the future!

Jian Wei looked at me and smiled. She seemed to be no longer in pain. She said to me who was speechless: "Zhaoyang, I, Jian Wei, are a person who keeps my words. I said that I will not disturb your feelings again, so I can do it. You don't need to think about what happened in the past. From now on, you look up and look forward... I don't hate you, nor do you want to hate myself anymore, because I am really tired... I have accepted the fact that our fate is not enough, so when I went to the United States, we were because of distance and time.

, keep misunderstandings, constantly missed by mistakes... You are different from Mi Cai, she can also make you love to death. Some people want to break up you, but they can't break them up... Then please cherish this fate... But you must remember... I will always be the woman who loves you the most in this world... But, in the wrong way, love the wrong time!!... You go! Go cleanly, I will handle everything else."
Chapter completed!