In the room, Jian Wei's crying sound was still tearing my nerves. Once upon a time, I made a vow with her, and I promised that I would never let her be a crying woman. But a few years later, she cried so heartbroken that I could only listen to it powerlessly. It was just that she who proposed to break up. For us, a breakup means the end of the love contract. I was rightfully relieved from those vows... I shouldn't feel guilty about her.

After repeated self-persuasion, I left Jian Wei's residence, but I didn't know what mood I had returned to the old house, but I must be nervous. I was afraid that Mi Cai would wake up halfway, but I was not there.

I carefully opened the door of the house, and it was pitch black inside. I didn't dare to turn on the lights. I borrowed the faint screen light of my phone and came to the room where I lived with Mi Cai. I carefully took off my clothes and lay down beside her. I felt that her breathing was very even. I was sure that she was still asleep. The tense heart finally relaxed, but it soon became heavier again. I don't know how Jian Wei spent it alone under the deep night.

I remembered the most profound time in our memory in the past. We fled from Shanghai to Suzhou in the name of elopement, and spent many nights together. She always had to hold my arm to sleep, and I felt the softness of her hair, so I felt at ease...

Late at night, I was cut by the sharp blade of memories. I was filled with pain, but I didn’t dare to smoke a cigarette. First love was the most unforgettable, especially since I had experienced so much with Jian Wei, so the more she was, the less I dared to live happier than her. I don’t know if this is the general mentality after finding a new love, but I am really conflicted and can’t figure out my seemingly unreasonable but with conclusive evidence!

The light at the head of the bed suddenly lit up. Mi Cai had no communication with me. She gave me a back and walked towards the bathroom. Then I heard the sound of the toilet. She returned to me, turned off the lights and continued to sleep, like a machine completing its inherent movements based on the pre-set program, and I didn't exist in her eyes.

My heart began to panic. Maybe Mi Cai had discovered my departure, but she was not a person who liked to quarrel, and today was a better day for her, so she chose to let it go, or she protested against my departure with silence.

I couldn't help but gently pushed her shoulder and asked, "Are you awake?"

"Of course I'm very sober..."

"Uh...I just went to the company to deal with some more urgent matters."

"Is that so? How urgent is it?"

"......There is an event to be held in Nanjing tomorrow. Due to weather reasons, it is temporarily changed and I need to confirm it."

"It snowed so heavily tonight, so tomorrow is not suitable for activities!"

I didn't understand Mi Cai's voice-over and subconsciously replied: "Yes!"

"What about the scars on your face?...I haven't asked you, but I want to know the answer in my heart. Don't make it up, it's true!"

I couldn't answer, so I replaced the answer with silence... But I became more and more nervous, more and more frightened, and I even started to make bad plans.

But Mi Cai suddenly hugged me from behind and said with a sob: "Zhaoyang, I would rather be an ostrich, and I don't want to explore what you did, and I thought about what I thought about, because I can't bear... I can't bear the feeling of loss in my heart when you are not here... I just woke up and subconsciously looked for you, but the whole room was empty, so I started to think randomly, afraid that you would never return..."

I was filled with guilt, turned around, responded to her hug, and whispered in her ear: "I won't leave..."

"Can I give me a more authentic promise, okay?"

"In the future, I will not only be your husband, but also your relative. I will definitely be the man who will accompany you to the end of your life. Unless you leave me, this is a promise that will never change. I am willing to swear with my soul!"

"......Your body cannot betrayal."

“My body and soul will be true to our feelings…”

Mi Cai hugged me tighter. She told me in body language that she forgave me for leaving just now, forgave my lies that were not exposed by her, and felt her tenderness, my mood changed again. I didn't want to spend too many nights and wanted to completely integrate each other's lives, so I mentioned the old thing in her ears: "Let's have a child... be prepared for marriage at any time."

My fingers wandered on her body. She gasped, but pulled open the cabinet beside the bed and took out the contraceptive tools from the drawer... She still doesn't want the child!

......

The next morning, Mi Cai got up before me, but for breakfast, she only knows how to cook porridge, and I bought breakfast at the morning tea shop downstairs, but I was still very satisfied, because we were together, and we have gradually created an atmosphere of living, as if she is no longer the chairman of Zhuomei, and I am not the general manager of Luku. We are like two couples who have just graduated from college and are trying to live for the first time, and they are simply and ordinary in running their own small family... But there are also regrets that she seems to have never done her job to have children.

I know that the fundamental reason for the preparation is Zhuomei. When Zhuomei is at a critical moment of life and death, she cannot give herself a long maternity leave, but this has become a knot in my heart... In fact, I am more afraid of the uncertain factors in the future than her, and only children can keep her firmly by my side... It seems that in front of her, I always lack some confidence, which is like a disease that bothers me, and I can never find that absolute sense of security in her.

On this day, after Mi Cai and I said goodbye, we were busy together. It was not until we got off work in the evening that we made our first call today. Unfortunately, we all had to work extra overtime today. Finally, we agreed to call each other again at nine o'clock to determine whether the other party had finished the work of the day.

Time flies, and it is soon nine o'clock in the night. When I was about to call Mi Cai as agreed, a strange number came in first. I answered it in a puzzled way, and the other party asked, "Is you Mr. Zhaoyang?"

"I am, who are you?"

"I am the Municipal People's Hospital... I want to confirm with you. Do you have a friend named Robben?"

His self-reported home made me feel a strong sense of uneasiness, and I asked tremblingly, "What's wrong with him?"

"He was in a car accident and he was in a coma... Come here quickly."
Chapter completed!