I didn't find the woman's note and residence that she had left for contact information. She had reminded her to figure out how to take good care of the drunk people, so she got into the elevator. But I suddenly didn't want to go anywhere. I just sat on a stone chair downstairs. The lights in the room turned on and off, and then turned on and off... I knew she was vomiting again in pain.

The trauma I suffered in love, and saw her embarrassing appearance when she vomited, she became increasingly afraid of love. Her failure in love was just a cause of fear. The real reason was that I remember how I gave up on myself a few years ago. At that time, I wasted my emotions, my youth, and even more of a career that I should have worked hard in my youth...

It was 8:30 in the evening and 7:30 in the morning in New York time. I knew that Mi Cai had not gotten up yet, but for the first time in my life, I called her who was far away from the ocean without worrying about her schedule... But what I got was a reply that had been turned off and hung up the phone. I then felt the unevenness of the night. The lights were rotating, the cold wind blowing westward was paved, the road was concave and convex, the beer was cold, the heating pipes were hot, and people's emotions were lonely and longing. Everything was so irregular, but it was coldly pinched together by the world, so that all the scenes in their sight were so distorted and tilted...

I took off the black leather gloves I brought on my hand, went to the convenience store to buy a cup of hot soy milk and two slices of bread, and the night was solved by myself with loneliness and the food and clothing I got after luck.

.........

At 9:30 in the evening, I drove to the moat and didn't expect to meet Jian Wei. I just regarded this place as a kind of support and sustenance for myself when I was lonely. In fact, this place really gave me a lot of comfort with deep memories.

As usual, I lit a cigarette and watched the moonlight pass through the withered branches and vines, refracted on the river surface, so that the world passed by the moat was sometimes real and sometimes dazed. I was always in it and couldn't find a way out.

A familiar smell of perfume drifted into my nose with the cold wind. When she turned around, she was already standing beside me, rectifying her hair hanging on her shoulders and said to me: "I have a strong feeling that you will come here tonight, and you are indeed here."

I rubbed my nose that was a little difficult to breathe and said to her: "In such a big city, I always feel like I can't find a way out, so I want to come here to take a look."

Jian Wei smiled: "Have you found that way out here?"

"No, I only saw this moat extending into the distance... Only the ghost knows if the end of the flow is the way out!"

Jian Wei did not respond to my words anymore. After being silent, she changed the topic and said to me: "By the way, this Christmas event, the advertising resources that Zhuomei needs to use, our Simei advertising has been prepared, and some of them have been put into use. I have to say that Fang Yuan is really a very capable man. All the advertising resources he has planned are used on the edge. Judging from the current feedback, the advertising communication effect is very good!"

"He has always been very capable!"

Jian Wei looked at me and said for a while: "So I always think that what he wants to pursue is a big and unbounded stage, and he is an ambitious man!"

"Don't men have ambitions?"

"There are differences in ambitions. Some men can control their ambitions, while others are dominated by ambitions. I think you are the former, so you dare to design that huge literary and artistic path, but you are cautious every step, so that the people around you can't feel your ambition!"

I smiled, and didn't say much, but just looked at the moat that is both true and false, looking for my own way out in its flow.

Jian Wei asked me unexpectedly again: "Zhaoyang, after so many years, do you think you really understand Xiang Chen and Fang Yuan?"

"Why do you ask that?"

"I just want to know what these two brothers you value the most are in your eyes."

I replied, "Do you know that time can split everything? ... I feel that I have become alienated from Xiang Chen. Since you went to the United States, we have become even more alienated. We will not even contact each other for a year. We are indeed as close as brothers in college. Now we have basically lost contact, so there is no need to comment... Even brothers are the same as before! Although I don't want to admit it many times, our attention to each other is completely incompatible with the word "brothers."

Jian Wei seemed to agree with the statement that the brotherhood between Xiang Chen and I had been separated by time. She nodded and asked again: "Where is Fangyuan?"

"I am so familiar with him, so familiar that I don't know how to evaluate him, but I have always envied him, envied him for having a partner like Yan Yan who can love the rest of his life..."

This time, the answer I gave did not seem to be the answer Jian Wei wanted, but she did not ask any more. She just kept silent in the wind blowing from the river. I looked down at the cigarette that was sandwiched between my fingers but ignored. After taking a sip, I said to her: "I am looking forward to this Christmas event for Zhuomei. This is the first time I have cooperated in the true sense since Fang Yuan and Xiang Chen separated from college... Do you still remember? When I was in college, the three of us formed a team and won many marketing awards organized by the school and society. The days at that time were really full of energy!"

Jian Wei looked at me with a complicated look on her face and said for a long time: "Although you and Xiang Chen and even Fang Yuan are alienated to a certain extent, in your heart, you have always been eager to repair the relationship with them, but they are just suffering from no chance, right?"

"Maybe, but it's like a glass bottle is broken. Even if you repair it with great craftsmanship, the cracks are still there. I don't expect that there will be the kind of friendship between us, especially Xiang Chen, who I believe he thinks so."

Jian Wei ignored my thoughts, raised the topic to another level, and said, "Zhaoyang, I hope you remember that when facing interests, sincerity is a very luxurious thing. Don't expect everyone to look at interests and deal with feelings with the purest attitude... because this is a world that is dirty by desire!!"
Chapter completed!