Chapter 493: The most difficult thing to quit is feelings
Weiran stood between me and Mi Cai. His complicated expression told me that he seemed to have thousands of words, but in the end he just smiled at Mi Cai and said, "betsy, I just want to come and see you. You don't need to look at me so vigilantly."
Mi Cai responded to his faint smile and said, "You are thinking too much. I am the same as before, as always, and I am not wary of you... I am really happy that you can come and see me off!"
Weiran nodded, not knowing what to say for a moment, but Mi Cai had no time to stay at the airport. She waved to the people who were saying goodbye and was about to walk to the ticket gate. I restrained my reluctance and looked at her back calmly. Weiran stretched out his right hand, and instantly realized that he could not keep it at all, so he shouted to Mi Cai's back: "betsy, do you have anything else to leave for me?"
Mi Cai turned her head and looked at him with an expectant smile on her face, saying, "There are many women who love you, and there are many sincere ones. You should calm down your heart and find the love you really need... No matter where you are, I, a sister, will always bless you. I hope you can see a happy you next time I return home!"
After Mi Cai finished speaking, she stopped stopping and trotted towards the ticket gate, while Weiran's mouth twitched slightly, her expression full of loss and pain, as if the soul was suddenly peeled off from her body.
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Mi Cai left like this. I did not leave immediately with everyone, but stood outside the isolation rail of the airport, looking at the place where the plane penetrated into the sky. Wei Ran was standing on the same horizontal line as me...
The plane finally turned into a dot and disappeared completely from my sight. I subconsciously wanted to light a cigarette for myself, but I remembered Mi Cai's advice when she was leaving, and finally gave up the idea of smoking, but the lost mood made me feel more and more suffocated.
Weiran walked to me at some point. I just glanced at him and then turned my gaze again, still looking at the place where the plane and the clouds merged. Weiran rarely said to me in a peaceful tone: "Can you give me a cigarette?"
I was a little surprised: "Do you have the habit of smoking?"
“Habits are all developed.”
I threw the pack of unopened cigarette from my pocket and said, "I happened to have a plan to quit smoking, so I will give you this pack of cigarettes, but I have to tell you that it is best not to develop some habits, because it is too difficult to quit!"
Weiran opened the cigarette box and pulled out one from it. I handed him the fire. He lit it several times in the wind before igniting the cigarette. He did not put it in his mouth and suck it immediately, but pinched it with his index finger and thumb, and said to me with a little unwillingness, as if he was talking to himself, and as if he was talking to me, "You can do it as long as you want to quit cigarettes, you can take some medicine, but what about the feelings?... I'm afraid, the more you quit, the more you hurt!"
I didn't say anything, just looked at the electric pole that was cut by the cold wind not far away.
Weiran finally put the cigarette in his mouth and took a sip, saying to me in a self-deprecating tone: "Zhaoyang...To this day, I have never understood why betsy is devoted to being with you... Which of my things is not as good as you, a man who is fighting for the lowest level of society!"
I looked at him and replied for a long time: "I don't understand...but one day you and I will have an answer, maybe it's an epiphany, maybe it's a sharpening of time."
"What I hope to get is the answer given by betsy in person."
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After returning to Suzhou, I welcomed the first night after Mi Cai left. I was extremely empty, so after work, I went to the "Empty City" music restaurant, Robben, Wei Manwen and Le Yao with her girl were having a dinner here.
Seeing me coming, several people put down the chopsticks in their hands together, and stretched out their hand with Le Yao, saying, "I am willing to accept the loss of the bet, you two should give the money quickly!"
CC happily pulled a hundred yuan from his wallet and handed it to Robben, but Le Yao cheated on her and refused to give it to her. I came to them and asked in confusion: "What are you betting on?"
Le Yao replied, "We are betting on whether you will come here tonight for dinner... Zhaoyang, you really hate it. If you don't come early or late, you will come tonight!" Then he said to Robben, "I don't care. Anyway, I don't have money. If you want it, go find Zhaoyang to go, who told him to come uninvited!"
Roben pressed his hand on Le Yao's shoulder and said in an impatient tone: "Don't talk nonsense, you have to give it to me if you don't have money. Don't push everything to Zhaoyang, and people may not be willing to pay attention to you!"
I moved a chair and sat down next to the few people, then pulled out a hundred dollars from my wallet and threw it in front of Robben, saying, "Although this girl is a bit naughty, don't make things too difficult for her. After all, you are a man and a girl!"
cc smiled and said, "Zhaoyang, we will start a bet with you, and you finally helped Le Yao pay back the gambling money. Your current level is quite high!"
With a smile, he immediately asked the waiter to ask for a beer. He was feeling empty and relaxed because he gathered with these friends. He said to them: "You are all here today, and I happen to have something to discuss with you."
Le Yao was the first to respond: "Then everyone listen carefully, it is rare that this unreliable man in Zhaoyang has a serious conversation."
I was really used to being squeezed by Le Yao, so I didn't care. After sorting out my thoughts, I told me about my "Music Caravan" plan, and hoped that they could join the plan as performers.
Robben was as cheerful as ever, and he said to me: "You leave the band to me to do... at least form three bands of different musical styles for you."
He said to me again: "I have done national tours with the music caravan a few years ago. If you lack a team leader, I can do it. Of course, what I am most interested in is that I can carry the most exciting performance on the spot with musical instruments... I really haven't done such an open performance for a long time!"
With Robben's joining, Le Yao, who had never spoken, also agreed and said, "Zhaoyang, don't forget me then, I can be a guest of the performance!"
"I can't afford to treat a big-name performer as a guest as you... Our form is mainly about charity performances, which are not profitable."
Le Yao glared at me and said, "Have I mentioned the performance fee to you?"
"I didn't mention it...but there is really something serious to cooperate with you."
Le Yao glanced at me, but she didn't agree as readily as before. She asked first: "What's the matter?"
Chapter completed!