After dinner, Li Xiaoyun and I walked on the street when we came, but our mood was no longer the same as when we came. So the two of us walked silently for a long time. When we arrived at the intersection with traffic lights again, Li Xiaoyun stopped and said to me: "Zhaoyang, I always want to say something to you, but I don't know how to speak!"

"I don't need sympathy or comfort from others. Actually, I'm in a good mood and don't feel that my life has been affected!"

"Are you telling the truth?"

I nodded and said, "Yes, breaking up is really tormenting, but after experiencing too much, it's just that. I think: I can live more freely than her!"

Li Xiaoyun shook her head and smiled: "Since we broke up, why do you have to compare with her? Or do you subconsciously not let go of this love, so you instinctively compare with her after breaking up?"

I looked at Li Xiaoyun blankly, not knowing whether what she said was right, but as long as I think of Mi Cai, I still feel so mixed feelings in my heart, and then I care about my gains and losses in this relationship.

Time passed by a few minutes in my confusion. Finally, I sat on the bench at the intersection and said to Li Xiaoyun: "Xiaoyun, you go back first, I'll sit on it for a while."

“Okay…”

"Well, thank you for accompanying me this night."

"I should thank you... Zhaoyang, you are a good boy and will definitely be happy!"

I looked at her and smiled and said, "You mean I'm not mature enough, right?"

"Immaturity is also a charm, so I want to thank you for letting me, a destined woman, experience a love of youthfulness, full of longing and imagination in my lifetime!"

Li Xiaoyun left like this, but her back left made me so uncomfortable. What’s even more uncomfortable is: I don’t know the root of the pain, I just feel like an abandoned autistic patient!

Suddenly I remembered Mi Cai again. What was she doing at this time? Did she lose her mastery in the frenzy like me now, and then swam around in this complex world with loneliness that cannot be vented?

She doesn't know what she doesn't know. She is still walking freely in her calm world with indifference to love, so I am so dangerous now!

So, I hate her a little when I live in loneliness and danger!

.........

When I got home, I made myself look drunk, avoided my mother's inquiring eyes, and swayed, and complained: "I'll go! Did Li Xiaoyun grow up in a wine jar? She was so good at drinking, so she drank me like this!"

My mother looked at me and sighed: "Oh, how much I have drunk, I've been talking nonsense!"

"Mom, I'm dizzy, I'm going to sleep first!"

"etc."

"Mom!...I'm not my own mind now, I'm talking nonsense, what can I say to you!"

"I want you to wait and make you a cup of tea."

I suddenly felt relieved. It turned out that it was a false alarm, but in a flash, I fell into another kind of helplessness. Why can't I face my parents openly? Why do I always use my own life to make them despair again and again? I guess, if my mother knew that Li Xiaoyun had already belonged to her, she would definitely be desperate!

After drinking a cup of sautéing tea, I returned to my room. After lying on the bed, I began to habitually use smoke to save my depressedness. Then, in the smoke filled my eyes, I stared at the ceiling and became immersed in the smoke. After a long time, I couldn't feel my existence, and the anxious thoughts gradually calmed down.

The door was suddenly knocked, and then I heard the voice of Mr. Ban: "Zhaoyang, are you asleep?"

I quickly snatched the cigarette in the ashtray, and did not respond. I lay straight on the bed, looking like I was sleeping very hard!

Dad Ban opened the door, then opened the window for me, came to the bed and said, "I have finished acting with your mother, do you still want to act with your father?"

I finally opened my eyes, looked out the door vigilantly, and then I was sure that only Daddy Ban was the only one, so I stood up and said, "Daddy Ban, it's hard to be a son. I really can't speak to my mother for some words, otherwise I wouldn't be able to pretend to be drunk if I had a barrel like this!... By the way, where is my mother?"

"Go to Xiaoyun's house!"

"well!......"

"What did you talk to Xiao Yun today?"

I looked at the empty cigarette box on the table and asked Daddy Ban: "Do you still have cigarettes? Let me have one!"

Dad Ban took out a packet of sequoia trees from his pocket and threw them to me. I took out a lit one, and then said, "Dad Ban, you know, Xiao Yun is a partner, but it's not easy to tell my mother that if my mother knows, she will definitely get angry!"

Dad Ban didn't respond, just said, "It's impossible to get angry!"

"When I leave, please tell her more tactfully. If she tells her out of my mouth, her heart will definitely be cold!"

"Whoever puts you on these things will feel cold!"

Although Daddy Ban had no expression, I could feel his emotions. After a long time, he said in a low voice: "I'm sorry, Daddy Ban...! I'm really not good as a son!"

Dad Ban ignored my apology and asked, "Tell me, how did you break up with Xiaomi?"

I pretended to be relaxed and smiled and said, "It's not suitable!"

"Why is it inappropriate?"

"In my mother's words, she is not a girl who can live... Daddy, I am also a man with thoughts and requirements. Although she looks impeccable, after discovering her shortcomings, I can still make a quick decision, so I decisively ended this space-enchanting relationship!"

Ban Dad's expression immediately became dark: "Don't talk to your dad. I know what kind of girl Xiaomi is. Mostly you are distracted!"

I was a little excited: "Whoever is half-hearted will be struck by lightning!"

Daddy looked at me with suspicion......

My momentum suddenly became weaker: "That... in short, she misunderstood me a little, and I can't give her the purity she wants!... Anyway, we broke up peacefully."

Ban Dad said after a while: "Miss Xiaomi is too worried... Are there any lack of communication between you?"

"All points are divided, what else can I communicate with?...Dad, we won't talk about this anymore, let's say happy, will you be free tomorrow? Go to the 4S store with me and change your car!"

"No need to spend money!"

"This is really not a waste. The car you equipped with in your unit has too many hidden dangers. Safety matters are really careless. My son has been unfilial for so many years, so let me express my feelings."

"Save the money for yourself to buy a house..."

I interrupted: "There is no shortage of money for buying a house. This matter is decided like this. Tomorrow, we will go to the 4S store together. It is also good to change you a new Passat!"

......

Dad Ban finally refused my request to buy a car for him, but I had made up my mind to go to the 4S store tomorrow to help him book the car. I also hope that doing this will make him and his mother feel relieved. Unfortunately, what I can do now is only materially make up for it, and in the future, I will work harder to create a career and make myself a less useless man!

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Chapter completed!