The wind outside the window blew again, but it made me even more silent. Perhaps over the years, I just knew that Le Yao was somewhat dependent on me, but I never dared to regard this as love that lasted until death. At this moment, I said these heart-wrenching words from her. I felt that my previous cognition collapsed in an instant, and I even convinced myself that this was just Le Yao's acting skills were fully utilized and she made another joke with me.

My silence seemed to stimulate Le Yao, and she cried again and couldn't help herself: "Zhaoyang, are you talking... Or, until now you still think that this is a joke I played with you?"

After a while, I finally answered, "What can I say?"

Le Yao rushed towards me, pressed me down on the bed, and whimpered: "You beast... fucked my body, but what you think in your heart is Jian Wei and Mi Cai forever... Why am I so despised in front of you?...Why! Woo woo..."

I subconsciously turned my head away, but she bit me again, so a heart-wrenching pain came from my shoulder, even more painful than before, but this time I didn't scream or push her away, but just kept squirming my Adam's apple to relieve my physical pain... But compared to the pain in Le Yao's heart, what is this little pain?

Le Yao finally let go of me, lay on my body, with tears in her eyes, and after a long time, she asked me: "Does it hurt?"

I nodded...

Le Yao left my body, and then I looked at the place where she bit her shoulder. Compared with the old wound, I found that although there was a distance between the two injuries, I formed a smiling face, echoing each other, and then laughed at my messiness at this moment.

Le Yao found some alcohol cotton from somewhere, and sat at the head of the bed without saying a word to help me clean the wound she bitten out, but her brows were frowning until she finished cleaning the wound and said to me: "Zhaoyang, how much I have to hate you to bite your shoulder into such a scum?"

"Actually, you want to say I'm a scum?"

"Do you still need me to emphasize again if you are a scum?"

I fell into silence again, maybe because of guilt, or I really don’t know how to deal with it.

Le Yao threw the wiped alcohol cotton into the trash can, put some trauma medicine on me, and then lay on the bed, then looked at the ceiling without blinking. I took out a cigarette and lit it, intending to use the time I smoked to think about what to say to her, and then make each other feel better.

"Zhaoyang, do you think who do you owe over the years?"

"Who knows?"

"I owe you, so I love you, but you don't love me..."

"Your logic is wrong."

Le Yao ignored my rebuttal and said with a memory look on her face: "Do you remember a few years ago when you introduced me to your Polytechnic Department Store and took promotional posters?"

"Remember, after the poster effect came out, you amazed many people!"

Le Yao shook her head and said, "I mean, that time was the opportunity you finally won me, but I almost let your pigeon go, which made you scolded by Chen Jingming!"

"So I keep saying you are unreliable!"

"Actually, on the day of the shooting, I went to see my ex-boyfriend... We broke up completely that day... Really! I told you what to do. Actually, I want to say that after I rushed to the shooting scene that day, I saw that you were scolded by Chen Jingming without saying a word, like a grandson. I was quite moved, but I hadn't fallen in love with you yet!"

"If I hadn't been ignorant, Chen Jingming would have dared to scold me like a grandson?"

Le Yao finally smiled and said, "But even if he scolded you so much, you didn't turn the blame off on me. You just said that you had notified the wrong time. Actually, I know you are afraid that Chen Jingming would take his anger on me and will no longer give me a chance to shoot in the future..."

When others are in love, I am always not good at saying anything, so I fell into silence for the third time. It was not until I finished smoking a whole cigarette in my hand that I changed the subject and asked: "What's wrong with you and your previous boyfriend? He seems to have made you miserable!"

Le Yao looked at me and said calmly: "He and I are alumni from college. After graduation, we all stayed in Shanghai with the dream of a star. Later... In order to be able to play in a certain drama, he became a female producer with a female producer... Haha, he has made some nicknames over the years, and he is just a second-rate star!... If it weren't for him and you, I think I wouldn't fall in love with you so quickly, and I love you so thoroughly!"

After a little silence, Le Yao said again: "In him, I saw the reality and ruthlessness of society, but in you, I saw another kind of purity and beauty. You did not let me give up on myself, and felt that there was still the motivation to live. Everything I have today was fulfilled by you, so no matter what kind of giving up for you, I am willing to do it!"

At this moment, I couldn't tell what it felt in my heart. Because I needed, I was instinctively looking for cigarettes from my pocket, but was stopped by Le Yao. This time she stared at me for a long time before saying, "Zhaoyang, I have to figure out some things after all, and your mark will eventually be erased from my life... So, from the moment you leave this room, we will no longer have any relationship, even if there is still a debt between us..."

When Le Yao took the initiative to ask me to cut off all relationships, I was not as relaxed as I imagined. I felt an indescribable feeling in my heart. However, when I remembered Mi Cai, a woman who needed to take care of herself with all her body and mind, I finally nodded to Le Yao...

Le Yao's eyes were filled with tears and she looked at me and smiled: "Okay, that's great... I will never come to you again, nor will I be humble to make trouble for myself... But Zhaoyang, can you say... to me... say the word breakup? This will make me feel that before Mi Cai appeared... we were in love too!"

I pondered for a long time and said, "Sorry, I can't say it..."

Le Yao nodded with a painful expression and finally said to me: "Okay, I won't force you...but you have to remember that I, Le Yao, fucked you that night, not you. I fucked me, do you understand?"

I really don't know what she meant, so I didn't give an answer.

Le Yao didn't seem to really want an explanation. She pointed her finger outside the door and said to me with a resolute expression: "You go out, from now on, we will erase the other party from our lives as if we have never met before."

My heart was filled with sadness that I could not give up, but I stood up from Le Yao's bed and finally looked at her. Tears were already covered with her face, and even the fingers pointing outside the door were trembling!

......

I can't describe how I left Le Yao's house with a mood, but my whole body had become empty. I knew that I would usher in another sleepless night, so I wandered alone by the Xitang River, which was still flowing despite the darkness.

When I was about to reach the end of the river, I saw the woman in red on the other side of the river again. She did not break her promise and even came to Xitang in advance to participate in tomorrow's charity activities. This time she rarely greeted me first: "This point is still swaying by the river, you seem to be quite idle!"

"If I'm really idle, I'd better!"

"What, are you worried about?"

I nodded and asked, "Do you have cigarettes there?"

"Ma's smoke, do you smoke?"

"No matter how particular you are, you can just smoke some."

"Then come here."

I found a stone bridge not far away, walked around the woman in red, and sat with her on the side of the somewhat deserted Xitang River. She took out a cigarette from the cigarette box and handed it to me, and lit one myself.

"I heard that women who can smoke have a tragedy in their hearts."

She looked at me and said, "I never said I lived like a comedy either."

"Yes, otherwise why would you come to Xitang again and again!"

She glared at me and said, "Are you depressed? Want to find a sense of superiority from me?"

I replied without denying it at all, "Yes, otherwise why would I sit here and chat with you if it was so late?"

"You can complain to me, and I can also enlighten you, but if you reveal my scars like this, isn't it too much to be damaged?"

"Come on, a person who is even more tragic than me can lead to any good results!"

"Xitang River flows right in front of you, why don't you die?"

"Oh! It's not easy to die. There are so many things and feelings that you can't let go of in life."

She seemed to be touched by my words, looking at the flowing river in a daze, and didn't say anything for a long time. I suddenly remembered something and pushed her and asked, "Hey! Have you seriously considered the matter of investing in Zhuomei that I told you last time?"

She came back to her senses and no longer had the joking tone of the previous one, and replied seriously: "Of course I have considered it seriously, but will the previous investors divest peacefully? If it weren't for the peaceful withdrawal, we will be in trouble as new investors."

"Peaceful divestment is impossible, and at this stage, Micai seems to have expectations for the former investors, and the situation is still unclear!"

She smiled and said, "It seems that many things are indeed your own wishful thinking!"

I did not deny it. She raised her hand and looked at the time, and said to me: "It's getting late, I'll go back and rest first. See you tomorrow."

I nodded and watched her leave. When her back completely disappeared from her sight, I suddenly remembered Le Yao. When we deliberately avoided meeting each other in the future, I couldn't help but feel depressed. Are some people destined to become passers-by in my life because of love paranoia and selfishness?

If so, then the pen and ink left by this passerby in my life are too heavy, so heavy that it is difficult for me to erase it calmly...

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Chapter completed!