The car drove from the city to the suburbs at this time. At this time, I seemed to be squeezed by two invisible forces. I could even feel my consciousness that was overwhelmed and gradually deformed. I was extremely eager to liberate myself, even if it was a short time.

I came to the familiar moat again. As soon as I stopped the car, I ran down the river bank like a run, and then roared at the river surface. I hated such a choice until I was exhausted, and I sat back on the lawn with residual reluctance and anger.

I gasped, then lay flat, staring at the blue sky in a daze, as if I had seen two pictures, one of which was the joy of my marriage with Mi Cai, and the other was the lost soul after Mi Cai lost Zhuomei... So, I became even more distressed and asked myself whether I should continue to be selfish, and whether I was constantly asking for Mi Cai can really compare with Zhuomei's position in her heart?

Time passed by bit by bit in my painful torture, and finally took out my cell phone from my pocket. I wanted her to bring some beer. It was already noon and I was really hungry.

So I found me by the moat, but unfortunately she didn't bring much beer, just two cans, and she rewinds a lot of food.

I picked up one of the cans of beer, tore it open and took a sip, and then complained to her, "Why did I bring two cans?"

"Didn't you say you're hungry? Of course I brought the lunch for you. Just open two cans of beer to enjoy the appetizer. What should I do if I drink so much?"

I drank one of the cans of beer in one go, and then lay flat on the grass, but I was already unable to open my eyes by the noon sunlight and I never dared to look at the blue sky again.

cc patted my shoulder and asked with concern: "What's wrong with you? Running to the moat alone."

"It's okay."

"What's okay! Every time I come to the moat, I look like I'm dead. Think about how many times I came here after you broke up with Jian Wei a few years ago and picked you up drunk... Now it's better, and I still know to call me before I drink."

I suddenly sat up from the ground nervously, subconsciously leaned back, and asked, "Why are you looking at me like this?"

"If one day I am not together with Mi Cai, would you be surprised?"

cc did not answer me, but asked, "Don't you think you're weird? ...What's wrong with you?"

She would definitely tell Mi Cai the truth, but now I haven't figured out this matter yet. Of course, I don't want Mi Cai to know that Weiran had found me because I was worried that if I didn't think thoroughly enough, it would cause a profound mistake.

He said, "Then I won't ask."

cc didn't plan to let me go, and asked, "You called me all over. Can't you tell me anything?"

"I called you because I wanted to have some wine. Also, don't you think the scenery by the river at the end of spring is beautiful? I don't want to enjoy it alone..."

"Forget it if you don't want to say it. Anyway, you always say a lot of nonsense, but you always keep it in your heart and think about it over and over again, and in the end you often can't figure it out!"

I didn't say anything, tore open another beer, but this time I didn't drink it all, but drank it in small sips, as I said, thinking about this thing that I must keep in my heart for the time being...

After drinking two cans of beer, I brought the lunch and lie down and rested for a while, but I still didn't want to leave this moat that was once regarded as a safe haven until the ringtone of my cell phone rang...

I turned over and took out my cell phone from my pocket, but was surprised to find that it was Robben's call. I answered the phone and asked, "Some days I don't contact you anymore, how are you doing in the mountains?"

"We're going to Xitang soon, hurry up and pick it up at the station."

"What, to Xitang?...return us?"

"Well, two of us, of course!"

I was not sure, so I asked tentatively: "And Wei Manwen?"

Robben only answered me with the word "hmm", but it caused an unprecedented impact on me. I think it took us more than three weeks to resolve Zhuomei's public relations crisis, and the agreed day between Wei Manwen and Robben has come. At this time, he brought Wei Manwen back. What does this mean? He couldn't help but lower his voice and asked, "Are you back?"

But Robben answered me in another way: "She did not marry Zhou Hang."

The mood suddenly became complicated, and it took a long time to say to Robben: "I am in Suzhou now, you come to Suzhou."

"Okay, then we will transfer directly from Xitang to Suzhou. You will pick us up at the station in about an hour. Today you have to accompany me to drink high!"

......

After the conversation with Robben, I don’t know how to speak for a long time...

cc smiled and asked me, "Is it Robben's call to you?"

"You heard it all?"

"Have he and Wei Manwen got back together?"

I was silent for a long time before nodding to her, and then I felt a little reluctant to look at her expression.

cc smiled with tears: "It's great, so great!... This is what he has always dreamed of! As friends for so many years, we should be happy for him and Wei Manwen, and lovers finally got married!"

I don’t know what to say, the more I say, the more painful it is. I just want to use this to hide it and make myself look stronger.

cc said again: "You have drunk, don't pick them up later, I'll drive to pick them up."

"It's okay for them to fight. Just sit here with me for an afternoon. The dusk is coming, and the scenery here is better!"

cc has already gotten up, but there are no tears in his eyes. He smiled and said, "Actually, I am not sad. I am really happy for him. I will go to the station now and send them my blessings as soon as possible. I think what Robben needs most is my blessings and relief!"

cc is almost walking to the bank of the river, and I finally sat up, then shouted to her: "After receiving Robben, let him come to the moat to find me, we have an appointment to have a drink together."

"knew....."

The voice of cc gradually weakened as she went away, but I saw something called selfless in her back. Compared to her, my love for Mi Cai seemed a bit selfish. I knew that what she cared about the most was Zhuomei, but I still refused to let go. Maybe one day she would really hate me!... But at this time, I didn't seem to be able to muster up the courage to let her make a choice, because the result might be the kind that I least want to bear!

......

I lay alone by the moat from afternoon to dusk, and Robben, who was late, did not disappoint me. He was carrying a woven bag filled with filling beer.

Robben sat down beside me, placed the woven bag between the two of them, took out a can of beer and threw it to me, tore open a can of it himself, touched me and said, "Drink it all!"

I nodded, drank half of the can of beer in one breath, and then asked him, "Where is Wei Manwen?"

"CC accompanied her to the mall and was preparing to buy some clothes. You know, she has been in the mountains for too long!"

"But you have thought about how she would feel when CC helped Wei Manwen pick clothes?...... Let me tell you that there is no more painful smile in this world than a forced smile!"

Robben was silent for a long time before saying, "Of course I know her mood, but her unavoidableness is precisely to make myself feel better, because she will suffer when she is in it. When she has enough pain, she will become numb. In the end, all the pain is just a scattered fragment for her!"

", you shouldn't have started blindly at the beginning!"

Robben stood up, picked up a piece of stone from the ground, and threw it into the river. The piece of stone jumped on the river surface and ran towards the opposite bank, but in the end he still failed to get ashore and disappeared into the moat. Robben looked at the sinking place in a daze, and said for a long time: "Yes... a decision is often only in seconds, but it may affect the life of two people."

"Do you regret it?"

"It's useless to regret. After all, Manwen has suffered for three years. If it weren't for the wrong choice and the pain today... we were all fucked by this fucking choice. Over and over again!"

I also sat up from the lawn, then threw another can of beer for Robben, touched one, and said, "Now I am being chosen to fuck me, but I am not sure I can choose the right answer..."

"Then you're fucked!"

"Yes, I don't know how to choose when I saw you being fucked so badly!"

Robben looked at me and finally said seriously: "Tell me, what is the problem that you chose?"

Robben's relationship with Mi Cai was not close, so he would not talk to Mi Cai, so I told him about the meeting with Wei Ran this morning, and then waited for him to use the experience of the people who had experienced it to show me a clear way.

After a while of silence, Robben finally said to me: "If it's just that you think that what she values ​​most is Zhuomei and chooses to give up, then it's the same nature as I chose to give up Manwen, and then misunderstood each other for 3 years... So in order to avoid a stupid choice similar to my, you should talk to Mi Cai openly. If she thinks Zhuomei is irreplaceable, you can still make a great and open-minded reputation when you choose to give up. On the contrary, if Mi Cai cares about your relationship the most and you still give up on your own initiative, then don't you owe the same as I used to. Fuck?"

"so?"

"So you have to find an opportunity to chat with Micai to understand her true thoughts... Don't make the mistake too profound!"

I took a deep breath. With the lessons of Robben's past, I really should have a chat with Micai, and this is also the basis for me to make a choice... But will she really take our relationship more seriously than Zhuomei?
Chapter completed!