Chapter 230: Bury a seed in your heart
I pressed my forehead with my hand, let out a heavy breath, and said to Le Yao again: "Give me your phone."
Le Yao shook her head firmly and said, "No matter what happens, stop the bleeding first." After that, she pulled me out of the inn.
I walked out of the clinic with Le Yao's footsteps mechanically, but many of my thoughts were trapped in my body and could not be released at all, so I didn't feel any pain when applied to my wounds.
As my mind was heavy, I remembered the song "New Tenant" that Mi Cai and I used to tease each other.
After all, we are just a bird we caught, but we can’t touch each other’s feathers, so we keep saying “hello” to each other, but the response is often “disturbance”.
So we are all wrong, but what is the root cause of the mistake?
Perhaps it comes from a whim, or it may just be from a thousand miles of encounters that make us get caught in the whirlpool of love and cause trouble.
If it weren't for those impulses, I would still be his landlord and she was my tenant, wouldn't it be better?
At this moment, I can't give myself an answer. Perhaps, since that night, when I imposed the title of the tenant on her, the gears of fate had already turned between us.
...
After leaving the clinic, I was still feeling like when I went there, but there was a piece of gauze on my face to stop bleeding, and time sneaked away for half an hour, but Xitang was still the original Xitang, as if nothing had happened.
On the steps on the river bank, Le Yao sat beside me. She finally asked me, "What happened just now?"
"I was beaten up."
"Who can beat you up if you only have the share of beating you?"
"It makes me feel like Dugu Qiubai!"
"I don't care. Next time he messes with you, you must win!"
"Win and lose, it doesn't mean anything, so don't be childish."
Le Yao smiled and said softly: "I hope you are happier if you are childish."
I looked at Leyao and asked on another whim: "From now on, I will only be a person who waits for the night and welcomes the daytime and doesn't think about anything, okay?"
"Isn't that a vegetative person?"
I didn't say anything, but I felt a little disappointed. It turned out that I was too pursuing a simple and worry-free life, but I became a vegetable.
Le Yao leaned against me: "Zhaoyang, I'm really happy that you can open your heart and tell me some of the thoughts in your heart."
"Didn't I tell you before?"
"In the past, you said nothing except scolding me and saying you wanted to kill me!"
"Do you want to tell me that I'm just a scum?"
"But after you finished scolding, you will still take care of me and care about me when I need it; you always say you want to get me, it's only once, or after drinking... You are not as bad as you think you are. On the contrary, I think you are a little more mature than before, at least you have the desire to struggle in your heart, so you will take over this inn!"
"Yeah?"
Le Yao nodded affirmatively and said, "Yes... I have been filming in a remote mountainous area a few days ago, where there was no electricity. The whole life of the mountain people is just a few acres of land. The leisurely activities are like sitting on the ridge of the field chatting, but I think they are very happy and have figured out some truths. In fact, all the pain of people is just because they regard themselves as being too important and want to satisfy the illusory desires in their hearts. For example, love will be painful once it is not what they imagined... In fact, it is said that love is just a pastime after food and clothing, and you don't have to be too serious!"
I thought about Le Yao's words and found that it was the same as what I realized, "If the heart does not move, it will not hurt." But why do I still feel pain if I have already realized it? I think it was because I couldn't let go of my desires, and after these lingering desires gathered together, they weaved a black net to cover the sky and the sun, and I will never see that crystal clear city again.
I finally said to Le Yao: "If I have the chance, I really want to throw myself into that mountain village where there is no electricity, sit on the ridge of the fields every day, looking at the hundreds of acres of fertile fields and rows of scarecrows!"
Le Yao smiled and said, "I have to bring a pack of Zhongnanhai with 8.
"Yes, this must be remembered."
Le Yao hugged my shoulders with a smile, guessing my thoughts seemed to make her very happy.
I smiled with her, and then looked blankly at the willow catkins fluttering in the wind on the other side. Perhaps because of visual fatigue, my own world was flashing and dark. I seemed to see a burning torch, but it was extinguished. In the dimness of the world, I gradually lost the desire to call Mi Cai. As for the love that disappeared, I remembered it, but I was unwilling to take it out and savor it and chew it.
...
The wind that continued to blow seemed to dry my scars, so I sat by the river with Le Yao for a long time.
A long time later, she took out a bank card from her handbag and handed it to me and said, "Zhaoyang, this card has 100,000 yuan, which is for you to transform the inn."
I nodded, took it from her, and did not say thank you, because I felt that we should not be burdened by the word "Thank you".
Le Yao stroked the scar on my face and said softly: "I'm leaving, noon today."
My heart seemed to have lost support in an instant, and subconsciously held her hand: "Didn't you say it's a week?"
"A male actor in the crew is going abroad to attend the award ceremony, so the director temporarily arranged several scenes."
I realized that I had lost my composure and quickly let go of my hand holding Le Yao tightly.
But Le Yao held my loose hand again and said, "Don't forget your ambition to make the inn a national chain. I will fully support you."
"This time I will use all my strength to run the inn."
"Well... I will go back to Xitang to see you after filming the latest scene."
I felt so disappointed, and it took me a long time to ask tentatively: "Can you not leave today?"
"I have to go back to Beijing before night because there will be two night scenes at night, and everyone in the crew is in place!"
"That's a good journey."
Le Yao nodded, she leaned against my chest and said for a long time: "Your heart is still beating, but it is empty."
"Maybe."
She pulled my coat open and kissed my chest through her sweater...
I looked at her in confusion.
"I buried a seed in your heart. If rain nourishes you in a few years, you must remember to let this seed sprout and bloom."
I was stunned for a long time before replying: "If there was really rain to favor this dry land, this seed would definitely sprout and bloom!"
Le Yao nodded and left my chest. She waved to me, put on sunglasses and masks, and walked alone to the river bank.
I looked at her back for a long time, and after a long time, I felt a drop of warmth on the back of my hand. It turned out that this was a tear she left before putting on her sunglasses.
Chapter completed!