The moment I walked out of the villa, the heavy feeling that made me unable to breathe suddenly disappeared, but the humiliation lingered in my heart.

After walking along the asphalt road outside the villa for a while, I finally saw a taxi and left immediately.

On the way to the city, I was empty and seemed to be unable to see the future, and I didn’t know what attitude to treat this love with Mi Cai. I understand: At the beginning, we all blindly underestimated the pressure given by real life.

I suddenly felt that I deserved it. Mi Cai had never experienced love. She did not understand the huge pressure facing love under the identity gap. Don’t I understand? But even so, why did I choose to be determined without hesitation? Maybe in my heart, I still long for that crystal clear city and a love that is not polluted by the worldly dust.

After arriving in the city, I went directly to the station and prepared to take the car back to Suzhou, but I received a call from Mi Cai. After hesitating for a while, I finally answered.

"Zhaoyang, where have you been?"

“On the way back to Suzhou.”

"...I'm sorry, Mi Lan shouldn't let you leave, but... she is targeting me, not you, don't be angry, okay?"

"You really don't need to comfort me. She is not targeting you or me, but poverty. Don't you think I am so unbearable among your relatives and friends? I am making you embarrassed in front of your family!"

"I'm really sad if you say that!"

I was silent for a while, and the bitterness in my heart became even more serious. Even if I felt wronged, I should not regard Mi Cai, a poor woman, as the object of venting. Finally, I relaxed and said to her: "I will work hard, for you and for myself... You are happier, and time will definitely explain the rest of the matter."

...

In the afternoon, I returned to the old house in Suzhou. The first thing I did was to take off the Burberry suit and then lay on the sofa. In the confusion of not seeing the future, I repeatedly smoked, but completely ignored the feeling of hunger caused by not having eaten at noon.

I asked myself, why is it so painful?

Because I love her, otherwise I would give up this relationship without any burden. At worst, I would have to live back my past life, at least I would be free.

But I can't give up, so the only thing I can do now is to transform all the grievances and inferiority into the driving force for struggle, and then create a career of my own, so that I can face life with my chest and those who once disdained me.

The sky outside the window was already dark, so I finally cooked a bowl of instant noodles for myself. After eating it tasteless, I fell into panic of having nothing to do, but I was unwilling to go to the bar to get drunk too negatively, so I chose to use a walk to relieve my depression.

Originally, I didn't set a destination for myself, but I still walked to the moat like instinctively. Perhaps this place has become my only safe haven in this city, and I need to find some comfort and sustenance here.

When I lay on the withered lawn and enjoyed the gusts of spring breeze, my heart gradually calmed down, and then I entered my sleep with fatigue.

It was not until I felt someone pushing me that I woke up from my sleep, opened my eyes hazy and found that Jian Wei was sitting next to me.

She smiled and said to me, "Zhaoyang, we meet here again."

I sat up from the grass, took out a cigarette from the cigarette box and lit it before saying, "I've come a lot lately, but you've come less."

"The company has been too busy during this period, but I still come to sit occasionally."

"Oh... Where is Xiang Chen, won't he accompany you?"

"He is busier than me and has been to Shenzhen for several days." He paused for a moment and asked me again, "Have you been upset about a lot recently?"

I let out a heavy breath and smiled helplessly: "Yes."

"Have you had a conflict with Mi Cai?"

“Things at work.”

I didn't want to talk too deeply with Jian Wei about this topic, so I changed the topic and asked her: "Last time you really took gasoline to Aji's piano store?"

Jian Wei was stunned at first, then smiled and said, "The bucket contains water, I'm just scaring him, scaring him."

I replied with a lot of laughter and cry: "You really scared him stupidly. I never found you with such superb acting skills before!"

"It has nothing to do with acting."

"What does that have to do with?"

Jian Wei curled her lips but did not answer, so the two fell into silence.

After about five minutes of sitting, Jian Wei suddenly walked towards the river bank. I thought she had something urgent to leave, but she didn't expect that she took out a guitar box from the trunk of the car, then took out the guitar, walked under the river bank, and stood in front of me.

I looked at her in confusion and asked, "What does it mean?"

"It's not that you give your guitar back, I just hope you play another song with this guitar."

I did not respond immediately to Jian Wei, but just looked at the white guitar that had been infected by my sweat in some places, and suddenly I felt a strong sense of intimacy.

So, he finally took the guitar from Jian Wei and asked her: "What song do you play?"

"Tears, Fan Xiaoxuan's tears."

I recalled that song and played the score in my heart. After feeling that there was no problem, I nodded to Jian Wei, then plucked the strings of the guitar and played the song "Tears" out on the guitar.

I thought this was just my one-man show, but I didn't expect Jian Wei to sing this song with the accompaniment.

"If youth has an immortal face, I hope she will never be changed. Many dreams are always weaving too beautiful. Following the disillusionment, falling in love with you is the happiest thing, but it also brings the most painful sorrow, bitter and sweet love, I can't learn it no matter how... Oh tears, tears are all my experience of growth, oh tears, hold back tears and don't let you see, I am changing, the feeling of loneliness, you have never discovered that there are still tears in my smile, oh tears, tears flow through the silent night, the taste of heartache, oh tears, wipe away tears and forget everything, the attachment that once existed, tears are bitter, tears are sad, tears are all you, tears are sweet, tears are yesterday, tears do not shed tears..."

The song gradually stopped, but I heard obvious emotions in Jian Wei's singing, especially the sentence "Love in you is the happiest thing, but it also brings the most painful sorrow..."

Gradually, I was immersed in this lyrics and couldn't extricate myself, because this was a very ironic summary for us.

In the absence of his mind, Jian Wei suddenly made an action that caught me off guard. She took the guitar back from my hand, and then threw the guitar into the bottomless moat without any hesitation.

Looking at the guitar that was floating with the waves, my heart rolled in a burst of colic that could not be blocked, but Jian Wei smiled at me with tears in her eyes: "Maybe this is the best ending!"
Chapter completed!