I stood on the guardrail facing the wind, opening my eyes wide to find the reflection of the "City of Sky" on the river with the flowing water. All I saw was the glitz of the city under the flashing neon lights.

After waking up, I realized that I was so afraid of death and fear of being submerged in the bottomless moat.

I looked back at Mi Cai, but she looked so indifferent.

"Are you really not going to persuade me?" I frowned and asked Mi Cai.

"Why should I persuade you?"

"But I will really die if I jump!"

"You are the one who dies, not me." Mi Cai said with a calm expression.

I jumped off the guardrail and said angrily: "I read you rightly, you are a poisonous woman. In order to achieve your own goals, I will not hesitate to let others die."

"I have no purpose, you said you wanted to jump into the river." Mi Cai was still calm.

I became even more angry and pointed at Mi Cai and said, "Can you stop slandering me so calmly?...I remember I called you to persuade me not to dance. According to the script I set, you shouldn't act like this!"

"When I came, you lay down like a dead person, and you didn't know how to dance. Why did you call me in one go? Is it fun to play with me?" Mi Cai finally got angry in his words.

I was a little frustrated. I was really going to jump in impulse. Who knew that my life should not be over. Suddenly, I rushed up and made me fall asleep.

I didn't know how to explain to Mi Cai and said nonsense, "I really want to jump into the moat. When I was about to jump, I remembered that I still owed you more than 10,000 yuan but I didn't pay it back. It doesn't matter if I die! But no one will pay you back the money, so I didn't jump because I am a person with a conscience and moral bottom line. I will never do such unethical things that I don't pay back the debt."

"What I said is really tragic!" Mi Cai said at me with a smile.

"Is it really tragic? You don't know how much I struggled at that time. On the one hand, I was relieved after death, and on the other hand, I was condemned with conscience after not paying off my debts. It was difficult to choose!... Of course, in the end, I made a difficult choice to keep the moral bottom line, so I was still alive." I said with an exaggerated expression.

Mi Cai seemed unwilling to listen to my random talk anymore, so she stood up from the ground and prepared to leave.

"Wait." I stopped Mi Cai.

"So what's wrong?" Mi Cai was already very impatient when she spoke, and she put on the coat she had just covered on me.

"Have you been sitting here and guarding me since the afternoon?"

"I'm here to collect your body, not to persuade you, so I'm here in the evening." Mi Cai said with her unique calmness.

"Who are you going to collect my body and cover me with a coat?" I expose Mi Cai's lies with a meaningful smile.

Mi Cai looked back at me and said coldly: "There will be something on the body to cover the remains. Don't you know?"

I was speechless when Mi Cai said it, and I was stunned. My attention jumped out of the quarrel with Mi Cai. So the alcohol that had not been completely digested began to stir up trouble in my body again. I felt dizzy and felt a strong sense of vomiting.

I lay on the guardrail and emptied myself and spit out vomit into the moat. I really drank too much of the wine at noon.

After vomiting, I sat down as if I was leaning against the guardrail and closed my eyes. My consciousness became clearer and clearer. So the scene I experienced at Fang Yuan and Yan Yan’s wedding at noon appeared in my mind again, and a torn pain filled my body.

At that moment, Xiang Chen helped Jian Wei wear a diamond crystal necklace that means the token of love. I want to tell Jian Wei desperately: I want to go back to the past, the past with joy in silence, the past with love and love...

But I have never been able to go back to the past. I have lost Jian Wei and can only watch her be happy in other people's world!

In the pain of tearing, a warm feeling came from the corners of my eyes, and I seemed to be crying!

It must be not me crying, it is the city of the sky crying, she is using tears to dissolve my inner sorrow.

"You're crying, wipe your tears."

I opened my eyes and found that Mi Cai had not left yet. She handed me a tissue.

I didn't take the tissue, and it would be best if the tears were blown dry by the wind so that there would be no trace left.

Mi Cai squatted down and looked at me, and finally asked in a lighter tone: "Is it because I said something just now too heavy? I shouldn't laugh at you as a corpse."

I remained silent for a long time and whispered: "Actually, it has nothing to do with you. Even if it is really a corpse, it only hurts a little before death. But the pain of living is heart-wrenching... Do you understand this feeling?"

Mi Cai shook her head and said, "I don't understand. What I think now is when you will move out of my house."

"Are you so annoyed me?" I asked with a smile, my tears seemed to have been dried up.

"Yes, your behavior really won't give me any good impression. You are an absolute bastard!" Mi Cai said bluntly.

"Is that true?...But you don't know that the bastard who did all the bad things in your eyes once had a clean city in his heart!"

"I don't really understand what you are talking about."

"You don't need to understand... because today this city has been separated from my body and has become a sky city that I will never touch!"

I lowered my head and groped my pocket, but there was no cigarette for me to burn away my melancholy and to mend my broken soul.

Mi Cai was not speaking. She sat down beside me and leaned on the guardrail behind her in the same posture. Our surroundings became quieter and quieter, as if they were isolated from the hustle and bustle of the city. A gust of night breeze blew by, blowing out the equality of all beings and blowing out the fireworks on earth!

I saw a cigarette on the ground that was only half-smoked by me. I picked it up and blew it and ignited it again. The smell of tobacco spread again and dissipated under the hazy light...

I finally said to Mi Cai: "I know you want me to leave, I will move out, just tomorrow."

"Is this time true?"

"It's true... I've lost a city, will I still care about a room?"

Mi Cai seemed a little curious about me always mentioning that city, and she asked me: "What does the sky city you are talking about look like?"

I thought about it and said, "She is a crystal clear but always silent city. She has a magic power that makes people forget their worries, pain, and glitz. When you move in, nothing matters anymore, because you will transform into a crystal clear bird, break through all constraints and shuttle through the wind of freedom..."

"But the bird will eventually land. Will it still be crystal clear after landing?" Mi Cai asked at me.

"I don't know... because I haven't thought about what I will look like after landing."

...

Perhaps my pitiful appearance aroused Mi Cai's sympathy. On this night, she did not abandon me alone by the river. I took her car to drive towards the bustling and somewhat illusory city. I had made up my mind that after this night I would move out of the old house. Anyway, my life would not be broken any more. It would be better to fulfill Mi Cai and give her a quiet place.

Along the way, we were each silent. I understand this silence as Mi Cai is still dissatisfied with the fact that I deceived her several times today, and my current downturn and pitifulness cannot completely extinguish the flame of her anger. It is already very humane to be able to bring me back from the suburbs.

Back at the community where we lived, Mi Cai parked the car. She and I walked towards the entrance of the corridor one by one, but unexpectedly found that Ban Dad was sitting on the steps at the entrance of the corridor, with the old black briefcase that had been used for decades beside him.
Chapter completed!