The anklet with Jian Wei's body temperature soon disappeared in my hands. I felt like I had given her a happier joy. According to the original script, this New Year's Eve should not be spent like this.

I put my anklet back into my pocket and turned around. Mi Cai was still standing in the original place. Her hair was fluttering with the cold wind. On this extremely cold night, she looked so thin.

I walked towards her with heavy steps, but I didn't think she would mind the scene just now, because we never started, so there would be no burden that only lovers would have.

I came to Mi Cai, smiled at her, and then said, "The wind is so cold, why are you standing outside?"

"No matter how cold the wind blows from the sky is, it is just a cold body. The wind blowing from people is cold but the heart..."

I was still addicted to the trance just now, and after a while, I asked Mi Cai, "How should I understand this?"

"Whatever you understand, but it's time for us to go in. Many customers are still waiting to have a few drinks with you, the bar owner? I'm coming out to call you for them."

"oh."

I responded, and Mi Cai had already lowered her head and walked into the bar.

I looked at her back and looked at the sky again. The fireworks that burst continuously in the air blocked my sight, so my eyes stopped in the flashing splendor, and I felt the bone-broken coldness of the wind in the dizziness.

I tucked my clothes and lit a cigarette for myself. Maybe I can't wait for the wind blowing in spring this night. My heart seemed to be trapped in this cold winter by an inexplicable force, and time could not take me away. I walked into that spring, even though spring was right in front of me.

...

I was drunk this night, and I didn't even know how I returned to my residence until I woke up with the explosion of firecrackers the next morning.

I sat in the bed for a long time, and then I remembered that it was time for me to go back to Xuzhou today and to wish my father and mother a happy new year. I think they are waiting for me at this moment and waiting for Mi Cai.

I immediately put on my clothes and got up. Without going to the bathroom to wash, I knocked on Mi Cai’s door and said while knocking: “Happy New Year…Happy New Year, have you gotten up?”

No one responded for a long time. I twisted the handle of the door, but found that it was locked. Then I felt a bad premonition in my heart. I hurriedly rummaged through the cabinet and found the key to the door, but I was stunned after opening it.

There was no shadow of Mi Cai in the room, but the quilts were stacked neatly. In other words, Mi Cai was not in this room at this moment, and she might have left after sending me back last night.

At this time, I realized what the saying "No matter how cold the wind blows from the sky is, it is just a cold body. The wind blowing by people is cold but the heart..." means.

I also understand that it was my entanglement with Jian Wei that hurt her sharpness, so she chose to avoid me on the first day of the New Year.

But where did she avoid it?

I returned to my room with a little frustration and wanted to call Mi Cai, but unexpectedly found a note under my phone placed on the cabinet.

I immediately took out the note, and as expected, it was indeed what Mi Cai left for me.

"Zhaoyang, I'm going to my uncle's house for the New Year... I wish you a happy New Year and also take me to say Happy New Year to your parents."

Looking at the smiling expression attached to the text, I only felt my heart being pierced in an instant, and then the pain that I realized was unstoppable and overwhelmed me.

I understand: her pride makes her eyes unable to accommodate a grain of sand, and her lack of security makes her sensitive and suspicious, so she, like me, has been isolating herself from love with a self-deprecating wall. She longs to approach me, but is afraid to approach an impure me.

So my constant worries and inferiority complex are not groundless... All my pain comes from my liking her, but I am not the man she needs the most.

I folded the note and put it in the cabinet. I lit a cigarette for myself early in the morning, and then half lie on the bed and sucked it, but I didn't want to explain anything to Mi Cai because she didn't ask me anything.

Furthermore, what is the point of a love that can be achieved through constant explanation?

At this moment, I suddenly didn't want to have any expectations for Mi Cai anymore. I would rather keep a tacit understanding with her and forget the previous ambiguous relationship and be an ordinary friend.

After making this decision, I felt like I had lost a heavy burden, and then I put out the cigarette on my hand, and then opened WeChat to reply to her message: "I wish you a happy New Year... I will contact you after returning to Suzhou!"

After sending the message, I put my phone in my pocket, then simply packed up a piece of luggage, and drove on the road back to Xuzhou in the Alto.

On the long journey, I felt somewhat lonely, and I felt more or less regretful, but I was also glad that Jian Wei's incident last night sounded the alarm for me and made me see myself clearly.

Why should I defile Micai's purity with a messy past and a body that has been infested with many women?

If I have that crystal clear city in my heart, then Mi Cai must have it, but I am not qualified to be the man in her city.

If I really like her, I should keep silently guarding her side with myself until she meets the man who should have spent her whole life with her.

...

It was not until 2 o'clock in the afternoon that I returned to Xuzhou, a long-lost city. When I stood at the door of my house, I was embarrassed to ring the doorbell. After all, I had already told my father in front that I would bring Mi Cai back, but now I have broken my trust in him, so I must be disappointed.

I stood for a full minute before I rang the doorbell. It was my mother who opened the door. She looked left and right and asked, "Zhaoyang, didn't your father say you want to bring a reliable girl home to see me, where are the people?"

I hugged her with a smile and said, "Mom, happy New Year!...I miss you so much!"

My mother pushed me away, but she didn't have an attack with me after all. She said helplessly: "You... you have been to Suzhou for so long, but you haven't seen you become more reliable!"

"Yes, so I can't find a reliable girl."

My mother sighed: "Oh... I can't do anything to you. Come into the house first, I'll go and warm you up."

Walking into the room, Dad Ban sat on the sofa and looked back at the "Spring Festival Gala" last night. Seeing that I was back, he subconsciously looked behind me, then put down the remote control and asked, "Where is Xiaomi? Didn't you say that you came back together?"

I still laughed and said, "Yes, but she has been going to her uncle's house for the New Year... Uh... It's pretty good. After all, having her family with her is much better than coming to Xuzhou for the New Year!"

My deliberate explanation made Dad Ban frown. He was always dull, but his expression was more disappointed than when his mother heard the news. This made me realize that since Li Xiaoyun and I had a relationship, my mother has not been interested in other girls, but Dad Ban always recognized Mi Cai. Maybe there were differences on this point, but this difference caused me to feel more pressure, because at this point, it seems that neither Li Xiaoyun nor Mi Cai would be with me.

Besides love, the most urgent thing is perhaps my most thought of is how to redeem the guitar and return it to Jian Wei.
Chapter completed!