It seemed that no one cared about the episode just now. The whole banquet always maintained a good atmosphere and drank no less wine. Anyway, today is the weekend, and everyone relaxed themselves through this banquet.

I didn't let go and drink because the bar decoration plan has not been made yet, and I need to have a clear mind to work hard for the bar tomorrow.

After looking at it, it was almost 12:30. I really had no mood to continue staying there, so I said goodbye to everyone first.

After walking out of the hotel and breathing the outdoor air, my mood finally became less dull. I don’t know when Zhao Li followed me out of the hotel.

I pulled out a cigarette and lit it for myself before asking him, "Why did you come out too."

"I will go to the company to organize merchants to attend a merchant management meeting later." Zhao Li explained.

"We have to work overtime on weekends!" I sighed subconsciously.

Zhao Li smiled and said to me again: "By the way, are you, my Alto?"

“What price?”

"Forget it, you can drive it. Anyway, that car can't be sold at any price, but I still have good maintenance."

I said without any politeness: "Okay, go back and take it to my place after you finish the work."

While I was talking to Zhao Li, two men and a woman walked out of the hotel. I couldn't help but take a look, because the woman walking with the two men was very intellectual and beautiful.

Zhao Li said to me enviously: "Zhaoyang, do you know who those two men are?"

I shook my head and signaled that I didn't know, but I knew that I must be successful people because the cars they each boarded were luxury cars.

"They are very famous in the catering industry. One is Zhang Yixi, the head of Haijing Coffee, and the other is even bigger. Han Feng, the young leader of Huali Group... They are all young entrepreneurs who have only risen in the past two years! They should have come to Suzhou to attend business meetings."

I didn't say anything, and there was a huge gap in my heart, but I couldn't say I envy them. Because they each had their own circumstances and luck, I asked Zhao Li for a while: "Who is that woman?"

"Zhang Yixi's wife Chen Qingyi is a very well-known female anchor." After saying that, she sighed and said, "This is the upper class! We ordinary people can only look up and envy."

I smiled and said, "How do you know that people in the upper class must live a good life? Maybe Zhang Yixi's marriage with that female anchor is not happy!"

"This is impossible. If I can marry such a wife, I will be satisfied in my life and die without regrets!"

"When you reach that height, you may not think so. People are fickle, right, Zhao Li?"

Zhao Li thought for a while and said, "Maybe, who can understand whose world... I'm going to the company and I'll give you the car later."

I nodded, but watched the two men drive past me in luxury cars. I couldn't help but wonder, are they really doing well when they look glamorous? At least there is a similarly glamorous Micai by my side, but she is so lonely.

So what should people pursue when they are alive? And how much is the value of material wealth?

I don't understand! Maybe I will never understand! Because living is an unsolvable proposition.

...

When I returned to my residence, I began to immerse myself in my work state. It was not until the evening that I finally prepared the decoration plan. Then I collected information from various decoration companies in Suzhou online so that I could improve the efficiency of negotiations tomorrow.

It was dark outside the window. I closed my notebook and lay on my back on the office chair to lit a cigarette for myself, but I didn't know where I was thinking.

The smoke from my mouth filled the room without turning on the lights. I felt the depression and heaviness again. What happened at the luncheon today made me realize how failed I have been in the past few years. I actually fell to asking my ex-girlfriend to help me maintain my dignity. What happened to me?

Jian Wei's departure must have been disappointed with me. I remember that it was not long after she went to the United States. We had not broken up yet. That day, the two of them drove a voice and video chat. Jian Wei asked me: When I worked hard for our future, I took out a bag of lottery tickets from the cabinet and told her that this was the result of my hard work.

That day, Jian Wei got angry with me and thought I was unreliable... Although we were still in contact, the frequency became lower and lower until we broke up.

On the day of the breakup, I hugged the bunch of lottery tickets and cried bitterly because Jian Wei didn't understand me... It was not unreliable to buy lottery tickets, but because I loved her too much and cared about her too much, and I was afraid that I would not give her material explanations after she came back, and even more afraid that I could not afford to marry her. So I ridiculously placed my hope on the lottery tickets and bought ten tickets every day, which lasted for several months.

Thinking of this incident, my heart twitched again. When I was alive, who can truly understand the world of another person?

So Jian Wei will never understand the efforts I have made for the love between us. Before we break up, I even went to the bar to sing until the early morning after get off work every day, just to make more money.

No matter how tired I am, as long as I think of the "waiting" written on the car window with lipstick when she left, I don't feel tired. I think of the happiness we had fantasized about together, and I feel that all the waiting is worth it.

But now I am really tired, as if I can't find the direction of life, and I don't know what kind of love I want, or I have rejected love because I am unwilling to bear that heart-wrenching pain anymore.

That's why I want to marry Li Xiaoyun. I've been obsessed with the sense of security she gave me, but do I really love her? I don't love her, so when I broke up with Li Xiaoyun, my father didn't feel a pity. On the contrary, he thought that I let Li Xiaoyun go!

This is a great irony, which makes me helpless and even more painful.

Finally, the street lights outside the window repetitively lit up yesterday's posture. My emotions gradually calmed down in the darkness, but inadvertently I saw the guitar standing in the corner of the wall with my names and Jian Wei engraved... So I cried and cried in grievance.

While I was sobbing, I lit a cigarette for myself. But in the smoke I saw through the future. Even if I put a pair of wings on myself now, I would not be able to reach the place I had fantasized with Jian Wei!

...

The sound of the car whistle outside the window finally woke me up from my past memories. I looked out the window and found that Zhao Li was driving his little Alto Prince.

I quickly wiped away the tears from my face with my hands. I could cry alone and feel sad, but in front of others, I was still the Zhaoyang who was casual and careless of nothing. Just like before, I could instantly change into a mask with a meaningless smile to face Zhao Li.

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Chapter completed!