It was a rainy evening, and the cold wind blew the fallen leaves ravaging the city. Le Yao and I stood at the door of the city’s Maternal and Child Hospital with umbrellas. As the crowd was surging, she looked at me with a little pale complexion.

"Zhaoyang, I'm pregnant."

I was stunned for a moment, then glared and said, "Go to find someone who makes you pregnant. What do you call me to come out for?"

"I've been sleeping with you a man this year. Who am I not looking for you?"

"I said I've slept with you as a woman this year. Do you believe it?"

"Zhaoyang, are you a man?"

"Everyone is out to play. Don't just rely on me for such things. If you want me to be responsible, just take some practical things. Don't play with me without any silence. Who would like to be a father in a confused way?"

Le Yao was silent for a while and said to me: "The child has been taken away, so what certificates are there?"

I was a little angry: "Do you think I look like Kaizi? Your child is taken away, and then..." I raised my hand and said speechlessly: "Then, tell me that the child is from me, Zhaoyang, are you pretending to be naive or am I really stupid?...Le Yao, we are all adults, can we do something decent?"

Leyao bit her lip and looked at me, and said for a while: "You don't want to be responsible, right? I'll go to your company tomorrow..."

"Damn...what do you think!" I said angrily.

Le Yao looked at me with her lip tightly, but I thought she was a good actor. She and I met her in a bar, and then had a relationship. A woman who often went to bars said that she had had sex with me and a man in a year. If I wanted to believe her, I would be a fool.

I didn't want to bother her anymore, so I took out my wallet, took out all the 100 yuan in it and handed it to her: "Don't you just want money? Take it, don't bother me in the future!"

Le Yao didn't say anything or get entangled with me anymore. She nodded and turned around and walked into the hospital with an umbrella, as if she had not paid any owed fees...

Looking at her lonely back in the rain, I suddenly felt an indescribable feeling in my heart. Although I didn't believe that the child in her belly was mine, and although I was very annoyed to her, I also felt that her life would not be easy now, otherwise I wouldn't have cheated me like this.

I was silent for a while and finally called her: "Wait..."

Le Yao looked back at me.

I pulled out a bank card from my wallet and handed it to her: "This card can overdraw some money. You just finished the surgery and buy something to replenish your body."

Le Yao did not answer: "...No need, seeing that you are willing to take responsibility is my purpose. I look for you because I don't want to be sleepy and become pregnant in a confused manner!"

...

In the bar, I was drinking while waiting for Fang Yuan, the only friend and colleague I had in this city.

From the first day of this bar, I have seen too many lonely women, empty men drinking all kinds of wine here, or silence, or looking for something called "Drunk and Dreaming" with desire in their eyes.

In fact, when we abandon the body of the day and make the soul lose it in this piece of lights and wine, we are already drunk and dreaming.

I forgot to start from one night, and I treat this place as a place to settle down. I like the women who twist their waists here, the shaking lights, the wine of all colors, the perfume mixed with the smell of tobacco, the drunkenness and dream of death here, and then carve the messy past into a tombstone in the drunkenness and dream of death.

I lit a cigarette, smoked the film on the cigarette box, covered it in front of me, and looked at the swaying light, and my body swayed. In the light refracted by the film, I seemed to see a kind of erosion that was just passing by! I couldn't help but feel a little fascinated!

...

Fang Yuan took off the film from my hand, and my world suddenly became clearer.

"What's the matter with me so anxiously?" Fang Yuan put down the briefcase in his hand and took out a cigarette from my cigarette box to light it.

"Borrow some money, I was cheated of it!"

"Have the girl's belly bigger again?" Fang Yuan said strangely.

"You uncle again! I was really cheated this time..."

"Who cheated you this time?"

"What do you do for so much nonsense?"

"I lend you thousands every time, and at least let me know that I have all my money till someone has cheated me?"

"Le Yao." I lit a cigarette in my anger.

"That graphic model?"

"Isn't it just her? You are in trouble. She said she had been slept with me in a year. Do you believe it? Fang Yuan, I have to put this on you. Do you believe it?" I was so excited that my fingers knocked the table and made a "crackling" sound.

"This kind of thing can't happen to me. Besides, she won't cheat you for a few thousand dollars. She took all the promotional posters of our department store last month, and the rewards were more than 10,000 yuan..."

I sneered and interrupted Fang Yuan and said, "Don't you look at what she usually spends? Can she hold her back for a month for more than 10,000 yuan? Now something happened to someone else and I had no money to deal with it. I thought of my cheap friend... I am so cheap. I shouldn't have introduced her to our company kindly at the beginning. I didn't give her less money. Now I've cheated me in the opposite way. Is there a bit of conscience in the industry?"

Fang Yuan ignored my anger and asked me in a low voice: "Did you bring that thing when you slept with her?"

I thought about it for a long time but only remembered that I was drinking almost broken pieces at that time. I really couldn't remember whether I was carrying a condom or not. After a while, I said, "I brought it... I can't say I've been cheated!"

Fang Yuan looked at me suspiciously, and after a long time of sighing, he said to me, "Zhaoyang, we are almost ten years old friends. Sometimes I really want to persuade you. I know that Jian Wei breaking up with you will have a big blow to you, but two years have passed, so there is really no need for you to practice yourself like this... Youth doesn't wait for anyone, find a girlfriend to calm down, okay?"

When the name Jian Wei was mentioned again, I subconsciously stunned and said, "Don't fuck. My leisure is here, my buddy is doing a good life!"

"No shortage of worries! Yes?"

...

Fang Yuan enlightened me for a long time, and I dealt with it impatiently for a long time. Finally, he left with a sentence "The mud cannot be supported on the wall", but he left with dissatisfaction, but forgot about the fact that I borrowed money from him.

Fortunately, I have been in the bar for two years and often bring friends to the bar to spend money. I am quite familiar with the bar owner, so I remember the consumption of drinking this time in my account.

Walking out of the bar and walking on the streets wet with an umbrella, I truly understand what being alone means. I have been fighting in this city for two years, but what I have gained is endless emptiness and loneliness. In order to get rid of this poisonous emptiness and loneliness, I had to wear a mask to hide my shame and live. With this mask, I can live in a lethargy and self-flow with peace of mind.

But no matter how hard I struggled on the brink of pain, she would never come back!

...

I walked several stops alone in a state of regret and loss before returning to the community where I lived. This is an old community, so old that there is not even a property. In the first year of my visit, I heard from the aunts in the community that this community was built in the early 1990s. Under the erosion of long years, every building in the community looked so depressed, but one building next to another, for fear of being lonely, so it seemed that each building had life again. This made me feel that when it was late at night, they would also say a few whispers to relieve decades of loneliness.

Holding a cigarette in my mouth, I took out the key from my pocket, and I walked towards the building where I lived. This building is the only building with ivy in the community. Every summer, the south-facing walls will be very green. If these buildings also have gender differences, then this building is undoubtedly a woman, a cold woman.

It often makes people feel sad for her!

...

What surprised me was: a red Audi Q7 was parked downstairs in this dilapidated building. I lived here for two years. It seems that there has been no car with a level of over 500,000 in this community.

Without thinking too much, I whistled and walked along the corridor to the house where I lived. When I arrived at the top floor, I was surprised to find that the door of the house was actually hidden. I remember that when I left, I clearly locked the door. I subconsciously thought that there was a thief coming to my house. After calming down, I remembered that I had not paid the rent to the landlord Lao Li for two months, and it was probably Lao Li who came to urge the rent.

Pushing open the door, the landlord Lao Li and a strange woman were sitting on the sofa, and a string of Audi Q7 car keys were placed on the coffee table. There was undoubtedly the q7 parked downstairs belonging to this strange girl.

Then a question flashed into my mind: What kind of magical power is Lao Li, a troublemaker? He actually appeared in this simple house with such a noble girl as inviolable as white lily. This really puzzled me!…

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