Chuan Linggu's eyebrows and corners of his mouth were shaking, as if he had once again tear open the bloody wound in his heart, making him feel uncomfortable and want to cry loudly.

"Can you imagine? No, you know that I was so petty at that time, even I felt very shameful and disgusted by myself. But I had no choice, and I wanted to spend a penny in half.

Do you know? How do I spend every day? From the moment I woke up, my eyebrows were in the strange eyes of countless people or, in the eyes, with a few words written naked with a few words "poor ghost", "stingy", "mountain people", "freak", and piercing them into my heart like needles, do you know?"

The Adam's apple of Chuanling Valley rolled up and down a few times, took a sip of cigarettes, and coughed so hard.

"You don't understand how I feel, because you haven't tried it, you haven't tried it because I'm going to college, our family sold everything, and even my father didn't even get sick.

Yijun, I am unfilial to Chuan Linggu. My father, my father’s death is because of me, because I want to go to school. Haha, it’s really acne. Why did God treat me like this? Why?”

Chuanling Valley became more and more excited, but he still suppressed his voice. The sound sounded like a beast trapped in a cage.

"Why do I work so hard, why do I work so hard, and the result is still like that? Yijun, I am not here to ask you for forgiveness, I just want to tell you that I am really scared of being poor, I don't want to continue living a life of stagnation, I don't want any family members to leave me because of money. I just want to say to you, I'm sorry for being four years late."

On the verge of the explosion, Chuanling Valley used strong reason to pull back the emotions that were about to escape, and became calm again.

After hearing this, Zhang Yijun looked back at him, her eyes were very calm. Maybe this is what she was waiting for.

"So, for these reasons, you chose to give up on me? So, you would rather lose your dignity? You would rather bear the infamy against your will and be despised by countless people? Chuanling Valley, I look down on you!"

Zhang Yijun closed her eyes and said sadly: "I liked you at the beginning because of your arrogance and positive heart that is not moved by ordinary people.

At that time, many people looked down on you, but at least you can look down on yourself. Now, even you look down on you, how can others look down on you?

You know that many people nowadays please and respect you on the surface, but their hearts are full of ridicule and belittlement. In their eyes, you are a villain who is tempted by the enemy. Do you know?

As a man, you lose your most precious dignity. You abandon your love and love just for the sake of others' alms. Food that comes with you? I look down on you."

Chuanling Valley was speechless, not knowing what to say. Zhang Yijun said "I look down on you" and was so bloody that it was full of holes.

Once upon a time, Zhang Yijun was the softest corner of his heart. She would not look down on him. She understood everything about him and gave him great support and touch.

And now, she looked down on herself.

Yes, I did that, and I even looked down on myself. Do I still hope others can look down on myself?

Chuanlinggu took a deep breath: "Haha, I know they are all fence-bearing grass that falls with the wind, I know they look down on my past. No, even I look down on my past...

Forget it, we can't go back anymore. I have never regretted the decision I made. At least now, because of the decision I made, my family is living a good life. At least they no longer have to hide in the old adobe house that has been trembling for more than 30 years. The night wind is flowing back, I have no money to see it when I am sick, but I only know when I die of illness.

At least I will no longer delay the things I want to try because I don’t have money to buy a cigarette. At least I don’t have to bear the strange gazes of countless people, and I will no longer be stunning.

I don’t expect you to forgive me, and I can’t repay this emotional debt. I just hope you live a good life so that I can feel more at ease.”

Chuan Linggu extinguished the cigarette in his hand and threw it into the trash can.

The two continued to remain silent, as if time had stopped.

"You are indeed a coward. Are you so unconfident in yourself? Can't you succeed without relying on a woman's nepotism? Is the moon in foreign countries more round? Are you feeling at ease?"

Zhang Yijun almost couldn't help but feel confused, but she held back: "Where did that confident, strong, and harder than everyone else go to? With so many roads, you chose a road that makes me look down on you the most."

After walking through it, it will leave traces, and after love, it will leave memories.

Zhang Yijun had no way to forget, nor could she give up completely.

What she even thought of in her heart is not her grievances, not her pains, or her tortures, but her alternative hatred for being unable to make a living and hating his depravity.

"But, I am not you, I can't lose, because I can't afford to lose, and I can't wait. I can't give up any opportunity. Leaving Shiman is my best principle and the easiest choice to succeed. I have no regrets."

Chuanling Valley smiled bitterly, and was meaningless.

"Since that's the case, why did you come to me? There is no need to talk about it anymore. It is the most unwise choice to confuse the past. Since you chose Luo Shiman, then that's it. I don't bless you, nor do I forgive you, I - understand you."

After saying that, Zhang Yijun left slowly, her back was as faint as the fallen leaves in the autumn wind.

Chuan Linggu opened his mouth and struggled a few times, as if he wanted to catch something, but he couldn't catch anything.

"Yijun, I know you are not doing well. I know that Ye Wuque is not your boyfriend. Forget me, you must be happy so that I can feel at ease." Chuan Linggu said with a sob.

Zhang Yijun's face turned pale.

Yes, just like I understand Chuanling Valley, Chuanling Valley also knows me, how can I not see that I and Ye Wuque are not real lovers?

It’s ridiculous that this “war” turned out to be just a farce of tacit understanding. Those who win will not be happy, and those who lose will also be heartbroken.

However, Zhang Yijun suddenly felt very aggrieved when he was exposed by Chuanling Valley like this and shouted like this.

She bit her lip and prevented herself from crying.

Chuan Linggu watched her leave blankly, and Zhang Yijun's footsteps seemed to step on his heart, as if something had been peeled off from his body and life.
Chapter completed!