Chapter 9: The Forgotten Pure Dream(1/2)
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On a beautiful night of moonlight, Kiritsugu Emiya sat quietly on the floor of the corridor, looking at the moonlight.
Although it is winter, the temperature is not very low, just making the skin feel slightly chilled. This is a good weather for watching the moon.
Sitting beside him was a boy. He also looked at the moon quietly with Kiritsugu.
His name is 'Shirou'.
It was the only existence that Emiya Kiritsugu rescued in the flames that made him lose everything.
Five years have passed since then. "Shirou" who was still a child at the time is now growing up.
Emiya Kiritsugu adopted "Shiro" who had no support due to the fire as his adopted son, and tidied up the abandoned house with a warehouse bought by Alice Phil, and barely lived.
As for why he did this, he didn't even know.
The purpose and belief that the man named Kiritsugu Emiya once had was transformed into ashes with the huge cremation. What came back from that wasteland was nothing more than a wreckage with only the heart beating.
Bai Ye knows this very well.
In fact, if Kiritsugu Emiya hadn't rescued him, he might have really died long ago.
But he met himself. He met this child (fog) who escaped by chance in the fire that killed countless people.
It was this miracle that allowed him to be reborn from the body once called Kiritsugu Emiya.
Even now, this is a wonderful life.
The man who lost his wife and daughter became a father again
The child who lost his parents became a son again
Looking back on this unchanging life is repeated every day.
Shiraoya now calls Kiritsuji, who is less than 40 years old, "Kietsuji". He directly calls his name, maybe he thinks it is more natural.
But in fact, the energy remaining in Kiritsugu's body has almost reached the point where the oil is exhausted. From this point of view, even calling grandpa is no different.
After that, the years spent peacefully were like being in someone else's dream.
The life that had already lost everything was based on the day five years ago as the dividing line, and no one had disappeared in front of Kiritsugu again.
Whether it is Bai Ye, Dahe, Lei Hua, or the young people from Fujimura, they have never left after meeting and are still together.
And the previous encounter was just the beginning of separation.
But such happiness is not unreasonable.
Because what he had lost before would never come back.
Kiritsugu once used the excuse of "going out for a trip" several times to trick Bai Ye into staying at home and going to the place where Ainzberen is. He wanted to rescue his daughter who was left alone in the winter city.
But no matter how persistent Kiritsugu went, Yubstakuhaid refused to open the barrier of the forest.
This is also a matter of course.
Due to Kiritsugu's betrayal at the last moment, Einzberen failed in the Fourth Holy Grail War. Even if he was sanctioned, he could only remain silent.
But Ahad did not do this. Did he want to expel the betrayer like a wild dog and survive in the name of shame for the rest of his life? Or did Kiritsugu never see his daughter in this life, and use this as the most severe punishment for him? In short, this has become a fact.
If it were Kiritsugu, who was famous for his "magic killer", he might be able to forcibly break through this extremely cold barrier and rush to his daughter.
But Kiritsugu, who has been in contact with "all the evils in the world", has been eroded by curses, and his body is gradually weakening. His hands and feet shrink, his vision begins to blur, and he has completely lost his ability to manipulate magic, almost no different from a serious patient. Even if he is unable to find the starting point of the barrier, he can only wander in the wind and snow, and wait until he dies.
He understood that his efforts were just in vain. Recently, Kiritsugu had vaguely felt that his death was approaching. It should be said that from the moment he was cursed by the black mud, there was not much time left.
So recently he has been staying at home and suddenly, indulging in his memory.
What is your life
He thought this way, and quietly looked at the moon shadow with Bai Ye.
"When I was very young, I was very eager for the incarnation of justice."
Suddenly, he murmured unconsciously.
Just like a ship that sank at the bottom of the water for a long time ago, the forgotten language suddenly blurted out because no one cares about it. Yes. I don’t know when, he seemed to have said such words to someone. Although it was not realized in the end. But when did it happen?
However, after hearing Kiritsugu's words, Shiratsuya did not show surprise, but instead smiled happily.
"I didn't expect Kiritsugu to dream that you were so childish."
"It's right, because once you become an adult, it's hard to achieve it. I would have known this earlier."
Kiritsugu pretended to look at the moon in the distance, hiding his sad memories with a bitter smile.
If I had realized it earlier, I would not have been deceived by sweet lies such as miracles under the banner of dreams.
He once liberated the demons who were enough to destroy the world for his ideals. It was too late when he discovered his mistakes, and countless people died for it.
The hell messenger is still hiding at the foot of Mount Yuanzang. Kiritsugu went there many times after that battle with explosives. After several years, he finally figured out the situation of several veins and carefully created a "tumor" somewhere to Mount Yuanzang. This was also the last time he used magic in his life.
The spiritual power generated at the intersection of several earth veins will accumulate on the "tube" over time. When it exceeds the critical point, a local earthquake will occur in the depths of the Yuanzang Mountain.
If it is fast, 30 years, or 40 years slow, the "tumor" will inevitably break. If the calculation is correct, the hole inside Yuanzang Mountain will collapse, thus sealing the "Great Holy Grail". Even if he cannot live to see that day, Kiritsugu has tried his best to stop the Fifth Holy Grail War 60 years later.
Bai Ye did not fall into deep thought because of Kiritsugu's words, but said lightly: "Dreams themselves are unrealistic, and it is natural to regret them."
"Yes, but I feel a little regretful when I think about the process of realizing my dream."
"That's the case, then there's nothing I can do."
"Well, there's really nothing to do."
Kiritsugu also had a slightly painful interface.
no way
There was not much mourning or tribute in this sentence, Kiritsugu looked into the night sky.
"Ahhh, what a beautiful moon."
A night with such a beautiful moonlight seems to be the only one to see in my life.
It’s true that he is still very lucky to be able to leave such wonderful memories at the end of his life.
"I'll say--" Bai Ye suddenly spoke.
"I'm talking about assumptions, that's right, assumptions. If the assumptions can make you do it again, will you continue your dreams? Will you still stay those regrets?"
"Um?"
Upon hearing this, Kiritsugu Emiya looked at Bai Ye in confusion.
But when he looked at Bai Ye's face, he also saw his expression.
I was stunned for a moment.
That was an extremely serious expression without any impurities.
A pair of bright eyes looked at him quietly, as if waiting for him to answer.
Kiritsugu laughed, and he didn't know why he laughed, he just felt very happy.
From Bai Ye's expression, he could find a feeling of being understood.
Does this kid really understand his regrets? Kiritsugu doesn't know.
As for the problem—
"That's it. If there is such an opportunity, I think I'll probably continue. As for regret, it's better not to leave something."
Kiritsugu answered in a jokey tone, but his words contained an indeceptible bitterness.
"I understand that since Kiritsugu's dream is like this, I will help you realize it, because it is also my dream."
In the dark night, the young man swore as if nothing had happened.
He said that helping others realize their dreams is his dream?
No, it's not like this, but it has a deeper meaning.
But at that moment, Kiritsugu remembered it.
He also swears like this, and said this to someone who is more important than anyone else.
At that time, he firmly believed that what he had in his heart would never be lost. And now he had forgotten that confidence. He knew the moment just now.
"Do you remember what I said five years ago? I want to change, change things that I think are unreasonable. In my opinion, Kiritsugu's dream is very pure and beautiful, so I will help you achieve it. This is both an agreement and a guarantee of a man."
Bai Ye continued to tell the words like a vow. His words, together with the night of tonight, became an unforgettable memory of Kiritsugu, and were deeply imprinted in his heart.
Yes. If he was in such a beautiful moonlight, he would never forget it.
The boy's initial thought and this precious and pure agreement will surely become the most beautiful memory that will always remain in his heart.
If the boy understood the sorrow of this ideal, he would probably regret it. Kiritsugu thought.
But as long as he remembers this night-
Then he will definitely be able to recall his self at this moment.
Recalling this young heart that is fearless, does not understand sorrow, and full of longing in my heart.
To be continued...