Chapter 165 Be Your Own Sun
In the evening, Lin Xiaotian went back.
It was already twelve o'clock at night when Lin Xiaotian went back. Originally, Lin Xiaotian thought Lin Qingxue should have been asleep.
But to his surprise, they didn't sleep.
Lin Qingxue and Jing Yuruo were sitting in the living room.
However, the two of them were in a bad state. They sat there without saying a word.
It was not until Lin Xiaotian went in that Jing Yuruo glanced at Lin Xiaotian.
He opened his mouth and wanted to say something, but Lin Xiaotian waved his hand and stopped Jing Yuruo.
At this time, Lin Qingxue stood up.
She looked at Lin Xiaotian and looked at her for a long time before asking, "What do you mean by not Lin Xiaotian?"
Lin Xiaotian looked at Jing Yuruo and smiled, "I thought you had told Sister Xue."
"I don't." Jing Yuruo shook her head.
"Then let me say it."
"Lin Xiaotian!"
Jing Yuruo called Lin Xiaotian, as if she wanted to stop Lin Xiaotian. Jing Yuruo still hoped that Lin Xiaotian would appear as Lin Xiaotian's younger brother.
But Lin Xiaotian waved his hand and smiled, "I don't want to be a substitute anymore.
Just right, let me talk now."
Lin Xiaotian took a deep breath, then pulled Lin Qingxue to sit down.
"I know, you have always been curious about why I am different from the one I used to be. Then I can tell you that I am not your younger brother, your younger brother is dead, and I am another person who looks very similar to your younger brother."
"What did you say?"
Lin Qingxue was shocked.
"My name is Lin Xiaotian, but I am from Yanjing, not Jiangcheng. I have never appeared in Jiangcheng two months ago, and I didn't even know that there is this city."
Lin Qingxue shook her head, she was unwilling to accept this fact.
Jing Yuruo sighed.
Then he walked over and sat next to Lin Qingxue, then grabbed Lin Qingxue's arm and said blamingly, "I'm sorry Qingxue, it was me who lied to you. He is indeed not Lin Xiaotian. You were immersed in the pain of your brother's death at that time, and I couldn't stand it.
I happened to see him look like your brother, so I brought him back and asked him to help. I know you found it incredible. In fact, I found it incredible at the time, but the truth is that, I believe it in the end."
Lin Qingxue hugged her head and kept shaking it. She had doubts before.
She even believed it, but she was unwilling to accept this fact, really unwilling to do so.
"Why did you tell me this?"
Lin Qingxue suddenly raised her head, looked at Lin Xiaotian, and then asked with a sob, "Why, do you want to tell me all this? Can't you say it? I'm still treating you as my brother. How great is this? Why do you tell me this fact?
Don’t you think this is cruel?”
Jing Yuruo wants to comfort her.
But Lin Xiaotian was held back.
Then he said, "I won't tell you, are you cruel to me without realizing it?
I am Lin Xiaotian, not your younger brother, and I don’t want to be your younger brother for the rest of my life, because this is not true.
One day is fine, one month is fine, one year is fine, is it just like this for a lifetime?
I have my own life, I have my own life, should I hide it for the rest of my life?
I--
I went home before and I went through a lot of things. My brain told me that I didn’t want to hide myself or even be a substitute for others.
This feels bad, very bad.
I want to be myself, so I told you all this.
I don’t want to deceive you either. I don’t want to hurt you. If you still treat me as your brother, I will still be your brother. If you don’t treat me as a relative, I can understand.
Then I will leave and will not stay here again.
I'm sorry for you, I'm sorry, I deceived you and hurt you before, and I hope you can take good care of yourself in the future, don't be too stupid and naive, don't be stupid, don't be foolish, and don't be foolish if others say anything.
Just like when Sister Ruo brought me back, don’t you doubt that your brother is dead and who has been buried in the ground can still be resurrected from the dead?
Therefore, I also hope that you can be smarter in the future and not let the people around you say whatever they say.
Including me, Sister Ruo, and your boyfriend, An Haoyu.
I'm done."
Lin Xiaotian took a deep breath.
He felt very comfortable, really comfortable.
From today on, he is no longer a substitute for Lin Xiaotian. Moreover, he is not the useless Lin Xiaotian in Yanjing. This is his real self. This feeling is really good.
"sorry!"
Lin Xiaotian glanced at Lin Qingxue and murmured in a low voice.
"I hope you can take good care of yourself in the future and I'll leave."
Lin Xiaotian stood up, looked back at Lin Qingxue, and then walked out.
But as soon as he walked to the door, Lin Qingxue suddenly stood up.
"Stop leaving."
A choked voice came into Lin Xiaotian's ears.
Lin Xiaotian stopped and then looked back.
I found that the woman was already full of tears.
"If you leave, whoever is by my side protects me, I can easily believe others. I am very stupid and naive. I have developed a habit since I was a child. It is not so easy to change it. If you leave, I will be deceived in the future. Sister Ruo is not smart and stupid."
Lin Xiaotian's eyes were red.
"Do you know why I'm back?"
"I can't stay in Yanjing anymore. I don't know where to go, so I came back to Jiangcheng. I don't know why, I've been back here anyway."
“Welcome home.”
Lin Qingxue said.
"Thanks."
Lin Xiaotian took a deep breath, walked over and hugged Lin Qingxue.
"Thank you, I have a home here."
This night is destined to be a sleepless night.
night.
Lin Xiaotian sat on the roof, looking away alone.
The drizzle was drizzling, wetting Lin Xiaotian's clothes.
Suddenly, he felt that the rain was a little lighter. When he looked up, he found Jing Yuruo standing beside him with an umbrella.
"What are you doing when you sit here alone?" Jing Yuruo cursed with a smile.
"Let's play cool." Lin Xiaotian said with a smile.
Puff!
Jing Yuruo smiled.
Then he sighed and sat down.
"Qingxue is sleeping, she is in a bad mood."
"I know." Lin Xiaotian nodded.
"You can wait until Qingxue is in a better mood and tell her why she has to say it now."
"I'll say it sooner or later. If I don't say it, it will only make her feel more and more that her younger brother is still alive, and there is no need.
And, I don't want to pretend anymore.
I hate this feeling.
She also has to accept this fact. There are some things you must learn to be strong yourself.
It will be dark. When there is no sun, sometimes you have to learn to be your own sun.
I am like this, and Lin Qingxue should be like this too."
Lin Xiaotian stood in the rain, and his figure seemed a little lonely.
This feels like it is.
There are lines in the cold wind and trembling in the scorching sun.
It's inexplicably distressing.
"The clothes are torn, what are you doing? Stop showing off, go and change into clean clothes." Jing Yuruo didn't know what to say, so he could only laugh jokingly.
"How can I hide my peerless charm without wearing some worn clothes?"
Lin Xiaotian also laughed.
Chapter completed!