late at night.

On the small path in the forest, Yang Qianqian helped Yu Luosheng and sat by the small lake.

Watching the leaves beautifully under the faint moonlight, watching the leaves slowly clear away the ripples...

"How is it? Are you feeling more comfortable?" Yang Qianqian asked with concern.

Yu Luosheng drank a little too much today, and he fell asleep while in the car just now.

When the cool breeze blew, Yu Luosheng felt much more awake. Looking at Yang Qianqian, who was leaning against her, she felt a lot more comfort.

However, he was worried that the smell of alcohol on his body would smoke her, and although he wanted to hold her, he did not do much.

"It's much better." Yu Luosheng nodded.

"Can you tell me about your affairs? It's about you leaving home and not participating in the professional league." Yang Qianqian asked softly.

These days, it can be said that Yang Qianqian's understanding of Yu Luosheng has completely subverted Yang Qianqian's understanding of Yu Luosheng. She knew that he played very well in the competition, but she never expected that he would stand at the highest honor in the field of e-sports.

But why didn't he keep going?

It can be seen that Lin Dong, Zhou Yan, Da Luo, and Xiao Bei all have a love for e-sports that ordinary people cannot understand and understand. They must have laughed and shed tears countless times in the e-sports arena.

Yu Luosheng remained silent.

Yang Qianqian didn't ask much, but just sat next to her quietly with her.

It was quiet by the lake that you could hear the sound of water slowly being pushed away.

"I've been away from home for two years..." Gradually, Yu Luosheng's voice broke the silence. He looked at Hushui and said, "That should be when I first entered the first year of high school..."

"I haven't called home once in the past two years. They don't know whether I'm alive or dead, nor where I am...

"In those two years, I was immersed in e-sports. I only saw that game, and I didn't care about the feelings of my family..."

"I don't know why I'm so numb, I don't know why I only have a computer in my eyes, and I'm not even willing to communicate with others. I just want to use the keyboard and mouse to surpass and defeat."

"After losing that game, I woke up a lot and suddenly realized that I had nothing. At that time, I didn't want to go anywhere, I just wanted to go home."

When he said this, Yu Luosheng stopped.

There is a mood that is really hard to describe in words. He clearly remembers that after getting off the plane, he felt like he was dead, without any blood flow or heartbeat.

He admitted that he had completely become addicted to e-sports and could not extricate himself.

Only through continuous victory and continuous transcendence can one satisfy one's heart that cannot be filled at all.

However, once it fails, it feels like the whole world is collapsing.

At that time, he regarded games as faith and as the pillar of his spirit... and was approaching a state of madness.

A few nights before the British competition, Li Yun, a mother who had not been in contact for two years, called.

Yu Luosheng didn't know where she found her contact information in the UK. This phone call made him cry.

He thought he could not support his life without family and affection, and could face everything alone.

But when he said something to his mother Li Yun, he felt that his emotions that had been suppressed for two years were rushing out like a flood. All his mind was like mother Li Yun, all his father, and Yu Yu's delicacy.

I have been away from home for two years, but I have been with them for more than ten years. Can this blood-soluble relationship really completely dissipate and erase like that?

The statements of mother Li Yun made Yu Luosheng's mind immersed in the electronic world completely awake.

If a person only has a love and madness for e-sports without any other feelings, he is a walking dead person living in a virtual world

"During that time, I couldn't fall asleep. The hallucinations of games appeared in my mind. When I turned my eyes away from the computer screen, I could see nothing.

When a person lives in illusion, it is actually very, very terrible.

"When I was having a free physical examination abroad, my spirit was abnormal... Sometimes, when I was watching Da Luo, Lin Dong and others, I felt very strange." Yu Luosheng said bitterly.

"How could this happen?" Yang Qianqian looked at Yu Luosheng in surprise.

"Addition is that simple, just like many young students will be addicted to a game. I am deeply trapped in a spiritual world that I have dug for myself, and I can never get out of it."

"So, you chose to go home?"

"What about you now?"

"It's nothing now."

E-sports is also like a poison that can eat away from the spirit.

At that time, Yu Luosheng was still very young and had not formed a correct e-sports concept at all. With his extraordinary and super talent, he completely fell into it, and relied on continuous victory and continuous victory to satisfy his meaningless heart.

"Then... you would lose in the UK because you want to go home?" Yang Qianqian asked.

Yu Luosheng shook his head and said, "I tried my best to fight. That person is really strong and strong. After losing, I left with the flow and didn't tell them because I didn't want them to know that my spiritual world is already a little bit unmatched by reality and virtual, and I don't want to tell them that if I continue fighting, it will only make me a lunatic."

"After I got home, I realized that my father was sick and his liver disease was very serious. It happened in the past two years." Yu Luosheng smiled miserably, "I was so angry that he was so angry... His liver was not good at first. He had always had great expectations for me. The first time I got double full marks in elementary school, and I won the trophy for the first time in junior high school, and I won the trophy with excellent grades. He urged me every day and asked me about my study situation every day...

From Yu Luosheng's description, Yang Qianqian can imagine the hope and sustenance of a father for his son...

From this we can understand how sad and angry he would feel when Yu Luosheng ran away from home for e-sports.

"Forget it, forget it, let's not talk about this..." Yu Luosheng shook his head and sobered up a lot of wine.

He doesn't want to say too much.

He is not like Da Luo, Lin Dong, Zhou Yan, Xiao Bei and others without any bonds or concerns, nor does he have the deep guilt that a dedicated father brings them the kind of fatherly love is like a mountain but he has kindness to repay his grudges.

So, after losing that game, he told the British that he would not touch T again. At the same time, when his father Yu Jing forgave him, Yu Luosheng also promised the father that he would not touch professional e-sports again.

Because even Yu Luosheng himself knows that when he touches professional e-sports, he is a lunatic who will sink into the virtual world...

He needs this family and a normal life to get himself out of the virtual shadow.

"When you can control yourself, will you fight again?" Yang Qianqian asked.

Yu Luosheng shook his head.

Even if you can control the spiritual world well and separate virtuality and reality well, you may be able to commit suicide by stabbing your father Yu Jing's liver directly with a sharp knife, which is no different from murdering your father.

I can't be so willful anymore, thinking about his hard work every day and the pain he suffered when he was in the hospital bed.

Really, Yu Luosheng, who had done something wrong, could no longer hurt him.

Now he just wants to follow what Yu Jing said, successfully finish college, find a stable job, and slowly take over the burden of family from his mother Li Yun and his father Yu Jing.

"They will help me complete what I haven't done, it's okay." Yu Luosheng smiled.

"Well, I just think it would be a pity for you to be so talented that you didn't participate in the profession." Yang Qianqian said.

"It's a bit, but that's it. I will train with them to help them step into a higher field." Yu Luosheng said.

"Yeah, that's right." Yang Qianqian nodded.

"Haha, do you dislike me, a person who had a problem with my nerves before?" Yu Luosheng said jokingly.

"You can't blame you. You are still so young, and there will always be some situations. Nowadays, children are all rebellious, suicide, and withdrawn. Although you are immersed in the game and cannot extricate yourself, you have won a supreme glory with the reputation of our country. This is actually really amazing. I don't know that you are so powerful." Yang Qianqian said.

"Hehe, that's good." Yu Luosheng laughed.

After chatting with Yang Qianqian for a while, Yu Luosheng felt much more relieved.

In fact, Yu Luosheng only told Zhou Yan about the mental depression, and the second person to tell is Yang Qianqian.

Yu Luosheng was very pleased that they could understand themselves.

Although this sinking now should have been slowly healed with integration into life, considering his family, Yu Luosheng did not intend to enter the professional league.

He will silently watch the newly established LN team and watch them move towards the truly highest arena in the glorious period of e-sports in this era

Come on, Lin Dong, Xiaobei, Da Luo, Zhou Yan.

Without me, you can still enter the supreme palace of e-sports and win the world championship with your regrets.

There was a problem with Y live broadcast, and this chapter was issued as an apology chapter. Although I knew it would not make up for the time spent on YY, Uncle Luan still wanted to apologize to everyone.)
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