Countless broken, eye-like shadows rolled together and condensed into the shape of a crow.

A hazy consciousness is combined-

who I am?

"Yaoyan?"

Why am I Yaoyan?

Because of memory?

What is memory? Is memory important?

Without this memory, can I be considered Yao Yan?

No, the most critical question is...why is it "Yaoyan"?

Is Yaoyan important?

Well, no, the key should be "I am Yao Yan" and "Yao Yan = me".

Is this based on the idea of ​​self-protection and self-positioning?

Because the organs used by humans for thinking are their own functions to manage the body, because such inertia, after having the so-called free will, does it form a path dependence because of inertia?

From external reasons, if one does not prioritize one's own safety, it will be eliminated.

So it's because of a sense of security?

In terms of reason, physiologically, people will have a certain degree of alertness to unknown things.

Because of a sense of security.

However, the core is that this person realizes that he "forgot something" and realizes that he "does not know".

For example, if people lose memory, if they forget a lot of things, or even what they have forgotten, then there will be less fear and anxiety in this matter than they know.

Will pursue "Who am I?" This is itself a defect of human beings and a proof that human beings are affected by the body.

But if I think this way, is there a preset that "unsafe due to external objects" and "may be harmful"?

What the hell do me?

Why do I think I should keep thinking?

Why do I think?

I feel fear of stopping thinking because of a sense of security.

A projection to "death"?

Will stop thinking be equivalent to stopping life?

The underlying logic comes from the body.

So, how should I do it?

Continue to think about it? Find the reason?

No, why do you need to find the cause? Is the cause important?

Not right, why does the judgment of "important" exist?

By the way, I remembered it.

"I" should have anchored a meaning of existence to "self".

If you lose this meaning, "I" may give up everything, or you may lose the criteria for choice and the ability to judge.

But, is the ability to judge what the meaning is?

Why do I think about this question?

Why ask why? Because of curiosity?

But "I" should not have the desire for knowledge...

The chaotic thoughts twisted each other, like the "crow" formed by the shadows of countless eyeballs, the outlines are scattered and reorganized, diffused and aggregated.

Perhaps it was more than ten minutes, or perhaps it was more than ten days, or more than ten years, Yao Yan gradually "recovered" his consciousness.

What catches your eye is the calm water surface connected to the sky and reflected by countless stars.

The gradually clear consciousness made Yao Yan silent for a moment.

I see.

He finally figured out a problem.

Why is I "so special".

Why do other "spiritual creatures" have their own desires or obsessions?

But because the "spiritual creatures" without their own desires and obsessions may have disappeared.

Without "self", without the willingness to combine "self", the spirit cannot even be condensed.

Even if you have the ability to resurrection, you will not even fail to carry out because you have no motivation.

"It doesn't matter whether it is life or death."

After losing motivation, you will be in such a state of mind.

This is something that is easy for humans to understand, but difficult for them to understand.

The former refers to understanding the reasons, while the latter tends to mean "identification".

Human beings can be deceived, which means that they can also mislead themselves and deceive themselves.

Looking at the water, he couldn't help but start to recall what he had encountered before.

Defects represent great operability.

If the judgment is based entirely on 100% and requires "exactly the same" to reach a judgment, then it will indeed be very rigorous.

But this will lose space and become rigid.

The advantage is accuracy, while the disadvantage is rigidity.

But... the word "refractory" itself is judged with values, a word with praise or criticism.

Positive and negative words are the simplest and easiest to be judged and discovered, but they are also the most easily infectious.

This kind of description can be used to make the target judge such as "attacked" and "surrender".

As for why these things come to mind?

because.....

"World Will".

Although he was almost killed just now, he also realized one thing-

Having a mindful mind but not a very strict judgment mechanism, even if you weave a strict defense for yourself through knowledge and experience, the risk of being fooled cannot be avoided.

No, even if there is a strict judgment mechanism, it can be fooled, awakened, and exploited.

He has no so-called fear.

The memories inherited from the self in his lifetime and the three views and logic that are integrated with this set of memories tell him that "for safety", he needs to be "cautious" and need to be respectful or vigilant about the world.

But, he doesn't need it.

Because "safety" is not important to him.

Death is not terrible.

Fear of death?

Yao Yan, in the crow's posture, shook his head.

The driving force he gave himself is the "value sequence" created for himself based on memory.

In this value sequence, "safety" is put first.

But...in fact, this value sequence has an implicit premise-

He needs to determine that this series of values ​​is credible.

He must trust this sequence of values ​​before he can regard security as the core of his thinking according to the sequence.

However, his concept of the word "credibility" is in a state of "distrust".

No, the description of "distrust" comes with a derogatory presupposition.

But he was not sure how to describe this feeling.

"It doesn't matter"?

Maybe that's the description.

His thinking, his judgment, and all his actions require him to take the initiative.

Once he stops, he will remain silent.
To be continued...