313 Desperate(1/2)
The lady thought Shen was too cruel. People said that she was not very kind to give birth to a kindness, but Shen did not care about Chu Qianhuang at all. It was obvious that even if Chu Qianhuang was not crawling out of her belly, she was also her daughter.
This Shen family has no sense of being a regular wife at all!
The lady's face changed several times, and she had thousands of words in her heart, but finally she closed her mouth.
Since Chu Lingxiao was punished, Shen has been the only one in the marquis's mansion these days.
The grandma did not dare to show off her mother-in-law's poem. She held Chu Qianhuang's hand with one hand and comforted her softly with heartache: "Sister Huang, don't worry, I will find a way to ask your concubine and aunt to plead for you, don't be afraid."
As he spoke, the Madam's eyes turned red and a layer of tears appeared in her eyes. For Madam, Nan Hao was just like those Chi Di, and they were all wilderness outside the Great Qi.
Chu Qianhuang's eyes slightly turned, and she forced herself to suppress all the negative emotions just now.
She finally got to this point and could no longer cause any changes. She must go to Nanhao as soon as possible!
"Grandma, don't worry." Chu Qianhuang took out a handkerchief, gently pressed the corner of the lady's eyes, wiped her tears, and comforted her, "It's also a good thing for my husband's mansion to marry Nanhao. Maybe the emperor will feel that he is in debt to the Chu family and is willing to let his father come back."
Chu Qianhuang looked at the lady with a sincere face, her eyes clear.
"Sister Huang!" The lady felt even more distressed when she looked at Chu Qianhuang. She felt that this child was just sensible and knew how to respect her father. She deserved her son's love for her so much over the years.
So, the lady was even more resentful to Shen.
"You have to consider your own future. You are still so young, you are not as good as you can." The lady deliberately raised her voice.
These words were said specifically to Shen. On the one hand, they wanted to make Shen soft-hearted, and on the other hand, they wanted to remind Shen that there was a concubine of Chu in the palace. Their Marquis' Mansion was not really helpless, and they wanted Shen to restrain themselves.
Shen looked at the grandmother-grandson-grandson-like grandmother-grandson-like grandmother-grandson-like grandmother-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-grandson-
The atmosphere around immediately became a little weird.
Shen immediately changed his smile and told the doorman to say, "Go and welcome."
While Shen asked the eldest maid Dongmei to prepare the tea and snacks that Chu Qianchen liked, he went to meet Chu Qianchen himself.
Seeing that Shen had only Chu Qianchen in his eyes and could not see Chu Qianhuang at all, the grandmother became more and more pity for Chu Qianhuang, and felt that her eldest granddaughter was really suffering.
Even if my son and Aunt Jiang have everything wrong, this child is innocent, right?
The lady thought in her heart that she must think of a way and must not let Chu Qianhuang sacrifice so much for the Marquis' Mansion.
The lady pulled Chu Qianhuang back to Rongfu Hall, while Shen came to Yimen with light steps in the cold wind. She didn't feel the cold at all. She saw a familiar Zhuhe car just stopped steadily under the guidance of the doorman's wife.
Jiang Yuan jumped out of the carriage first, drove over and opened the door of the carriage, put down the footstool, and carefully helped Chu Qianchen down.
"Sister Chen!" As soon as Shen saw Chu Qianchen, he stepped forward and took his daughter's arm affectionately, looking up and down. He made sure that his daughter was all right, and the smile on Shen's face became deeper and he was filled with joy.
The mother and the two walked towards the inner courtyard together and talked about some family matters.
Shen smiled and said, "The New Year is coming soon. I still think you must be busy lately, so I didn't go to the royal palace to see you."
Thinking that this was the first year after his daughter married into the royal palace, Shen hurriedly said, "If you have anything you don't understand, just come and ask me."
"I'm not busy, there are few people in the palace, so there are not many things." Chu Qianchen blinked and smiled with his lips bent, with a particularly sweet smile, even the dimples beside his lips were filled with honey.
In fact, Gu Jue has been staying in the royal palace these days. When she was preparing for the New Year, he helped her deal with it. Naturally, he would get twice the result with half the effort.
Seeing that his daughter was smiling happily, Shen was also infected with a smile and said, "Then I will let Brother Mu go and bother you."
There was a bit of joke in her words, which made Chu Qianchen laugh even more happily.
Chu Qianchen responded happily: "Okay, just 'let' Brother Mu'er come."
The mother and daughter came to the main courtyard with a smile and laughter.
Dongmei guessed that the mother and daughter were going to say something, and she had long thoughtfully drove all the other servants out of the warm-up hall.
"Mom, was someone coming to issue the order just now?" As soon as he sat down, Chu Qianchen immediately got to the point and asked on his own initiative.
Shen nodded and replied: "Not bad."
The feeling in Shen’s heart was a bit indescribable and complicated, and it was indescribable or sad.
Chu Qianchen and Shen Wan did not hide anything about Chu Qianhuang from Shen.
That day, Chu Qianchen asked Shen Wan to comfort Chu Qianhuang and tried to guide Chu Qianhuang to meet Prince Andaman, and Chu Qianhuang really went...
Shen didn't know what Chu Qianhuang had said to Andaman, but in the end, she obviously reached some kind of agreement with Andaman.
Over the past half month, Shen has watched Chu Qianhuang sink deeper and deeper step by step, and her heart is getting colder and colder.
During this process, Chu Qianhuang had no desire to repent at all, and even this is still the case until now, never repentance.
Thinking of Chu Qianhuang's appearance just now, Shen's heart was empty, his eyebrows and eyes were also a little dim, and a sarcastic look appeared in his expression.
This subtle emotion flashed by, and Shen quickly calmed down.
Chu Qianchen is her daughter, and she cannot let her daughter be sad.
Chu Qianhuang's choice was her own choice to get to this point. No one forced her, she was responsible for it.
Even if she stops her this time, she will still commit suicide next time.
Shen told himself over and over again that his mood quickly calmed down and drank two sips of tea.
Chu Qianchen ate the candied rose and suddenly asked, "Mom, have you noticed that Chu Qianhuang has changed a lot?"
Chu Qianchen's words were completely unfinished. Shen was stunned for a moment, and his face showed a bitterness: Chu Qianhuang had changed a long time ago.
Before Shen could answer, Chu Qianchen immediately raised another question: "Mom, according to your understanding of Chu Qianhuang, will she really become so fast?"
Chu Qianchen's face was calm and he stared at Shen's phoenix eyes that were eighty or ninety-nine times similar to her.
"..." Shen was confused when he heard this, his eyebrows moved slightly, and he didn't understand why Chu Qianchen asked these questions, but he could vaguely feel that she seemed to be trying to tell herself.
Shen was a little inexplicably worried.
Chu Qianchen held Shen's hand and smiled slightly. The smile had a bit of soothing and a hint of unfathomableness.
"Mom, put aside the present... no, put aside what happened in the past year, think about it carefully, if Chu Qianhuang had been in the past, would she do 'those things'?"
Chu Qianchen looked Shen's eyes intently. Her eyes were as calm as the windless lake surface, clear and peaceful, clearly reflecting Shen's face.
Although Chu Qianchen's question was a bit absurd, it was asked by Chu Qianchen, so Shen would naturally take it to heart and lower his eyes and think seriously.
Next, the room was silent and silent.
Chu Qianchen was not in a hurry, and sat quietly aside, drinking hot tea gracefully.
A ray of sunlight shone in from outside through the window, illuminating the warm pavilion half dark and half bright. There was a quiet and distant atmosphere in the room, and there was a faint stagnation in it.
It seems that even the flow of time has become slower with the spread of silence.
Shen thought for a long time before he raised his head, and the corners of his lips had long lost his smile.
Her expression was very calm, but her eyes were very complicated. Her dark pupils were filled with complex emotions of surprise and doubt, and the corners of her rosy lips were tightly tense.
She shook her head with certainty and said clearly:
"Won't."
As these two words were out, Shen looked away, turned his head to look at the few wintersweets outside the window, and a little nostalgia, a little sadness, and a little helplessness were intertwined.
Her eyes seemed to travel through time and return to the past.
Once upon a time, Huang Jie'er was her most proud daughter. She was gentle, polite, generous and decent, filial to her elders, and friendly to her sisters. She was so bright that she was not as different as she was now, and she would do anything to achieve her goals.
If it was Chu Qianhuang in the past-
She would not provoke Chu Qianling;
She would not insist on being the companion of the third princess against her own wishes;
She won't harm Gu Zhiyan...
She would not be willing to become a concubine Teng in order to go to Nanhao.
...
The past passed by his mind like the wind, causing a tingling pain in Shen's heart.
Shen always felt that Chu Qianhuang, whom she raised, would not do those incredible things, so she gave her opportunities again and again, and then was disappointed with her again and again.
When did Chu Qianhuang change?
What changed Chu Qianhuang?!
Shen's eyebrows were gathered up and he thought about it carefully.
It seemed that overnight, Chu Qianhuang suddenly became another person, a person who even felt strange to her mother.
Shen thought about these two questions again and again, but could not figure it out.
In my thoughts, a little sadness, a little sigh, a little helplessness, a little guilt... and a few unconcealed tiredness.
Whenever I think of Chu Qianhuang, Shen often feels tired.
She looked dim and said to herself, "I'm also blamed for being careless and didn't teach her well..."
"I don't even know when she became like this."
Although Shen had already vaguely felt that Chu Qianhuang had changed since last year, at the beginning, she thought that every girl's family had reached the age of thirteen or fourteen, and she was about to grow up to an adult, and her body and mind would inevitably change to a greater or lesser extent.
She was careless and she should have noticed something was wrong long ago.
To be continued...