Section 196: Establishing Suffering and Destroying Yi (Part 1)
After the fierce battle between Orange Kingdom and the human world ended.
Chen You carried Xu Lan back to the hidden residence arranged by Xu Qing. When he took off her mecha with anticipation, he blurted out:
"Sister Lan, how do you feel?"
Xu Lan's still-still-behaved expression could not help but give him a heavy blow.
She kept hiking into Chen You's arms, her trembling soft body made people feel no warmth.
"What a terrible place, so terrible... Don't take me there in the future, okay? I don't want to go there, so terrible, it's all blood, it's all blood, everyone wants to kill me, everyone wants to kill me..."
Looking at Xu Lan's face full of fear and fear, and with helplessness, thinking of the face that was only peaceful in the past, the guilt in Chen You's heart spread endlessly.
Realizing that no matter how much scattered consciousness is absorbed, he could not form the root problem of Xu Lan losing his main consciousness. He couldn't help but raise his hand and punch him to see if the moment of death would bring back the part of Xu Lan's consciousness.
This almost absurd idea became stronger and stronger. The more Chen You thought about it, the more he realized that this was very likely, just like the scattered consciousnesses after killing the human warriors were naturally absorbed.
Immediately raised my fist with a powerful destructive energy and gestured to my head for a while, but I lacked the courage to shoot down.
Will it be resurrected as it was last time when it died?
If it is really effective, I will become what Xu Lan looks like now, right?
If he dies, what should he do if he becomes Xu Lan today? What about his fiancée whom he has not met yet? What should Ye Tong do...
At this moment, Chen You suddenly realized that sacrificing oneself as a person is different from fighting on the battlefield. When you have a choice, you can't help but think of many attachments and reluctances. Every attachment and reluctance will waste your determination and courage.
Chen You shook off these thoughts and made one think clearly in his mind. If he was the one who died or became like this when he was the one who died, he would not be able to feel happy for his fiancée’s gift these days, and there were no sweet feelings with Xu Qing when he couldn’t help himself.
It was fine if I had no way to start in the past, but now I can understand the devouring and dispersion of fragments of consciousness. Therefore, I found a solution. Could it be that I still watched Xu Lan continue like this because of my own reluctance?
When will his reluctance end? Both the master and the aunt have clearly stated that to save Xu Lan, someone must be willing to sacrifice. Can he find another person who is willing to sacrifice himself?
Thinking of this, Chen You deliberately made his emotions depressed and decadent, and said to himself in his heart:
‘There is no happiness in life, no suffering in death. Life is just a process of enduring torture and expectation that it may never be obtained. In this tragic world where people cannot believe in people and cannot confirm that they are believed, life is not worthy of attachment at all. Only death can bring all this liberation... only death... only death... only death... can bring liberation to emptiness!’
Chen You raised his fist for a long time and finally knocked it down hard in his head.
A hand clenched tightly before the fist with dark blue internal energy hit his head. The strong internal energy attached to the fist was quickly eliminated.
It took Chen You a while to realize that this surprised incident happened.
Xu Lan had only one hand and still hugged him around her waist.
In the closed room, you can't smell Xu Qing's unique body fragrance. Will there be a mysterious master appear like this and stop him?
Chen You was shocked and suspicious. After waiting for a while, he didn't hear any sound. But gradually he realized that the hand holding his fist was as soft as Xu Qing's palm, like Xu Lan's palm.
When he finally opened his eyes slowly, a red lips fell.
While hugging, he touched Xu Lan's arms. He was sure that his feelings were not hallucinations at this moment. His lips were Xu Lan's lips, and the soft and plump body in his arms was also her...
When Xu Lan broke free from his arms and the void floated away, Chen You came back to his senses from her abnormal behavior and reaction.
The complex emotions were temporarily confused and did not know how to speak, but eventually she only turned into words that seemed to be happy.
"Sister Lan, have you... finally recovered? This is so sudden..."
Xu Lan, who looked at him with her back, said softly:
"I am not used to lying and like to lie. I have actually recovered myself on the seventh day after leaving the Chuimu Forest. But I have always missed you very much, wanting to be with you every day like a girl, I like you very much and long for you to have close contact with you.
I deliberately pretended not to be good and asked you to come to accompany me from time to time. The girl wouldn't mind because I always had in your arms. But this is not good. From today on, I will not see you again, but I will continue to miss you!"
After Xu Lan said this, her body was surrounded by black energy fluctuations, and the next moment, it disappeared out of thin air.
Until she left, Chen You still couldn't come back to his senses from the shock.
It was a change that he could not imagine, and a fact that he had never imagined in his dreams. But this was not the most terrifying and distressing thing that made him most. In fact, he had once had a special thought about Xu Lan. If it were the real reason why he used the courage to punch him, he had to admit that at least the general reason came from his special thoughts about Xu Lan that had always existed.
But in the past, he had always believed and believed that it was just his unilateral desire for Xu Lan's unique and beautiful posture. Therefore, it was not uncontrollable and did not care much about it.
Xu Qing and him are now hard to distinguish and can't be entangled. How can Xu Lan's words make him calm and self-control?
Facts have long proved that his ideas and principles cannot be handled as calmly as they imagined when facing real emotions.
‘What kind of mess I have become…’
At the same time, the thought of self-blame arose, Chen You's mind involuntarily said those words of self-comfort and hypnosis appeared in his mind.
‘There is no suffering to die…there is no suffering to die…’
Of course, this is just thinking about it.
Chen You would not have fled to his head so easily.
It was until it was dark outside and the time for the celebration banquet was already here.
Chen You, in the closed dark room, still didn't want to step out of the door. He tried to practice Qi for a while in the room, but he couldn't calm down. He tried to practice sword again, but still failed.
After thinking for more than an hour, he only came up with one result. He felt that he should try to meet his fiancée. He attributed his uncontrollable passion to getting along with too much and too little with his fiancée.
It cannot continue like this. It is still very long before the agreed period is agreed. He is already so difficult to hold on himself. What will it be better in a few years?
Lu Wushang's third communication urge sounded.
"There are twenty minutes left to start. The members of the law enforcement organization always need you, the second-level director, to lead the battle and summarize the battle, right?"
Chen You replied for the third time: "It will definitely arrive before you start!"
"Come on! Damn, although you don't know what happened, it's obvious that you are so confused that you can't take care of yourself. Why don't you talk to Xu Qing?"
"That's even more chaotic." Chen You answered simply, unable to stop thinking sarcastically, and went to Xu Qing to say that because her sister Xu Lan was upset and wanted to talk about her relationship problems?
Is there something ridiculous and shameless?
Besides, this matter does not need to be discussed at all, because it does not require consideration, it must be adjusted, controlled, suppressed, and repeated in this way.
Lu Wushang on the other end laughed and said:
"Okay! I think you are missing that fiancée, right? Why don't you go to find her? Maybe she misses you very much, and hopes that you can occasionally see her without regard for the overall situation?"
"Nonsense!" Chen You hung up the communication in anger, but he was unwilling to let him know that he did have the real idea of this.
Chen You tried to close his eyes and concentrate again, eliminated distractions and went to the celebration banquet to do what he should do.
While working so hard, the closed room was opened and Xu Qing's graceful figure walked into the slim figure.
Chen You always felt guilty at this moment. When he saw her coming in, he spoke first:
"It's okay, let's go to the celebration party together."
Xu Qing looked around the room and asked softly, "Where is sister?"
Before he could sort out his emotions, Chen You answered and asked with a smile: "Didn't my sister pretend to be unconscious anymore?"
In a word, Chen You was stunned.
"You...you knew it?"
"Hehe... Of course! My sister and I have such a high degree of gene alignment, and of course they will fall in love with you at first sight. She is not a stone man, nor does she like women. But she cares so much about my sister's feelings, so she will definitely not say it.
If you don’t like you very much, how could you be willing to take such a risk to save you and help you? If you like you so much, how could you not want to get close to you? The best way is of course to pretend that it is not good even if it is good!
Dear, have you found a way to sacrifice yourself to save your sister today? The sister who is forced to do not continue to pretend."
Chen You opened his mouth and couldn't help but sigh, "Are you so smart? Or are you installing some equipment here and you can hear it?"
Xu Qing blinked his eyes and said proudly: "Who has the ability to install those things next to his sister who hates machine magnetic waves the most?"
"Why didn't you tell me earlier?"
"I told you earlier, have you been worried about it? Besides, my sister feels so sorry for me. I finally have such a way to make me wrong. How could I ruthlessly tear the truth?
In theory, my sister has no reason to have to be wronged. I am such an unreasonable and ungrateful person?"
Chen You was speechless. What he thought was ridiculous not long ago was actually happening in front of him.
Chapter completed!