There is a very interesting paradox in Gu Long.

Most of the characters he portrays are strong, unyielding and indomitable. He has been working hard for his faith and fairness to the world. This is not just because of the social significance of publishing works. In some of his prefaces, Gu Long has also been expressing his praise for his constant pursuit.

Gu Long tries to smile. If you can still smile, there will be hope in your life.

He said so to his readers, to his heroes.

But in fact, he was talking to himself. He tried to convince himself like this. He struggled and tried to laugh at the world and at himself again and again.

His brilliance and his smile shine on many people for a moment. However, the light and heat are limited, and there is no source of energy to constantly ask for. The ancient dragon blooms brilliantly, so life is particularly short.

Gu Long's life is indeed too gray. He can't anesthetize with alcohol, or cover it up with sensuality. He cares about his friends and gathers his friends around him at all costs. But then will he not be lonely?

In fact, the more noise he gets, it only proves that he is in loneliness.

I forgot that it was in the preface of that book that he mentioned loneliness. Loneliness that penetrated deep into the bone marrow. What is loneliness? Amid the cheers of everyone, I still feel in the wilderness.

Gu Long has been in the wilderness all the time.

"If you have experienced many things, you suddenly realize that everything has become a thing of the past; if you have obtained many things, you suddenly realize that it is all empty; when it is late at night, you are the only one left,... Only then will you understand what loneliness is."

Gu Long said this. He escaped from being alone.

What was he escaping?

Loneliness is a word that is too light. Everything originates from pain, and then loneliness deepens this pain.

Pain is unfamiliar. I believe that pain is innate.

Maybe on the day when Gu Long was given, God said to him, "Come on, I will give you words, fame, and pain."

Perhaps Gu Long has been regretting his original choice since then. Unfortunately, he never had the right or no chance to make a choice from now on.

Being tortured by thoughts, being questioned by life, being exploited by pain, being forced by passion.

Alcoholism, sex, and a long and irregular life.

His life burned for only 47 years. At the critical moment of that year, the wheels were turning faster and faster, and his long-tight string finally broke down.

Being tortured by thoughts and being questioned by life.

Born to be a sensitive person, he cannot escape such a fate. He needs to figure out some questions, he needs answers, explanations, and know why this person's time is like this. His sense of loneliness. He stands at the intersection of time, trying to see things clearly and understand some truths.

But who has figured out those things from ancient times to the present?

He is destined to have no answer.

So he is a person without a sense of direction and cannot find the direction of fate.

This is his sorrow and humanity.

Since apes learned to work, human tragedy has emerged. These are animals with brains and thinking.

Why are we humans? Why are we trying to figure out those things?

Without thinking, there is no worries.

Unfortunately, we are humans.

Unfortunately, Gu Long thought more than we all.

People who write have a desire to express themselves in their hearts. There is no doubt that Gu Long has so many works. Gu Long uses a pen to pour out his heart and his characters speak for him. Many times, he can't wait to jump out and speak.

This has been caused by many people.

In fact, martial arts novels are just a genre he chose to express. There is nothing else.

The ancient dragon is a cicada that has spent a lifetime singing. It only longs for people who can understand it.

"I live with a whistle and die without silence."

I want to tell Gu Long that I heard what you were saying. Although I didn't fully hear the meaning of your screaming, I have been working hard.

But he could never hear it again.

He lived for 47 years and was lonely for 47 years. During these 47 years, he had many friends, but many of his friends were not his readers. Many of his friends despise martial arts novels.

What can Gu Long do? He can only drink one cup after another like the characters in his novels.

There is also a woman. Gu Long has always been a real demographic in this regard.

Before his death, he woke up in a coma and said, "Why didn't my girlfriends come to see me?"

I dare not speculate on how he felt when he said this. Is it self-deprecating?

In "The Relentless Swordsman", he deliberately helped Li Xunhuan and Sun Xiaohong. Gu Long said that only women like Sun Xiaohong can truly comfort him.

I don't know if this is true. The biggest possibility is: this is just an ideal. Gu Long's ideal. Gu Long wanted to comfort Li Xunhuan, but he didn't know what to do. In the end, he equated Sun Xiaohong's hair to him. In my opinion, it was really barely possible.

Is Gu Long also looking for a Sun Xiaohong in his life? Looking for a woman to fulfill his dream?

Unfortunately, he did not find it. In reality, he did not even have the right to give himself an explanation with a pen. An explanation, and a sentence in "The Swordsman of the Passionate Sword", he did this, but this is reality. He was powerless to do anything about reality.

In the end, he died and no woman came to see him. He was revengeful. He was destined to be revenge by his dream that he was doomed to be unable to realize.
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